Cheating Death

Dreams

Azrail

I found my way to the party by following the warmth of the fire through the trees. When the fire came into view I was second guessing this whole party thing. I disliked most of these people and they all just spread rumors about me. But I guess this was better than sitting in the house alone.

I grab a drink and find a fallen oak tree to sit on. I stared off into the fire trying to think about all the unanswered questions I have running through my mind right now. I hear some cat calls and whistles that get my attention. I looked over at a group of football players hitting each other in the ribs with their elbows and pointing off to the west. My gaze follows their fingers and I see Ava walking through the trees into the clearing.

She looks absolutely stunning in a white crop top sweater and black skinny jeans that hug her curves just right. I instantly regretted coming here after seeing her. I have thought about her constantly these last few weeks. Thoughts that have had to end in cold showers. I want to leave, but a little voice in my head is telling me I need to stay here for her.

I watched her intently to see Lily leave her alone laughing at something they shared with each other. I wonder what was so funny that she was laughing but Ava was not? Ava walks up to the fire and holds out her hands to warm herself. Where is her jacket? I feel this need to get to her to keep her warm, but I'm stopped before I can move by the scene happening before me.

One of the football players came up behind her and grabbed her around the waist. She turned around to face him and I could see fear written all over her face. She was trying to pull away from him and he was laughing at her, holding her tighter.

"Let me go!" she screamed and he laughed harder.

I feel murderous now. No one should touch her, let alone if she was not consenting. I started walking towards them with my fists balled until my knuckles were white. I was seeing red.

"Oh, I like it when they put up a fight." he said just as I grabbed him away from her and punch him right in his smug face. He fell to the ground with a thump and I'm pretty sure I broke his nose. I was shaking out my hand when I turned to look at Ava. She was protecting herself with her hands, as if she thought I was another threat. My heart hurt seeing her like that. She looked up at me, then at the football player on the ground.

She turned to run but I grabbed her hand gently, not wanting to scare her. I instantly felt this warm sensation like the sun on a summer day on my skin. I stared into her eyes and saw the swirl of emotions in them like two deep silver pools I could get lost in.

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah, I think I will be. You didn't have to come save me though, I could have handled it."

"Yeah, like you were just then." I rolled my eyes.

"If you are just going to make fun of me, then I'm leaving," she scoffed as she turned around and started to walk off.

"No wait! I didn't mean it like that." I said as I caught her hand again and pulled her back to me.

She wanted to pull away again but she stopped and looked at me. I didn't know what to say to her but I had a million different things running through my mind I wanted to say but couldn't seem to. She looked down at our hands, still joined together and dropped hers. The amount of hurt I felt from letting her go was tremendous.

"Would you like to maybe sit beside me and maybe have a conversation?" I asked.

She seemed skeptical at first but she followed me back to the tree I was sitting on by the fire. She was shivering so I gave her my jacket to keep her warm. She should know better than to leave the house without one at this time of year. I stared into the flames of the fire trying to get my words right about what I wanted to tell her. I wish I could give her the world, but I can't. I'm only eighteen.

"Look, I'm sorry for what my dad said about you the other day. I know you heard it. I don't know why he is like that, but I don't feel the same way he does. You are a good person and you always try to take care of everyone, even if it leaves you without them. You are honestly amazing and f**k anyone who can't see that." I rushed out.

She stared at me with her mouth agape. I wanted more than anything to fill her mouth with my member that was starting to grow and press against my zipper. We were just staring at each other like we were having a private conversation. She reached up and touched my face. I leaned into her hand and she licked her bottom lip like she was nervous. I want to taste her so badly. Without realizing it I leaned in and captured her lips with mine.

She tastes so sweet and warm like fresh honey. I don't want to pull away, but I know if I don't I won't be able to control myself. I broke the kiss and placed my hand on her cheek. She leans into my touch and I want to tell her how I feel. A movement in the distance caught my attention and I see Lily looking for Ava.

"I should probably let you go. Lily is looking for you, it seems." I sighed.

She turned to look in the direction I was looking, so I took my opportunity to disappear. I hid in the treeline and watched her look for me. My heart was hurting but so was this absolutely massive erection I had at the moment. I inwardly groaned as I made my way to the house. I wish it was just us in that clearing. I find myself falling more and more in love with her and I barely even talk to her.

I walked through the door to an empty house. Dad is at work, thank goodness, so I don't have to explain myself. I trudge up the stairs and take a cold shower trying to keep my thoughts off her. Nothing seems to work, so I relieve myself and dry off for bed. With the covers pulled up to my head, I groan and try to fall asleep, but I keep thinking of her. After about an hour, I finally fell asleep but find myself sitting on the same log I was on just moments ago.

I'm sitting here trying to contemplate the meaning of this dream when I hear leaves rustling to my left. Jerking my head in the direction of the noise, I see Ava and my mouth drops open at how beautiful she looks. She is wearing a solid white sparkling gown and her hair is hanging loosely down her back in curls. She stops in her tracks when I stand to move towards her. I realize that I'm wearing an all-black suit and I have no idea where it came from.

"I see I can't even escape you in my dreams." I chuckled, walking closer to her.

"Why are you here and why are you dressed like that?" she asked, confused.

"I have no idea but you look radiantly beautiful in that dress."

"Azrail, why did you kiss me earlier?"

"I've wanted to kiss you for a long time. I'm in love with you, Ava, and I don't know how to tell you."

"You love me?" she asked, shocked. I took that moment to grip her by her waist and pull her in close for a hug. I know this is just a dream, but I will take any opportunity I can get to touch her, even if it is in my subconscious.

"Yes, Ava, I love you. I have for a very long time. I have just been too afraid to tell you, thinking that I would be rejected."

"Why be in love with me when you can have any girl you want? I've heard all the rumors Azrail. You are a womanizer." she said matter of factly.

I laughed and dipped her down as if we were dancing. Leaning in close, I whispered in her ear, "Those are just rumors, Ava, and I can honestly say that none of them are true."

She let out a gasp and I took that moment to lean in and kiss her. I pulled her upright while never letting go of her mouth with mine. She tasted so sweet and I just couldn't get enough. I ran my fingers into her hair, cradling the back of her head with my hand and deepening the kiss. I could feel myself straining against my pants and I heard her moan, which made me chuckle, knowing she felt it too. I pulled away from her breathless. We are staring deep into each other's eyes. She leaned in to kiss me back, but just as she made contact with my arms she was gone. I was left standing in the field by the fire feeling warm from the flames but lonely at her sudden disappearance.