Midnight thoughts

Burgundy

One afternoon time, we were walking down into my home and the sky was scarlet and it had a shade of amber on it, upon looking at it, it was kinda beautiful, the sun was slowly coming down but while his continuously coming down his light was more becoming warmer and warmer, and the clouds while it is floating into the sky its colour are slowly being purple, I looked at it the feeling that you find your comfort and you don't want to call off or cancelled it because you're locked up with it, that's what I'm feeling upon looking at it, the sky was slowly becoming scarlet and then suddenly it becomes burgundy while the clouds slowly becoming purple, the gradient was so good into my eyes.

You knocked on my door and asked me if you could stay a little bit more, I nodded and we both watched the sky, you were amused, the same reaction when I saw it, I asked you to go with me on the roof, now we both mesmerize how beautiful the sky is, you looked at the sky while I was looking at you, you looked so happy and amazed by the beautiful view in front of you, somehow I realize that, that what I am every time you come near me or even in my imagination.

You rent-free in my mind, my feelings for you are like a bunch of flowers in the field, they grow fast and beautifully, they scream colours the brightest one, you're such relief and fresh air, you were like a comfortable place for me, time goes by and I didn't see it coming, I looked around and I see you looking at me, the sky turns dark and the stars and moon are the brightest things now in the sky, as I looked at you, you were looking at me too, my blood rushed into my cheeks and the butterflies fly again in my stomach, I smiled to you and you smiled back, you said that you are going to leave because it was dark already but before you leave you hug me tight and say thank you, I can't say anything I was astonished at that time.

I sit on the chair and think about this day, it was good, beautiful and astonishing. I have a great time, I wrote this day in my journal because this day had a significant impact on my heart. I walked around and think about us being in a relationship, I'm feeding my fantasies and somehow that feels amazing, I imagine us being in love deeply and happy, I imagine us being together buying stuff in the grocery, I imagine us helping each other and fighting against all odds, I sighed because, at the end of the day, all the things I imagine is a perfect world that doesn't exist, but I guess there's no wrong if we hope or imagine to something, that makes us unique somehow.

As stars peek into my window, I can't help to look outside, the moon that shining and the stars that flickering into the night sky, I closed my eyes and pray to God, I pray to him to give me the strength to say the words that I kept all this time. Sometimes telling truths is harder than passing exams at school because exams or tests at school you can study the question in the questionnaire but telling the truth or telling your feelings to someone you valued the most is not, you're a risk-taker you're putting in the line some part of you.

I closed my eyes, and as I closed my eyes my imagination start running, I saw you standing and smiling at me I was too caught up and you hug me tight passionate and full of love, we dance, we moved the things inside the room to make the space enough for us, we dance and our hands are tied with each other hand, we dance the night away, every moment of it was nirvana for us, we dance and we dance until our breath start to skip our body was tired, after we dance we sit on the floor you were happy so, do I, you hold my hand and told me that it was being like this, I smiled too, we made jokes we are laughing we're like stupid but we never care you lay your body on the floor, I did the same way too, how we ended up in the floor anyway you say I got confused and I look in you, I was flabbergasted because I saw you now on the stairs going up, I get up and followed you, now I saw you sitting on the roof watching the stars and moon, the night sky was beautiful, you looked towards me and say you want to this, I sat right beside you, I hung my head on your shoulder and you pat my head, you stroked my hair and I felt so relaxed, you kissed my head and my blood rushed into my cheeks, I chuckled.

you pointed out the stars above us it was bright, always remember I'm that star, looking at you, if you feel alone or if you feel sad look up in that star and call me I will be there you've said, I was happy at that time, every second of it was like I'm floating in the air you asked me if I could stay more and I nodded, we watched how dark fades, we watch how the stars be gone, we watch the moon slowly fade into the sky, and we watch the sun to set, the light breeze hit us, it was nice it feels like a hand that hold me nicely, and as like the air you're gone I looked around to see you there but even the shadow of you is gone, the beam of light kissed my skin, I woked up and looked into the clock, five hours of sleeping and I dream of something blissful and happiness.