PROMISES

CHAPTER 03

CHAPTER 03 - The Second Promise

"Now it's time to hear Gio's fiancè" - biglang sabi noong emcee. Bago ako tumayo ay pinunasan ko muna ang basa kong pisngi. I composed myself and when I am already ready I decided to walk towards the mini stage the funeral homes settled. I positioned myself behind a podium and I can clearly see everybody. Our friends, family and love ones are smiling at me, giving me the strength that I can do this but I know well that they too are overwhelmed by the sadness. 

"Gio...." - i uttered his name and just by saying his name a tear immediately fell from my eye. Akala ko tapos na ang pagiyak ko dahil marami na akong nailabas na luha kanina pero hindi pa pala. I really can't stop being emotional, it is because of that video he prepared! Masyado niyang pinaghandaan lahat lalong lalo na kung papano niya ako papaiyakin! Siraulo talaga yun hindi naman ako artista sa isang teleserye para paiyakin niya ako ng ganito!

I heave a deep sigh and I closed my eyes to start my speech already, my last speech addressed especially to him. 

"Gio is my best friend, my sister, my brother, my boy friend, my fiancè and he is simply the love of my life" - dire diretso kong sabi at talaga iniwasan ko ang pumiyok. I can't ruin this thing. Kailangan kong tuparin ang hiling ni Gio saakin at yun ay ang kumanta ako sa araw nang libing niya and I cannot fulfill that wish if I continue to be so emotional. I can always cry later at our home so I decided to open my eyes again to have a better look at everyone. 

And I really want to sing a song that will be a memory, a great memory to all of us. For him and for our love ones hear and wherever they hear that song they will remember Gio Quinto. And I know that Gio will be happy by just hearing my voice and I wish he will never forget me and how I sing this song

"You see , I never thought that I would fall deeply in love with Gio. Wala sa plano ko ang ma-in love sakanya, unang-una dahil ayoko nang masaktan ulit. I am planning to be all alone for the rest of my life" - I stopped at nakita kong napayuko si Xander. Hindi ko intensyong patamaan siya. I am just telling the truth. Ayokong ibalik ang nakaraan sa pamamagitan ng libing niya pero kasama yun sa kwento namin eh. 

"But Gio made me realize that loving is the twin brother of hurting or being in pain. Nainlove ako kay Gio dahil sa pagiging corny niya, sa pagiging sweet niya, sa pagiging bolero niya, at higit sa lahat sa pagiging totoo niya. Yes, nagalit ako sa kanya noong umamin siya na hindi talaga siya bakla at lalaking lalaki siya, he even showed me his abs, tsk. But then again hindi nga siya sumuko na suyuin ako at humingi nang tawad and eventually pintawad ko siya. Why?" - sabi ko at ngumiti ako ng unti-unti kong naalala ang mga nangyari noon. I can still remember how he constantly gave me flowers, cooked me food even though I did not even eat it and many more more importantly, 

"I can still remember how his whole face flushed when he confessed about his true identity at pinatawad ko siya dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na mahalaga siya para saakin at di ko kayang mawala ang isang lalaking tulad niya. Wala akong pakialam kung anong gender preference niya, the only thing that is important that he is Gio.  Hanggang sa minahal ko na nga siya" - sabi ko at nakita ko kung paano sila ngumiti lahat dahil sa sinabi ko. 

"I love him so much and I don't want to lose him. He knows that but s**t really do happens. *chuckle*" - pagpapatuloy ko dahilan para manumbalik ang pagiging malungkot ng atmosphere. I just smiled and it is not a fake one. I smiled because I know that it is for the best and he wouldn't like it if I will cry while I am giving this speech. 

"But wala akong sinisisi na kahit sino sa nangyari. I know God has a plan for everything that has happened in my life and Gio knows that. Gio knows that I can stand up from this downfall and walk again... but I'd be honest... alam kong mahihirapan ako lalo na na wala na siya sa tabi ko" - tanging sabi ko nalang at I can see worry in everyone's eyes dahilan para lalo akong mapangiti. If they can't smile then I will be the one whose going to smile for them 

"Gio left with me a letter containing his wishes and I promise that I will fulfill those wishes. I already fulfilled the first one and now I am about to fulfill the second. I tell you, his wishes are really so quite hilarious and quite saddening but even so, I will do everything because I love him, Zelo loves him and I also know you all care for him " - pagpapatuloy ko at awtomatiko kong narinig ang tunog ng piano. Zelo is the one who is playing. I actually don't want him to play because I know it is also hard for him but he insisted that this is his gift for his father. 

"I dedicate this song is for the man I love, my fiance. The man who made me feel that I am his Queen, to the man who will be always right here in my heart. I love you so much Gio and I guess this is my one last song for you."

Maybe one day I won't sing about you

I'll sing a song about someone new

But right here, right now, you are on my mind

And I think about you all the time

After I sang the the first part successfully, I decided to close my eyes and I almost cried when Gio's face suddenly appeared in front of me, and he is smiling widely. 

[Pre-Chorus]

I'm sendin' a message to you

And I'm hopin' that it will get through

And I know it will really get through because I know you are listening, Hon. I know you are always listening to me

[Chorus]

When it was good, it was bittersweet, honey

You made me sad, 'til I loved the shade of blue

I know you don't want to talk to me, so this is what I will do

Maybe you're listenin', so here's one last song for you

Here's one last song for you

I don't want to part ways, but it is a must. I just wish that you could have stayed a little longer. 

[Verse 2]

And I hope it makes you feel

And I hope it makes you burn

And I hope it reminds you of how much it hurt

[Pre-Chorus]

I'm sendin' a message to you

And I'm hopin' that it will get through

[Chorus]

When it was good, it was bittersweet, honey

You made me sad, 'til I loved the shade of blue

I know you don't want to talk to me, so this is what I will do

Maybe you're listenin', so here's one last song for you

[Bridge]

In case you hear this, then know you're the love of my life

Want to tell you I'm sorry, I miss havin' you by my side

When you were mine

And now you are not with me to support and hold me. To blow my worries away, this I promise you. That you will always be here in my heart and I will never forget you

[Chorus]

When it was good, it was bittersweet, honey

You made me sad, 'til I loved the shade of blue

I know you don't want to talk to me, so this is what I will do

Maybe you're listenin', so here's one last song for you

Here's one last song for you

"Good bye hon. I love you so much"- I whispered and that's the last straw as my tears continuously fell. And when I opened my eyes I saw everyone crying and when I saw that even Zelo is crying. I immediately left the podium, ran towards him and I hugged him tight.