Pregnant with the Bad Boy

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“I will introduce you, even though they already know everything about you…” he smiled charmingly at me now and it felt better all of a sudden, I do not know what I had expected when I stepped in here but I had been prepared that that Dylan was f*****g Lorraine which just felt ridiculous now when he dragged me to the group of his old school friends and I suddenly became shy… I had been so sure of myself walking in.

Bu now…when I was here and he had his arm around my waist like we never broke up, that we had not hated each other in the last few months when he held his hand on my back firmly shooting tingles throughout my back where he touched me.

“Matt, Parker, Tammy, and of course you already know Lorraine…” he said her name dull when I looked at their faces who smiled and said hello when I just smiled back as kindly as I could, I a couple of months ago I would rather been dead than meeting people I did not know after we broke up, I was proud of myself that I managed this.

Lorraine was the only one who did not say hello and I looked at her disappointed, she had said she would tell me if he reached out and she just kept her pretty mouth shut, I had been stupid enough to think we had some kind of understanding between us last I knocked on her door.

“Everyone this is Jen, my girlfriend.” I looked up at him in surprise, I had said last night that I did not want to get back together again…” I sighed as he just smiled at me confidently as they looked happy for him which made me happy too, I maybe I was just stupid who even tried to resist, had we even tried to be friends since I saw him again, even now there was nothing that said friends between us, with him holding me with his arm and I leaned towards his chest unconsciously comfort by the familiar sent and calmness that only he could give me.

“You're the famous Jennifer who drove poor Dyl crazy over here.” The man named Parker laughed out loud as I smiled nervously at him, they were all tall and wide, typical football guys.

Dylan shrugged and grinned not even hiding the fact that I did drive him crazy and drank from the beer had in his other hand with a confident face.

I laughed nervously when one of the girls, Tammy, I recognized her because she was kind of the prettiest girl at the time in high school and she still looked good, better than Lorraine if I was being honest.

She smiled at me curiously, of course, they wanted to know everything about me, everything else had been weird.

“If we know Dylan, he's driven you crazy just as much, right?” she laughed and I followed it, she had no idea.

“Wait, weren’t you a freshman when we were seniors?” The man at the far end looked at me recognizing that he had finally got a face on Dylan's mysterious girlfriend.

“Right.” I nodded in agreement as Dylan squeezed me lightly before pulling me closer to his chest much to Lorraine's anger even though she did not say anything, hurt as hell that she had to stand there and feel stupid, just like I had been allowed to do in church.

“I thought I recognized you, you were pretty smart right?” I shrugged at his question, not smart enough to stay away from Dylan.

“No more than anyone else.” I said the words honestly and they nodded approvingly like I had said something that did not hurt their egos.

“she's studying economics at university so she's pretty smart Matt, smarter than you'll ever be.” Dylan looked at me proudly and I looked up to him lovingly without being able to help, that being proud of me meant more than anyone else's opinion.

Matt laughed at the insult when I pressed myself close to Dylan, I was so happy that I was here even though I was nervous as hell, but it felt good to see who he was with even though it was exactly the same people who barely knew who I was back in school.

“Not smart enough to not get knocked up…” Lorraine mumbled something in the corner before she took a big gulp pf beer and I sighed, I disliked her, no I hated her, but she was Dylan's friend and even though their kiss had broken up our relationship, so I tried not to get pissed and shout that she was a f*****g w***e like I really wanted too.

“Lorraine, shut the f**k up.” Dylan's voice became low and threatening like he did not want to hear another word from her when she angrily looked up at us, she was not ready.

“No, I'm not going to shut up, she treated you like s**t, you were hardly a human being when you came back from Little Rock, should I just sit here and pretend to be happy that you're with her again?!” her bright voice was sharp, her blue eyes filled with hatred as it looked at me like he had not hurt me exactly as much.

“for god sake Lorri, let him be with whoever he wants…” Tammy was the first to say something and I looked surprised at her defence when she saw the redness creeping up from embarrassment on her friend, I thought they all would think I was the worst thing that had happened him but that girl might have already been in his life before me and sat and boiled with anger when she saw me.

Dylan sighed and got tense lines around his eyes, he was tired of hearing her b***h too and I felt bad all the sudden, I was so f*****g jealous on my end and she was no better from hers while he tried to make us both happy. I just wish he had not kissed her.

“No, it's just verry convenient that just when you came back, she shows up and says she's pregnant, do you even know it's yours? Didn’t she f**k another guy?!” I closed my eyes for a few seconds at the anger inside that made me tremble, she pushed me too damn hard right now, especially when she accused me of lying that it was someone else's baby.

“Okay Lorraine, that's enough.” he said the words cold to her face which suddenly looked desperate when she stared at him, I knew exactly how it felt when he that coldness in his voice and it crushed one's soul when his eyes were hard as diamonds and his face was made of stone.

“I don’t love you, not like I love her… I never did.” his face was distorted into the monster I knew he could be if you pushed him too hard.

“No matter how many years we have been together, I was more in love with Jen the second she kissed me the first night, it does not matter how many times I f****d you, I do not want you.”

His sneer was probably what made her face lose all colour from her face and the others just stood there uncomfortable having to see how he totally crushed her in the same way he had done to me just a while ago.

I just stood speechless in his arms over what he had said, I had thought he loved her more when we broke up, I had not believed what he said then in the hospital, that he loved me more, much more than he could explain to me as I had just been so f*****g hurt by everything.

She gasped in shock at what he had said to her like she could not believe it was true before her face was cursed and her sweet face got a hatred in her which she turned towards me as I was the one who had said all things to her.

“Have you told your sweet little girlfriend here that you f****d me while she was looking for you ?!” She looked at me hurt when I sighed, of course he had.

I looked up at his face and he looked at me ashamed as I shrugged at what she said to her surprise as she probably thought I would start crying.

“it's okay, I f****d someone else at that time too.” I put my head against his chest and smiled calmly at her panicked face, nothing she said would make me leave him now.

His friends stared at me in shock, Lorraine’s face was frozen at my smiling face as I stood leaning against Dylan, he looked relieved that I had not only been pissed and left him, but I had so much more to lose.

I could not let one thing that Dylan had slept with her when we had not even together anymore stopped me from giving him another chance, and honestly, I wanted nothing more than to be with him again.

“they are going to have a kid together Lorri… let it go…” it was Tammy who said the words sadly to her friend, she knew everything that had happened during the years when Lorraine had not answered any of us before she shook herself like she had woke up the horror that shone all over her face and looked at us one last time with hatred in her eyes and then quickly walked away from us and out the door with a bang.

I collapsed towards him when she was gone, and he looked at me proudly making my chest swell the way he looked at me with such warmth as he leaned down and kissed me softly on the lips that we had not exactly admitted that we had slept with others in front of all his friends.

“you're so f*****g wonderful babe.” He said the words tenderly as I kissed him again and smiled secretly, I just wanted to be with him, even if it was a stupid decision.

The others had started to move again as they had understood what had happened and he looked at them as he wondered which of him or Lorraine they would choose as Parker just raised his beer towards us and said amused.

“Cheers to the only girl as f*****g cold as you brother.” He laughed and I giggled at his way of looking at me, I wasn’t cold at all, I had just accepted that we had both been idiots and agreed with me that I wanted him and no one else.

“she's never happy, so just forget her Jen, she'll come back later with her tail between her legs and say sorry like she always does.” Matt looked like he did not even care that she was gone, I looked at Tammy, she was probably the one who looked most sad about what had happened when I studied her gaze as the still lay on the door before she saw that I looked at her and turned to me resignedly, but not accusingly, like I had rejected Lorraine by being with Dylan, she had done that to herself.

“Okay, now I really need another f*****g beer.” Dylan released me briefly and I glanced at his handsome face, it was so bright right now, like he had never been so f*****g pissed just a few minutes ago.

I beamed stupidly at him when he had walked around the bar and pulled up another bottle, I was not going to complain, not tonight, I would not even say anything if he smoked.

“Sit down Jen, you are pregnant and all.” Tammy looked at me kindly and I sat down in the booth they had sat by so I ended up next to Parker who was a broad man who had put on after school and football but who had a contagious laugh and sparkling brown eyes that were never still.

I looked at Tammy, she looked good, maybe better than she did at school when she had long blonde hair, plump lips and a small nose with big brown-green eyes that looked kindly at me, she wanted to give me a chance, because for the sake of her friend.

“So how does it feel then? I have to say that I was quite surprised when Dylan said he would become a dad.” She had put her hands under her face and head tilted to the side so she looked like a cat looking at me where I sat and blushing, of all things I could be doing.

I had no problem talking about anything, but I was still above talking to others that I was pregnant when it had felt like a secret for so long, which I had not even wanted to admit to myself.

“It feels good, it's scary of course but otherwise it feels fantastic.” I answered honestly and she nodded as she knew what I was talking about when Dylan had returned from the bar and looked at me with her strong eyes that only shone on me.

“of course, it feels good, it's my kid.” He smiled charmingly at me as I laughed at his carefree comment, I was so happy to see him when he was with people he cared about, it tickled me when he looked at me like I was the only one in the room before moving his gaze to his friend next to me.

“Move your fat ass Parker, you’re not sitting next to my woman you ugly fuck.” He laughed and had already begun to intrude when Parker rolled his eyes at his sarcastic comment about moving and pulled himself up and he slid in next to me and put his arm around me at once and presented a juice glass which I took grateful and drank from while Tammy just smiled used to his stupidity, I smiled at him happily and leaned further into his arms so there was no space left at all.

They talked for a while and I just lay with Dylan and felt completely happy to be here, they talked intimately and did not seem to care about being stiff just because they did not know me and above all he stopped sometimes and kissed me on my head, so it sang in my chest.

“I still can’t fuckin understand what Lorraine is doing, she should know better after everything that happened when we were teenagers…” Matt probably started to get more drunk because he threw out everything he was thinking about now and the others nodded sympathetically but did not pay attention to what he had said when I looked curiously at Dylan, I would have liked to hear what he said about it, that was still his life they were talking about.

“So… what happened then? between you?” I said the words here right in front of them, but I didn’t care, they did not seem to care much about talking about things I might not be comfortable with myself.

“He was so f*****g in love with her, I mean look at the fucker, he could get who the hell he wanted!” Dylan grinned at his friend at the obvious comment, and I laughed, like I didnt know that where he sat and looked so f*****g good-looking in his t-shirt that stretched over his arms that I was about to lose my breath just watching him.

 he hugged me with his arm, and I am moved by his closeness for what time in the order.

“But he just followed her around like a f*****g puppy and she took every opportunity to use it against him.” Matt was a rather chatty drunk it seemed, and I looked sad on his slightly irritated face, he had been drinking, the fact was that they were all a little drunk except me who was sitting with my juice.

“He proposed to her when we graduated, like the same f*****g day.” Tammy just looked at him sympathetically as she thought about what had happened and Dylan shook his head as he thought how stupid in his head he had been.

“Biggest f*****g mistake of my life.” Dylan smiled sarcastically and drank from the beer bottle, and I saw that he really regretted it as his face revealed even more when he started to get drunk like the rest of them.

“Did she say no or what?” I looked up at Dylan who just shrugged when the others shook their heads, she had said yes, they would have gotten married, so far, I was following but why had he looked at her that way in church, that was it which made me curious.

“She was pregnant.” he said the words heavily and I froze up and I looked up at him wounded, was there anything he had not done with her before me? I felt like I would always be the runner up in his life. I slouched down and he pulled me closer again when he noticed that I was sad about what he said, I began to understand why he did not want to talk about it.

Then it hit me, Dylan already had a kid out there, would it be just like with Levi? And why had he never said anything to me?! I started to panic when Tammy drank the wine in her glass and smiled consolingly at me as she saw that everything I was thinking.

“It wasn’t his, but she told everyone it was… Lorraine has an ability to wrap herself in her own lies before she even understood it herself…”

“f*****g slut…” Matt grumbled, and I looked confused at his mean words, I thought they were friends? I looked at Dylan who had got a glossy look now and he chuckled at Matt's insult.

“Cheers to that.” Parker raised his beer and they followed him, except for Tammy who just refilled her wine glass and quickly took it to her mouth again without looking at them.

I drank the juice, it was almost gone, and I began to understand why he had questioned me about Grant, he had already been through this once. I turned around, I had started to need to pee, and I looked longingly for the toilet where I had almost attacked a woman because she had said the wrong things about Dylan, I laughed, I wasn’t even better than Lorraine when I push came to shove about Dylan.

He looked happy that I was laughing, and I hope that he didn’t think I was laughing at the fact that Lorraine had cheated on him when he kissed me tender while I was still laughing and pulled away.

“I love to hear you laugh babe.” He said the words so honestly and I leaned up and kissed his wonderful lips again, they tasted of all the beer he had drunk and let his tongue slide into my mouth which I followed with my own, I shudder harder at his mouth and tongue and moaned at his touch as he put his hand on my neck and caressed it down over my full chest and made me gasp before I realized where we were and looked up at the two men who stared enviously at Dylan who just laughed and drank again when I blushed from my toes to head, I had become so engrossed in him that I forgot where we were, he had that effect on me, that I happened to lose every part of me that was logic and reason.  

“I guess we do not have to worry about whether it's Dylan who knocked you up or not.” Tammy chackled at my embarrassment and Dylan winked and laughed with her as he did not think it was obscene at all, I looked up at them, they really were drunk.

I may not have had to worry so much about it as I calmed down with their understanding laughter.

“Fuckin Hopper, of course you got one of the hottest girls again. Matt laughed heartily as Tammy rolled her eyes at his comment as I blushed again, I do not know if I thought I was handsome, perfectly okay I looked, enough to get a man's attention.

“She is the hottest girl in the whole f*****g town, and you know that as well as I do.” He said the words proudly when I snorted, now I knew he really was drunk.

“Of course, she is, it's the only type of chicks you have man!” They laughed again and I saw the shame on Tammy who shrugged her shoulders which she did not care, she was drunk enough now.

“Okay but shut the f**k up, Jen is mine and no one else.” He suddenly looked with cold seriousness at his two friends who tried to play down the fact that they both had desire in their faces before they laughed again at what he had said.

“All right tough guy, now that we've got that cleared, this hot chick needs to go to the bathroom. I patted him on the chest, and he just looked hot at me like he had never seen anything more beautiful in his whole life and got up slowly to let me out, he was drunk now but I was glad he was happy, it had been so awful to see him last time when we were arguing at his place, which ironically did not even work at the time. I sighed to myself, and he quickly grab my ass as I slid past him and I giggled, he really could not have his hands to himself that handsome devil making me blow a kiss before leaving the load group behind me.