PROMISES

CHAPTER 02

(Continuation)  

Yes you heard it right naging bakla ako well pagpapanggap lang naman eh. Bakit ko ginawa yun? Kasi mahal na mahal ko si Zian even though we are still on the sixth grade. And I know it's a dumb and silly way to say I fell in love with a girl in such a very young age. You might as well call it as puppy love but hell no. I really did fell in love in such a young age an let's say I am quite proud of that. Diba ang landi ko noh? Kaya Zelo! Kung may nagugustuhan ka kahit mags-six ka palang magsabi ka agad kay Mommy ha? Ayoko ng anak na mahina lol.

Sabi niya at ang kaninang natatawa kong istura ay napalitan ng gulat at galit. Siraulo to at igagaya niya pa si Zelo sakanya! And duh? My Zelo is still too young for that! Kung pinayagan siya nila tito at tita na lumandi ng napaka-aga ay nako! Ibahin niya ako! Tsk

But I have to be honest about one thing. That although he is like that that is actually the thing I love most about him.

But if you think of it, I am just a six grader that time and being gay will surely make my father kill me. Right dad? Hahahahahaha. Everyone will instantly talk behind our backs saying that the sole heir is gay yada yada yada. 

He continued and I heard tito laughed. Huh? What the heck is going on? I did not know this side of the story!

You see before really proceeding to the plan making Zian close to me and getting rid of my fangirls by being gay, of course I consulted my parents first. Hindi naman ako totoong bakla so I need to tell them the situation. So here's the thing, nang maging sigurado na ako sa decision ko ay kinausap ko sila mom and dad. They both asked me of what is wrong and I bluntly said 'I want to be gay'

And they borh froze for a moment and in just a blink of my eye may dala dala nang samurai si dad at akmang hahabulin niya ako nang samurai niya para tagain nang pinigilan ko siya. It took me alot of courage to do that and well not actually pinigilan, sinigawan ko siya. Damn I still remember how furious my dad is that time at kung paano natulala si mom. Pfft. Kung may camera lang ako noon ay paniguradong navideohan ko na sila.

"You bastard" - I heard tito exclaimed and when I looked at him, I suddenly felt the sadness enter my system again. For I saw the man who never actually cried shed at of tears at this moment.

Then I said to them that they should first let me explain my side, so I did. Technically hindi ko na nga hinintay ang approval nila para pa-explanin ako. Haler? Baka tagain na ako ni Dad bigla edi tsugi na me!And yun na nga sinabi ko sakanila na hindi naman talaga ako bakla and I will just pretend to be one para maging close sa babaeng gusto ko and I also explained to them everything about the girl who I am in love with at doon nadin sila nag umpisa na kumbinsihin ako na i arrange marriage nalang ako kay Zian para tapos na ang problema ako. But as I have said,ayoko, and that's capital A-Y-O-K-O.

So yeah I asked my mom about girls, everything about them at papano ba gumalaw ang mga babae at papano ba sila magsalita at kung ano ano ba ang mga hilig nila. Syempre wala pa naman noon Si Divine kaya ako na muna ang ginawang laruan ni mom. Kaya hoy Divine umayos ka! *ehem* Going back. 

Unti unti ko yung minemorya kasi talagang desidido akong maging malapit kay Zian and when I am finally ready lumapit ako sakanya at nakipag kaibigan. Una umiwas pa siya saaakin pero noong magasta babae ako at nakita ko ang pagtawa niya ay bumilis ang t***k nang puso ko. Ano ang ginawa ko? Ganto lang naman, ' Hi sis! Pwede ba don't make iwas to me like mayroon me germs! Tska we are the same okay? Girl you and girl then me so let's be magkaibigan!" 

He said and I suddenly heard a few people laughed, even I laughed but when I looked at Zelo. I can't explain it but he looks so pale and I guess he things his father is disgusting.

Lumipas ang mga panahon ay mas lalo pa kaming naging close. Kulang nalang nga eh matulog kami sa iisang kwarto. *ehem* which we actually did at alam niyo hindi ako nakatulog I just stared at her face all night.Oy mga greens! Wala akong ibang ginawa ah! Tsk

At sa paglipas din nang panahon lalo akong nahuhulog sakanya. I want her to be mine. Gustong gusto ko nang umamin na hindi ako bakla na nagpapanggap lang ako para mapalapit sakanya pero natakot ako dahil baka magalit siya saakin at mawala lahat nang pinagsamahan naming dalawa.

So naghintay nalang ulit ako. I waited and waited until nalaman ko nalang na may gusto na siyang isang lalaki a guy named Xander Vergara. Una kumulo ang dugo ko syempre nagseselos din ako pero isintabi ko nalang kasi alam ko wala naman akong karapatan magselos. HASHTAG WALANG KAMI SO PAG WALANG KAYO WAG MAGSESELOS.

*EHEM* LET'S CONTINUE! Anyways hindi naman ako nawalan ng pag-asa dahil wala din namang 'SILA' pero gumuho ang natitira kong pag-asa nang nalaman kong ikakasal na siya kay Xander. Ewan wala na akong nagawa I was hopeless dahil ikakasal siya sa taong una niyang naging crush hanggang sa una na niyang minahal.

But then may nangyari. Hindi natuloy ang kasal

Sabi niya at sumeryoso ang tingin niya sa camera. Kitang kita ko kung paano umigting ang panga ni Gio at kung paano din nagdilim ang ekspresyon niya dahilan para mapahigpit din ang hawak ko sa kamay ni Zelo. Sana huwag niyang sabihin. Please don't tell everybody na buntis ako saktong araw nang ikakasal ako kasi iisang tao lang naman ang nakagalaw saakin. At ayokong hindi mang galing saakin ang katotoohanan na si Zelo ay anak ni Xander. Please.. Please don't reveal it just yet.

I waited for a few seconds and his dark expression returned to his original one. I am anticipating the next thing he will actually say. 

And yeah s**t happens kaya yun we fly all the way to Europe syempre sagot ko lahat ng gastos dahil ako ang lalaki. While we are there sinabi ko sakanya lahat nang tungkol sa katotohanan na hindi talaga ako bakla una nagalit siya. Well that was expected. Tinanggap ko ang galit niya saakin pero hindi ako sumuko para suyuin siya. Syempre tigasin kaya ito! Diba Dad?

I saw him smile. The smile I always see plastered on his face when we are together. The smile that I will never forget. 

"Gio" - I whispered his name and my tears suddenly fell from my eyes. I miss him so damn much and I can't do anything but to whisper his name

And luckily nagbunga lahat. Naging kami, nagkaroon kami nang isang napakatalinong anak and now we are about to get engaged! Plano ko bukas mag propose sakanya kahit alam kong hindi matutuloy ang kasal na pinakahihintay ko na mangyari simula pa noong bata ako.

I've been in love with Zian for a very long time and I think I will be in love with her forever. Sorry hon if I will leave you sooner that you expect it to happen. I know I did promise you that you will never lose me but here I am, making this video because I know that I will leave you. Sorry hon, can you please forgive this bastard?. Patawarin niyo sana ako. Tito, Tita, Zion, Zeal, Divine, Mom and Dad sorry kung iiwan ko na kayo. Nangako ako sa sarili ko at sa Diyos na gagawin ko lahat para maprotektahan si Zian. I am really sorry to leave all of you but always remember that I am always right there beside you guys, especially beside you hon and Zelo.

Never forget my wishes okay? I really hope that you will be happy and fulfill my last wishes. Take care everyone. *Ehem* Spoiler lang mga bes, Alam ko na hindi pa dito nagtatapos ang love story ni Zian. Maybe I am already gone and Zian will be left alone but I know someone will love her greater than I did. But even so I personally believe that my love for her is the greatest! Hashtag Greatest Love of All! Syeeah

Kidding aside, I really love all of you. Especially Zian and Zelo. See you someday and I will try to visit your dreams so that we can still have some time to chat. And to you Zian, my fiance, my love, my forever, always remember me, remember when and where we first started and take good care of yourself kung hindi mumultuhin kita!. Anyways goodbye everyone! See you when I see you!

And before the video ended and I saw him winked and gave a flying kiss at the camera. Pasimple kong sinalo ang halik na yun at nilagay ko iyon diretso sa aking dibdib. Are you happy Gio? I fulfilled your first wish.I hope you are happy there. I love you and I miss you. 

And after a few more seconds my tears started rolling down from my eyes through my cheeks again and I know that I really need to let these all out or else I'll probably lose consciousness and I don't want that to happen