BE THE GIRL THAT'S MINE!

Sometimes I wonder if as a teenager my mom ever stayed up late at nights to cry her hearts out over all the mishaps in her life, I really want to know where I got these insecurities and unstableness from...or perhaps it was my dad? It's crazy how emotional I get over such little things. I think it's funny how when we get our hearts broken we start working towards becoming a player. How we'd bullshit every other person we meet, how we'd avoid the midnight conversations, the cuddles, the romance... We always want to come out tougher, to focus on ourselves, and disregard anything concerning love. Don't get me wrong, I admire people who stay single for years, it's a big deal to be fine alone. Not many people can withstand the loneliness! Then again, there are those of us that go straight into another relationship right after one just ended, you know we hit all the clubs so hard because we're not yet ready to stop partying. It's dark at home alright? we don't wanna go back alone. Whichever category you belong, just make sure your heart is okay. If you need time to heal take time to heal, don't bleed on someone else..If you need someone that's good for you give it a chance, don't miss out on something else. I think I've strayed enough.. Now this piece is to my next date! I don't know who you'd be or how we'd start, I don't even know about the why we'd date or when it'd begin...I just want to put somethings out so we'd avoid moving in circles. I'm an emotional peice of s**t, but you know that already. Some people admire and look up to me while some don't. I have this friend that thinks I'm perfect. I'm not one to pretend, so I'm sure he knows everything about me. I love how he thinks I'm perfect but I'm really not, trust me I have alot of mistakes up my sleeve.. There's this thing about me dear, maybe I should call it a habit. It's that I'm willing to walk through whatever pain, I don't give up on people easily, even when I should. s**t it's like I'm drowning and there's nothing to hold on to that'd save me, but I still cling so hard to a straw...like that could somehow save me! I'm a sucker for attention, I get that you have your own s**t to do, but please always come back to me..think about me in the middle of your busy days that's all I ask. I'm clingy to a fault. I'm the lover you could wake up at anytime for random discussions. I stare alot too tho, I love to admire what's mine. I'd always want to know what's going on in your brain cause I wouldn't wanna have you fighting demons alone, we're stronger in numbers. Don't get too comfortable, I'm quite annoying I'd make you literally wanna pull your hair out! So I'm quite weak, and without motivations I cannot accomplish anything. I do not believe in myself, but I'd believe in us. I drop long ass messages out of the blue cause I know you're having a stressful day and a smile could make it better. I'm sorry but I'm not into flashy things. A simple life does it for me, but that don't mean I wouldn't buy you diamonds if I could. I'd give you the world, stop smiling do hard, 'the world' comes with a lot of pain and rough times, but if you stick by me there's a lot of benefit. I wrote this as an insurance and kind of a contract, after reading this and you still decide to be mine whoever you are, there's just one more thing before you put a signature... Stay mine! I'm drained and tired of loosing people I love. Bear my kids, build a home with me. Please, Be the girl that's mine, I've had a lot who weren't! Typical Angel...