Call me daddy

I still want him

Call me daddy

Chapter 12

Two years later

Dust we came and dust shall we return! That was the voice of the priest .

As I stood there I watched the casket that carried my father’s body being lowered to the grave .

My heart broke into a million pieces and I didn’t want to think about what was going to happen to me next .

I felt those cold hands hold me and it was Ava , the only consistent person in my life .

Her eyes were dull , it was different from the normal Ava I knew and it felt so weird .

My two big brothers were at the front with my mother consoling her , my mom was a mess.

What happened was still shocking to me.

I had seen so many faces bring their condolences , those who loved us and those who didn’t , I hated their pretentious smiles , it made me feel sick .

Dad’s siblings didn’t attend his funeral , but not him , he didn’t miss it .

Even though he was my dad's adopted brother , my father loved him more than anyone in the world , we all knew this .

“ Are you okay ?” Ava asked me again .

I knew what she was asking me about , she wasn’t asking if I was okay if my father was buried but if I was okay that I was standing a few meters away from him .

The same man that had dumped my ass two years ago with the promise that he was going to return and he didn’t just for him to show up at my dad’s funeral.

I was over him , I don’t just know why Ava still won’t accept the fact that I was done with that man .

“ Nora” Ava’s voice came into my head and I was pulled out of my thoughts .

“ I will be back “ I told her and ignoring the questioning look that she had on her face , I walked away from the ceremony .

The only thing that was in sight was the green grass and then then the trees and the seat that shielded the view .

I just wanted time to be away from everything and act like none of this was happening , it made me feel sick .

As I got to the seat , I sat on it and let out. Deep breath.

I was relieved , so relieved to be leaving there , the man had died and there was nothing that I was going to do that could bring him back .

Putting down my purse on the seat , I picked up the stick of a cigarette and lit it and then put it in my mouth .

I dragged the smoke and puffed it out .

I didn’t know how long I had been sitting there , but when I felt that presence behind me , I knew it was him .

I could tell from his smell and the way my heart quickened .

I didn’t want to look at him , two years , he dumped me , what the f**k was he doing here , he should have just stood thrrr and watched alongside other , I didn’t want to talk to him .

“Nora” he called out , his voice sounded so raspy like he had been smoking or even still crying .

When I heard my name from his mouth , I felt that excitement build inside of me .

The ringing sensation that built up in my heart , it felt so good , but why .

I didn’t want that , I’m so over him , it was a stupid child hush crush I had on him and I acted on my impulse , I’m not letting that control me again , I wasn’t that little girl anymore .

“Nora “ he called again , this time , getting closer .

“Go to hell Vincenzo, I don’t want your pathetic apology “ I replied raising my head up to meet his gaze as I puffed out of the smoke in my mouth while staring directly into his eyes .

I knew the demons I was fighting at that moment , not to feel those stupid things I felt.

Seeing his face after two years was hell , he grew more handsome and more cold .

His hair was now dyed black and his brown eyes made it more difficult for me. Along with the tattoos he had on his neck , he looked totally different and hot in that suit , he never aged a day .

“You shouldn’t be smoking at this time of the day, it’s hot” he whispered as he sat beside me .

“ You are in no position to tell me what to do , I can make my own decision and I know that you can see that , keep your freaking opinion to yourself “

My words stubbed something in him , I could see it, but instead he just shifted it away .

“ I just wanted to check up on you , losing your dad isn’t something I know you wanted and I’m sorry , if there’s anything you need , you can let me know , I will make that available to you .

Hearing that statement pissed me off so bad and so I turned to face him as I threw away the remaining cigarette .

“As you can see, I’m fine. and I can take good care of myself , I don’t need your stupid pity and I’m not that little girl that wants your help , I’m a grown woman now and I can take good care of myself, and if there’s anything you want me to do is get away from me and never show your disgusting face to me ever again” I yelled at him .

I knew how much I wanted to say , the things I had to hit my mouth not to say , I didn’t want him to think that I am still that little girl who hasn’t gotten over him because I wasn’t .

Vincenzo stood up from where he sat and then started going away without saying another word .

He didn’t care .

He never did , I just showed him how hurt I was and all he could do was walk away, no apology , no sorry and why he left , he was walking away again .

Hurt , that was exactly what I felt at that moment .

The tears unconsciously slipped out of my eyes and that was when I stood up and turned to face him .

“ You are just going to walk away like the coward that you are , and that’s what you will always be , coward “ I yelled at him .

The moment I made that statement , he halted and before I could understand what was happening he started approaching me .

The hurt instantly left my heart and all that I could feel at this moment was panic and fear , the look on his face , I had never seen it before .

When he got to where I was , he pulled me by my waist and that was when I felt his lips on mine .

He didn’t kiss me but his lips were on mine with his hands wrapped around my waist and mine on his neck .

We both stood in that position with us breathing so hard , I could hear his beast breathing so hard and so was mine.

I don't know how long we stood in that position but in the next moment , I rested my head on his chest and the tears came out .

Vincenzo kept whispering sorry into my ears while he rubbed my back .

“ you left me , you f*****g left me. For two years without warning or anything and you knew I was into you , a heads up would have been better but you didn’t do that , you just left me hanging and it hurt so bad “

“I’m sorry , I’m back now and I’m never going to leave you ever again” he whispered, still rubbing my back softly .

I heard someone cough behind us and we broke away .

It was Ava .

The disappointing look never left her face , I knew what was going to say next .

I arranged my clothes and looked at him .

I think I should go now, told him and without waiting for his reply , I walked away from him .

Ava didn’t wait for me but started walking away too .

I’m sorry , I whispered, walking up to keep the pace with her .

“ Your mom is calling you , that’s the only thing I wanted to tell you “ she replied .

I knew it was best I didn’t say another word , I wouldn’t blame her for being mad .

Just yesterday I was ranting about how I wasn’t going to react if I saw him and here I was in his arms .

I am a fool and an obsessed b***h , I still want my uncle , I still want to be banged by him .