Chapter 24
To: Nessa Cahill
Subject: RE: Penzance
Of course I didn’t mean fix Shane! Jesus Christ, Nessa, what do you take me for?! He’s my goddamn kid, he doesn’t need fixing!
Jesus this is f****d up. What does anyone take me for? I’ve loved that kid since before he was even born. Nothing’s going to change that—but everyone’s acting like I’ve got to be some kind of monster and…
He flinches when I walk in the room, Ness. You know how much that f*****g hurts? He looks at me these last few days like I’m about to lose my rag and belt him. Or kick him out, I suppose. I’m still not over that he thought I’d throw him out.
I just don’t know what to say to him. There’s no goddamn manual for this, and whenever I try I come out with something awkward or just out-and-out wrong. I don’t know wha
