From Love Letters To Suicide Notes

If love was a drug then this is it There's nothing on earth more relieving For her I would fall into the pit Her smell her taste it's all deciving It's as if my entire life I didn't know What breathing felt like above water And then all at one you feel the flow Of oxegen in your lungs and your bothered You wish you could breath all the time Never ever letting this feeling go You don't care if she takes every dime Or if you have to walk miles in the snow Nothing will stop you from feeling her This must be heaven you think aloud Every moment, beautiful, it's a blur Suddenly you have the strength your proud You can do anything the world's open Love this place long as you have her You just stand there, appreciating, smoking She has you trapped in her allure But loving hers like loving a whore She'll take everything when she leaves And after that she'll ask for more But you don't care now you see Eyes wide open why this takes lives Before her you wanted it over anyway You had dreams of cherry pies But "I'm a man now" you'll say And what does your life now entail? Things you couldn't have seen coming You get a bad bag or there's no sale You finally see how she's so cunning Your bones feel as though theyre cracked Legs shaking bouncing and hopping Can't sleep wish you'd stopped And now your heart is bleeding It feels like it's all crashing down On you and you alone my friend For every f****d up smile there a frown feel as if your nearing the end But sadly your not your still alive And by your side is nobody at all You pushed everyone worthwhile aside And have no money nobody to call Alone in a dark place you sit Wondering how this all happened And suddenly a lightbulb is lit Go get some more and this'll end Thinking of any way to make a dollar Don't care how just make it stop sneak around the back of your mothers Put a knife to her "gimme all you got" As you run giddy like a child No remorse too happy it's over Don't care, no fear, and your eyes wild Never ever want to be sober A string of robberies like these And the cops start to connect dots They see you sleeping on the streets They want you in a cell to rot And you deserve it look at it all All the bodies you've stepped over You still think your having a ball No more dreams of range rovers You watch your childhood fade Traded goals for bags of powder She didn't take it you gave it away How could you have allowed her Now she's not working you need more Started in straws but your mainlining Most veins are dead you hit once more Fade away and don't realize your dying Lay there for hours in that bathroom stall Nobody knows or they don't care Mother stopped even trying to call Till the janiter walks in and stares Calls the ambulance but it's too late Your on the other side what a night You're already gone, faded away, great The thing you loved took your life Your mother balls at the funeral Nobody should bury their own son Everything before drugs was meaningful But in the end you died unloved At least you thought, but we loved you She didn't and you know that now It's too late your skins turned blue For she's controlling she wouldn't allow You another minute on this earth So goodbye hope you had a good time It's been 2 decades since birth now forever in our hearts were crying