She Thought

Chapter 1

 As I am walking through the sideways of a huge highway, I was excitedly waiting for the moment that I would gonna see my friends. The moment I passed by the gate the school seems so loud, people were asking if they are doing well, people are shouting and people are excited to learn again.

I smiled and waved to my closest friends who’s waiting for me and then my heart was the happiest <3 I don’t know why, but I felt home in the school because I feel so happy and free.

“Zylezia! It’s been so long how are you na?” Feigh said.

“I am doing well, you guys?” I cheerfully responded.

“We’re doing good naman.” they responded.

“Hoy alam niyo ba na hindi ko na alam gagawin ko dahil sabi nila mahihirapan daw tayo ngayung nasa 9th grade na tayo, sana hindi nakakastress. Nakakasawa kayang mabuhay dahil pag nasa bahay ka ang palagi mong naririnig ang ingay sa bunganga ni mama tapos dito sa school stress nanaman dahil puro project at mga paghihirap pero atleast araw-araw makikita ko kayo.” Allisha ranted.

“Alam mo lish wala tayong magagawa kundi tanggapin nalang na ito talaga, ito talaga ang buhay kasi hindi mo naman namamalayan na andami mona palang napaglabanan na pagsubok sa buhay pero we’re still here breathing and living happily. Even how hard you think life is, there will be a time that we can say na “life is easy pala and I was mistaken before and tama pala si Zylezia, so let’s live happily and be strong always.” Celestia said to make her calm down.  

“Hay nako alam niyo ang bata bata pa natin tapos parang end of the world niyo na. Ito itatak niyo madami pa tayong pagdadaanan sa buhay, madami pa tayong makilala, at pwede pa natin ma enjoy ang buhay kaya isantabi na muna natin ang mga problema sa buhay dahil alam nyo dagdag stress lang naman yan.” Jeanie said.

“Tama, kaya fight lang sa buhay.” Reniella said.

“You guys are very bitter about life, just enjoy life then you will love life.” I told them.

“Ikaw kasi Zia, you have a very bad perspective in life hay nako kaya you cannot relate with us.” Jeanie complained.

“I am trying naman.” I replied.

I’m very blessed to have this matured friend and how come I was so blessed that God gave me this people in my life. Back then I have some friends in elementary but yeah as I said you need to part ways so you can grow and proceed to the next chapter of your life and so that friendship I made was over but when I reach the high school life it feels different because when you make friends in this age you think it’s for life. We became friends because we are classmates in grade 7 then 4 of us became friends and they are Jeanie, Me, Reniella and Celestia then we have some common friends so they join our squad and they are Feigh, Sersha and Allisha. We easily got clicked because we have same personalities and we are comfortable with each other but the one they complain about me is I cannot relate if they think that life is always cruel and they hate life but for me I find it perfect and I loved it.

“Alam niyo tama na ka OAhan ha, kailangan natin mag-aral.” Celestia spoke.

“Tama ka, so shall we see what section we are?” Sersha said excitedly.

While on the way, I know we’re nervous to the fact that we think that we’re not going to be classmates again but I know that’s the part of life, you need to separate ways to grow, learn and explore something new. I know that we are the happiest when we were together because we are with the people whom we are comfortable with. As time goes by you need to move and accept the reality that the happy moments has an ending and the only thing you can do is to treasure that moment.

 When we saw the list our faces has a mix emotions ; sad, happy, nervous and excited.

“Hey guys, I hope let’s not part ways and break our friendship even we’re not classmates anymore.” Reniella said who’s disappointed through the result.

“Of course, don’t worry guys.” Sersha said.

“If hindi namamansin ang sino man lagot talaga kayo ha!” Jeanie said.

“Haha, alam niyo guys okay lang naman na hindi magpansinan basta walang dapat kalimutan of the good things we do and the memories we spent.” I responded.

“Kaya nga, baka need lang mapag-isa ang iba.” Celestia said.

Then after we talked we parted ways without looking back because it’s hard to let go of that memories if you keep looking back, always remember that <3

Little we didn’t know ay napapalayo na pala kami sa isa’t isa nang hindi namin namamalayan kaya wala tayong magagawa because what happened has already happened you don’t have any ways to change it because it already happened.

“Hey Zia, what are you staring at that flower?” Reniella suddenly approached to me.

“Oh nothing Ren, it’s just fun to see the flowers bloom so beautiful.” I explained.

“It’s like people right? We grow beautifully.” then she smiled.

“Yes we are but some people didn’t grow beautiful just because they think world are cruel because they experienced something that made them hate this world but for me this world is perfect for me. I don’t know why but ever since I’m a kid I always describe life as perfect but when I told people about it they just say I’m so lucky enough to have that perspective. I hope people would respect everybody’s opinion on how they will handle their own life.” I told her.

“You said last time that you have something to ask?” she seemingly asked.

“Ah I did? Oh! I just wanted to ask this, why do you hate life?” I asked.