The guardian and his last chance. Realization

XXXV

2 days have past since I saved, Lianna and her kids, pups. Call it what ever you want. I don´t care. They are offspring, just different names. Really it is a bit hard. Some call their offsprings kids, others pups. Their are so many differents way to say the same thing. I am sitting in my armchair. A cracking are heard. The sound comes from the fire in the open fireplace. It gives both a comfy varmness and lights to the room. On the sofa close, so close the armrests allow, sits Lianna. A smile are resting on my lips. The couse is her. In these past two days, she has regained some of her bodyweight. By doing so, has regained her wolfs healing. Most of the bruises she had, are almost gone now. The oldest have disappeared allready. For clothes I have given her some of my shirts and pants. The first time she put on one of my big shirts, I could not hinder my laughs. They are almost like a dress on her.  I should have known. I am atleast 4 fot bigger than her. Almost, more precise. And she is wearing a deep blue thick sweater of mine, right now. As a dress. Her bare legs, are hidden under a soft felt blanket. I think it is a small miracle, that she has recovered so much she has. One thought I have about that is that she must have alpha blood in her veins.

"Dragol." her soft voice said. I turned my eyes more upon her. "I am greatful for everything you have done for us." I saw honesty in her eyes. Then she threw down her gaze. "But we can´t stay and let you take care of us." She has been like this, since the second night. When she started to recover her strength for real. Just as I did then I shake my head, no. "WHY, can´t we leave?" she ask frustrated and in fear. "We are strong enough now."

I sigh. And shake my head again. "You are stronger, yes." She locks eye with me. In her eyes were fear the most prominent of her feelings. "But think about your kids, Lianna." She is proud and have had a bad life, upon now, I know this well. So she is scared of my care and kindness. "The kids are not strong enough to make the journey, you have infront of you." I know she is waiting for me to do the same thing all others have done to her. If I am right, she was even beaten by her mate. The on who should have protected her. "Lianna, I know you don´t trust me. Becouse of what has happened to you and the kids."

"You don´t know anything!" She frown, anger and fear dominants her voice. "You will be as everyone else." Tears are starting to fill her eyes again. "Just playing nice, to get close to me." Her voice crack and her words stumble. Her lips tremble slightly. "You just want to use me, as the other has done!" Her voice rose. But tremble from her memories. "You will be as them all." She fear me as much as my kindness.

I rise up. My movement make her hurry to the other side of the sofa. Her scent scream of fear. I know that she will not listen to anything I say. And I need some fresh air. Something to calm my nervs, the coldness in the air, will do. As I pass her, she whimper and try to push herself deeper into the cushion of the sofa. Without a word more, I put on the clothes.  With my jacket and boots on, I step out. The air is cold, as my breath fog infront of me. "All mother, what should I do?" I prayed to the all mother as I walk up to the rails that inline the porch. This saddened me deeply. Not just only that she is so broken, that she can´t trust anyone. But that this is the harsh truth of the world to day. She is just one of many, that are sharing the same kind of fate. Such horror filled fate, was not possible when my kin were still strong. I can´t reinforce my clans laws alone or help them who are in greatest need of it. As it sadden me, it infuriates me. So much that I want to hit something. Instead I grip the railing hard. My head hangs as I am lost in my thoughts. I don´t know how long I stood like that. I let out a deep and refreshing sigh. As I look up, I hear cars coming. My sight turns to the driveway. The browns lowers, involuntary, when I saw the three trucks that came out of the forest. I am certain, that we had noting planned for today. But here is the alpha and betas coming. At the same time the cars brakes shriek to a halt, I heard Lianna rush up to the second floor. This will be fun. OR not!

I step down the porch, just as Jacob and the betas stepped out. They give me a bright smile. When they had closed their doors. The rest of the doors opened. I frown in confusion, I know that. They had their families with them. I have nothing agains them all. But with Lianna and her kids here, this is not the best time. I greet them. "Jacob, what are you all doing here?"

"You know what day it is, right?" He asked me, with a smile.

I tilt my head. " Winter solstice."

They looked at eachother. I have the feeling that was not the right answer. But is the truth, nonetheless. The kids looks at me in disbelief. Hanna walks up to me. Her eyes are so big, when she looks up at me. Slow I sat down my knee, in the snow. Her small mouth pout. "You don´t know what day it is?"

"Little one." I say softly. "I am not sure, but it must be 24 of december right." She nods. But I can tell that she is not happy with that answer. And I can see that the adults are hiding theirs smiles. "Sorry, little one." She pouts some more. "I have not a clue."

I see that she is not happy with me. "It´s Christmaseve, Dragol." She said with a sad voice.

"Is it now." I say as I picked her up. "I didn´t know that." I lifted her so high I can. She starts to laugh. Still laughing she is, when I hold her on one of my arms. I turn to the adults. The kids has started a small snowball fight, becouse they were bored. "Even if it is. Why are you all here?"

It is Mirai that answer my question, with a big and warm smile. "We thought you would feel alone today."

They let themselves in. I just stood there and let them go in. The boys both Jacobs and Jacksons are still going hard at each other with the snowballs. I can here the females start to work in the kitchen. The 3 males stepped up to me. Jacob looked at the kids, as he whispered. "The borderguards in the west found 4 or 6 dead wolfs. They were torn to bits."

"I have not heard anything." I liad, it was a easy lie. I bit myself on my lower lip. "But I found something, in the forest."

My 3 friends look at each other, before looking at me. And it is Jacob that talks. "One she-wolf and 3 pups?"

"Yes." I say. I knew that I could not hide them for long. "How long did you know!?"

Jacob shrugs his shoulders. "Just a moment ago." He throwed a look at the door. "I felt the presence of a rouge." He gave me a akward smile. "We all did. Our mates too." Then he looked at Eric. "Except for Clarise." He gave me a genuine smile. "I need to see them."

"I know." I said, neutrally. It is the Alpha that decide if rouges are killed or let in to the pack. "But I think it is not a good idea, Jacob."

He give me a crooked smile. "Why?"

I closed my eyes. Hoping that this is a good idea. I told them all I had learned about her and the kids. Of course what I have figured out of their past. When I opened my eyes again, almost finished telling what I know, I saw that my friends eyes had turned darker. In the eyes I saw anger, sorrow and pity. After that they had gathered themselves together again, we entered my home. The first thing that hit me, was the great smells of food cooking. I looked in to my kitchen. Working on in there with pans, pots, knives and bowls, were the girls. Mirai was the one that lead them all in the work. And I am amazed that they have got so many dishes ready already. "It smells wonderfull, girls." I said without thinking.

"WE KNOW!" They laughed in unison. 

I shook my head. And maybe Lianna will open up to the 3 women that are infront of me. It was atleast a thought worthy, to test out. I whisper to Jacob, that they should tell their mates, and that I will try to get the she-wolf down. To help in the kitchen. So they should tell them, what I have already told them. He noded. And I could sense that he linked with his betas. I left them all, to go up to my guests. I hear their hearts. They are fastened. I knock on the door. But I get no answer. Even if I didn´t get her approval to step inside the room, I did so. They were not in the bed. I found them in one of the corners of the room. Lianna have her kids behind her backs.

"You betrayed me." She say with fear in her voice. 

I sigh. "I have not betrayed you, Lianna." I walk slowly up to her. She growls lowly. And say as I sit down on my knees. "They are my friends. They will not hurt you." She glares at me, not trusting my words. "Trust me, Lianna." She shake her head. I sigh once more. She lack trust so much. I have to do something that I don´t do so often. Using my kin´s latent power, as the first borns of the all-mother, the High command. I let it lace my voice as I speak the next words slowly. "Go down and help them." I see that she fights my command. "Talk to them, get to know them. AND you will se that they are nothing to fear."

She rose up at the same time as I. She said low, just a whisper. "I hate you."

I am fine with her hating me. So long she let loose, bonding with other females. That would be a great step for her.