From Love Letters To Suicide Notes

To Everyone I've Loved

I'm sorry for not being enough

I'm sorry I wasn't what you needed

I thought I could give you love

But in the end I am defeated

I'm sorry for walking out on a few

I f****d up a couple others lives

It's okay, no it's not, but I will be soon

I think I'm allergic to this I get hives

My heart's been broken long before

I came crashing down to the floor

Or before I tried opening the door

And cops came and left me sore

Before all the rehabs before drugs

Before I even knew how to love

It from before needles were shoved

Even before my mother's first hugs

I've always been broken, shattered

Something deep inside bothered

Can't pinpoint like roaches scattered

Nothing blatent like housewives battered

None of you had to do with me

I'm completely f****d cant you see

These traits fall down my family tree

And it'll take alot for me to believe

That I'm worth more than dirt

So I play with rigs and get hurt

Burn myself make it worse

But if I could I'd give you my shirt

I care too much I'm too sensitive

And I'm confused on how to live

By my side nobody to be with

I'm a broken dirty scarred pig

Just a piece of trash thrown out

It no longer hurts I don't shout

And I know what this is about

All the things coming out my mouth

So today I try and love me more

Because you can't fix me anymore

If you tried I'd be out the door

Because spiritually I'm too poor