Lost in Thoughts

High school is where it all starts.From our starting point,we go through puberty and react to hormonal changes,we react to every single thing, even in small things, name it. May it in be acne,scent,body figures,and even, to opposite genders.You may be friends with them in middle school but now that you're older,you became conscious about your looks and of course-about them...,you know what I'm talking about,,'crushes'.It may or may not be your former classmates but I'ts about the physical changes that happened to everone that you start to like their physical appearance and then later on,develop feelings for them.Yup,that smells infatuation for me.Well,you go through your year,continue to study while having a crush or multiple crushes,whatever you like but then you can't keep on going with that anymore,guessing what that means? Well,obviously hiding your feelings and the urge of wanting him or them to like you back.We all experience this, so don't be an in-denial freak. You can't keep that feeling of yours anymore, so you kept thinking of confessing,but thinking about that makes you anxious and freaks the hell out of you.You start to think about it everyday that you imagine every possible scenarios that may happen.You overthink what goes beyond out of your control but that doesn't lessen the fact that you want to confess,yes?So you continue to live through it,then share to your bestfriend who supports you or maybe not cause maybe he's a jerk or whatnot.Regardless of that you still want to do it, confessing,you want to get that done so you actually do it.In many ways you can tell,the length of what you're willing to say,the place where you can confess and the face you're about to show him-you thought all of that and now you're ready to tell your feelings,you set the meet up place and now you're waiting,waiting for him to come and hear you out,you notice he's a bit late but you still wait,again you notice it's getting dark but the shadow of him didn't even showed up.You're bestie's right,he's a jerk and he humiliated you by not showing up and get your hopes up.What a shame,that's what rejection is.You started to tear up and began to feel the heavy feeling in your chest,you choked and started to cry it out thinking ' he's a jerk and I don't want to see him again '.