She Thought

Chapter 3

While I’m on my way to the school I feel like somebody’s following me. Isn’t it weird na may sumusunod sakin ? First, there was an unknown person who sent me letter and today somebody’s following me hay nako. I was walking quietly and out of my mind but somebody push and scare me.

“Hoy!”this voice again.

“Takte ka axell, hindi ka nakakatakot kundi nakakamatay ka!” I said.

“Alam mo zyle yung mukha parang clouds, lumulutang” He really wanted to piss me off.

“Alam mo nakakairita ka talaga, tsaka napakacorny ng joke mo! Hindi ko man lang naintindihan.” I rolled my eyes.

“Ano naman nangyari ha?” he worriedly said.

“Wala, tanga!” sabi ko.

Axell is sometimes annoying but he knows when you needed to be comforted and when you feel lonely.

“Hi Lezia!” Wait this voice is familiar and this person only call me this name.

“Omygosh Edriell! Its nice to see you again!” I excitedly greeted him.

He’s just my super ultimate duper crush who’s very funny, mysterious, handsome, genius, family oriented and talented but he didn’t know that he is my crush because I know how to handle my feelings and in order to not be hurt I should keep my feelings and that‘s why we’re close because we have the same club which is the dance and music club.

“It really took me a lot of time to go back to school because I need to take care of my mom.” Driell said.

“Kumusta na pala si tita, she’s getting well right?” I worriedly said.

“Yeah, mom said na she’s going to be strong for us.”he sadly sad.

“Let’s see each other in the music club nalang.” Driell added then walked out.

“Yeah bye!” I responded.

Edriell is on the 10th grade while I’m on the 9th grade, he’s a senior and one of of my motto in life is “No to junior, no to classmate and batchmate either but yes to senior” no one should judge my decisions because this is my life.

“Kilig ka nanaman, yung ngiti mo abot hanggang langit mamshie!” Axe said.

“Alam mo axe thank you talaga ha sa pag sisira ng happy moment ko.”

Axe is the only person who know that my crush is Edrielle . I trust him because he’s a good secret keeper. He know some of my secrets and I know some of his secrets as well but one thing I didn’t know is his crush. We didn’t believed in that saying that when a girl and boy who’s friend or close always end up being together. I told Axe advance that we should stop if we feel something because if we follow our feelings, our friendships can be crashed that’s why in order to be there when we feel sad and problematic, in order to be there always we should stay to be friend. Some people linked and shipped us but we didn’t want to follow people because we have the rights to choose. I used to crush him before in elementary and he’s aware so he crush me back but I told him na wag nalang because were still so young that time.

“Axe, I really wanted to write a song but when I was on that scenario, my mind was blocked and I couldn’t find nor write any words.” I sadly told him.

“Alam mo zia ang kailangan lang sa pagsulat at ang nagpapaganda sa pagsulat ay kung naranasan mo na ito o karanasan mo basta isapuso molang ang mga gawa mo at higit sa lahat kailangan mo din nang inspirasyon.” Axe advises.

“Then tell me where is that inspiration of mine?” I questioned.

“Ewan ko, malay mo nandiyan napala sa tabi tabi pero hindi ako ha? Alam kong ayaw mo na maging ka-ibigan ang kaibigan mo at tsaka ayaw ko din naman masira ang pagkakaibigan natin o baka nagpaplano na si God nang isang lalaking hindi magsasawa sa perperkto mong pag-iisip.” Axell added.

“Grabeh nayang perpekto ha, over na yan” I laughed.

 Axe could really answered all the questions I wanted to asked and I’m very thankful that he’s here through ups and downs.

“I have something to asked Zia.” Axe said.

“Yes, what is it?” then I smiled.

“Why do you love life so much when I could see that you’re not really okay. You even wanted to cry when you failed, when you fall, when your world crumbles and people even leave you but how can you could still love the life?” Axe asked.

“You know axe that’s a nonsense question. Tara na ng-” I told him and was about to leave but he hold my wrist.

“You are running away again Zia, could you please answer naman!” He shouted.

“Bakit ba! Just care about your life, just mind your own life axe. Bakit if I hate life magiging mabuti ba siya? Axe I love life because I want to. I love life because I’m still expecting na maging okay mga kaibigan ko. Axe I don’t want to be miserable like other people because hindi ako ganon. We have the rights to choose and no one could decide if one person made a decision for herself.” I answered then I left.

 I hate when people asked me that damn question because who are them to decide what I want to do and what do I believe. This is my life and I can do anything I want but people mistreated me because they think I’m so lucky that I won’t hate life but I just do it for their sake.