Prologue: The Luna Who Never Was
Kael POV
I remember playing until sunset with Grandma.
The memory is faded around the edges now, worn smooth by time, but some parts remain crystal clear.
The golden light spilling across the pack grounds.
The smell of freshly cut grass.
The sound of Grandma's laughter.
I chased floating dust motes through the air as if they were magical creatures only I could see. They danced through the warm orange sunlight, twisting and swirling whenever I tried to catch them.
Grandma laughed every time I missed.
"You'll never catch sunlight, little wolf," she teased.
"I will!" I shouted back, determined.
"You inherited that stubbornness from your father."
I didn't know what stubbornness meant, but I knew it wasn't an insult.
Grandma never insulted anyone.
She smelled like lavender, old books, and the cinnamon cookies she secretly baked whenever Dad wasn't looking. Her silver hair was always tied back in a loose braid, and even though everyone said she was old, she could still outrun me whenever she wanted to.
Of course, she usually let me win.
Even when I cheated.
Especially when I cheated.
As the sun slowly disappeared behind the trees, painting the sky in shades of orange, pink, and purple, Grandma scooped me into her arms.
"Time to go inside, birthday boy."
I wrapped my arms around her neck.
"Can we stay outside longer?"
"Nope."
"Please?"
"Nope."
"Just five minutes?"
"Still nope."
I sighed dramatically.
Grandma laughed.
"You're getting too clever for your own good."
She carried me toward the pack house, her footsteps steady despite the way she always complained about her knees.
The moment we stepped inside, I knew something was different.
The entire pack house was alive.
Voices echoed through the halls.
Laughter bounced off the walls.
The scent of roasted meat, fresh bread, pinewood smoke, and sweet desserts filled the air.
Pack members moved back and forth carrying trays, decorations, and gifts.
Everything felt bigger than usual.
Brighter.
Important.
At five years old, I couldn't understand why.
I just knew everyone seemed excited.
Grandma smiled knowingly but refused to answer any of my questions.
When we reached the large dining hall, she paused in front of the double doors.
I remember looking up at her.
Her smile looked different.
Softer.
Almost sad.
At the time I didn't understand why.
Years later, I would.
But not then.
Then, I was just a child.
Grandma pushed the doors open.
The room exploded.
"Surprise!"
The noise nearly knocked me backward.
The dining hall was packed.
Every seat around the enormous wooden table was filled with wolves from our pack.
Decorations covered the walls.
Blue streamers hung from the ceiling.
Silver stars sparkled in the candlelight.
Everyone was smiling.
Everyone was looking at me.
For a moment, I froze.
Then I grinned.
Dad crossed the room in three long strides and lifted me from Grandma's arms.
"There's my birthday boy."
I laughed as he swung me into the air.
Unlike Grandma, Dad smelled like cedarwood, leather, and the forest after rain.
Strong.
Safe.
Home.
He carried me to the head of the table and carefully placed me in his chair.
The Alpha's chair.
His chair.
The biggest chair in the room.
I felt ten feet tall sitting there.
Dad stood beside me, one hand resting protectively on the back of the chair.
Pride filled his eyes.
The entire room seemed to glow.
Then the singing started.
"Happy birthday to you..."
Everyone joined in.
Voices filled the room.
Some were terrible.
Some were beautiful.
None of them mattered.
Because they were singing to me.
"Happy birthday dear Kael..."
I laughed so hard my cheeks hurt.
A huge cake appeared in front of me.
Blue frosting.
White icing wolves running around the sides.
Five glowing candles.
Two of them were trick candles.
I didn't know that yet.
I took the biggest breath my little lungs could manage.
Then blew.
The candles went out.
The room erupted into cheers.
Then two candles suddenly relit themselves.
Everyone laughed.
I gasped.
Dad laughed so hard he nearly doubled over.
I blew again.
They relit.
Again.
And again.
The entire room was roaring with laughter by the time I finally defeated them.
I puffed out my chest proudly.
"I won."
"You sure did," Dad said.
For one perfect moment, everything felt right.
Then—
**SLAM.**
The massive wooden doors crashed shut.
The sound echoed through the hall like thunder.
Every laugh died instantly.
Silence.
A terrible silence.
Even as a child, I felt it.
Something had changed.
The warmth disappeared.
The joy vanished.
The room suddenly felt colder.
I looked around in confusion.
Nobody was smiling anymore.
The pack members exchanged nervous glances.
Several lowered their eyes.
Others stared at the floor.
No one moved.
No one spoke.
A knot formed in my stomach.
I didn't understand why.
Then I realized something.
Someone was missing.
Someone important.
My eyes searched the room.
The tables.
The walls.
The doorway.
Every face.
But not hers.
Not the one I wanted.
"Mum?"
My small voice sounded impossibly loud.
No one answered.
I looked at Dad.
His face had gone completely still.
His jaw tightened.
The muscles in his neck flexed.
His hand gripped the back of my chair so tightly his knuckles turned white.
Fear flickered through the room.
Fear.
Not sadness.
Not worry.
Fear.
Even then, some part of me noticed.
"Mum?" I asked again.
Dad didn't answer.
Neither did anyone else.
I didn't know what had happened.
I didn't know what decisions had been made.
I didn't know about betrayals.
About mates.
About secrets.
About consequences.
I only knew my mother wasn't there.
And nobody would tell me why.
I waited.
Surely she would walk through the doors any moment.
She wouldn't miss my birthday.
Not today.
Not ever.
So I waited.
I opened presents.
I smiled when people expected me to smile.
I thanked everyone for the gifts.
I ate cake.
I listened to conversations I didn't understand.
And all the while, I kept looking toward the door.
Waiting.
Hoping.
Expecting.
But she never came.
The night grew darker.
Guests slowly left.
Candles burned low.
The laughter never returned.
And my mother never came home.
Not that night.
Not the next day.
Not the day after.
Never.
Years later, I would learn the truth.
I would learn who she really was.
What she had done.
Why she left.
But on my fifth birthday, I was only a child sitting in a chair too big for him, staring at a door that never opened.
Waiting for someone who was already gone.
That was the night I learned two things.
**Birthdays can break you.**
**And wolves don't always stay.**
I didn't know it then.
But the woman who abandoned me would leave behind more than memories.
She would leave behind a wound.
A wound that would shape the monster I would become.
She would leave behind a wound.
A wound that would shape the monster I would become.
And somewhere beyond our borders, hidden from the world and forgotten by the pack...
the Luna who never was was carrying a secret.
One that would one day destroy us all.
Dorain Pov:
What my son didn't know—what I never told him—was that she wasn't my true Luna.
At least, not in the way a Luna should be.
The Moon Goddess gave me a mate.
My wolf accepted her.
The bond snapped into place the moment our wolves touched.
But a bond doesn't create character.
It doesn't create loyalty.
It doesn't create honor.
And it certainly doesn't create love.
I learned that lesson far too late.
For years, I convinced myself she would grow into the role.
I told myself she was young.
That she needed time.
That every argument was just a misunderstanding.
Every selfish decision was temporary.
Every warning from my Beta was jealousy or concern taken too far.
I ignored every red flag because I wanted the dream more than I wanted the truth.
I wanted a Luna.
I wanted a family.
I wanted my son to grow up with the mother I never had.
Instead, I handed him a woman who saw motherhood as a burden.
Looking back now, the signs were obvious.
Painfully obvious.
She spent money faster than I could earn it.
Pack funds disappeared.
Emergency reserves shrank.
Investments meant for future generations vanished.
Every time I questioned her, she had an excuse.
A new business venture.
A necessary expense.
A future investment.
I believed every lie because I trusted the bond.
Perhaps that was my greatest mistake.
Trusting fate more than my own instincts.
The morning of Kael's fifth birthday began like any other.
I woke before sunrise.
Reviewed reports.
Checked patrol routes.
Signed requests from neighboring packs.
Then my Beta arrived.
Marcus didn't knock.
He stormed into my office carrying a stack of papers so tightly that they crumpled in his hands.
His face was pale.
His eyes were hard.
I had only seen that expression during wars.
"Dorian," he said quietly.
Something in his voice immediately set my wolf on edge.
"What happened?"
He placed the documents on my desk.
"Check your accounts."
I frowned.
"My accounts?"
"All of them."
A chill ran down my spine.
I opened the first file.
Negative.
The second.
Negative.
The third.
Negative.
By the time I reached the tenth account, my hands were shaking.
Millions.
Not hundreds.
Not thousands.
Millions.
Gone.
Pack reserves.
Emergency funds.
Trust accounts.
Future investments.
Money set aside for Kael's education.
Money meant to rebuild homes after disasters.
Money meant to protect our people.
Gone.
Every last dollar.
The room became suffocatingly quiet.
My wolf growled inside my head.
Not in anger.
In disbelief.
"Who?" I asked.
Though deep down, I already knew.
Marcus didn't answer.
He didn't need to.
The silence said everything.
I found her in our room.
She was sitting before a mirror, brushing her hair as though nothing had happened.
As though she hadn't just gutted the financial foundation of an entire pack.
I threw the documents onto the floor.
"Explain."
She looked at them.
Then at me.
Then she laughed.
Actually laughed.
To this day, I think that sound hurt more than any words that followed.
Because it told me she wasn't sorry.
Not even a little.
The argument started immediately.
I demanded answers.
She demanded obedience.
I asked where the money went.
She accused me of controlling her.
I asked how she could steal from the pack.
She claimed everything belonged to her because she was Luna.
The more she spoke, the more years of excuses shattered around me.
The woman standing before me wasn't misunderstood.
She wasn't struggling.
She wasn't growing into her role.
She simply didn't care.
Then she brought up Kael.
My son.
Our son.
The only pure thing left between us.
"If you challenge me," she snarled, "I'll take him."
The room froze.
My heart stopped.
My wolf exploded.
Not because she threatened me.
Because she threatened him.
Kael.
The little boy who still crawled into my bed after nightmares.
The little boy who thought his mother hung the moon.
The little boy waiting downstairs for a birthday party.
Something inside me broke.
Not my wolf.
Not the mate bond.
Me.
Every excuse.
Every justification.
Every lie I told myself.
Gone.
I looked at her and, for the first time, saw her clearly.
There was no Luna standing before me.
Only a selfish woman who viewed her child as leverage.
A weapon.
A possession.
And that was something I could never forgive.
She shifted first.
Bones cracked.
Fur erupted.
The room splintered beneath her claws.
She attacked without warning.
Without restraint.
Without honor.
I shifted a heartbeat later.
The fight was brutal.
Furniture shattered.
Walls cracked.
Windows exploded.
Growls and snarls echoed through the house.
There was no strategy.
No elegance.
Just years of resentment colliding in a storm of teeth and fury.
When it ended, she lay unconscious among the wreckage.
Blood stained the floor.
Her wolf had been forced back.
Mine stood over her.
Victorious.
Yet I felt nothing.
No triumph.
No satisfaction.
No relief.
Only exhaustion.
Only grief.
Because regardless of everything she had done...
she had once been my mate.
I mind-linked the pack doctor immediately.
"Heal her."
A pause.
"Dorian?"
"Heal her. Keep her alive."
My voice turned to stone.
"But she is no longer Luna."
The words felt like tearing out part of my soul.
Yet they were necessary.
Then I reached through the pack link.
Hundreds of wolves connected instantly.
Questions.
Confusion.
Concern.
Fear.
I felt all of it.
Every mind waiting for their Alpha to speak.
I took a breath.
"From this day forward..."
The words echoed through every bond.
Every connection.
Every heart.
"We have no Luna."
Silence followed.
Heavy.
Absolute.
Final.
No one argued.
No one questioned.
Because deep down, everyone already knew.
That night was Kael's birthday.
The pack celebrated because I refused to let my son lose everything in one day.
He deserved one happy memory.
Just one.
But children notice more than adults realize.
I watched him search the room.
Again.
And again.
And again.
Every time a door opened, hope lit his eyes.
Every time it wasn't her, that hope dimmed.
I would have faced an army to protect him.
I would have fought rogues, rival Alphas, even fate itself.
Yet I couldn't protect him from disappointment.
That was a battle I lost every day.
For six weeks he waited.
Six long weeks.
At dinner.
During training.
During movie nights.
During pack gatherings.
Every creak of a door made him look up.
Every unfamiliar scent made him turn his head.
Every passing day stole a little more hope from his smile.
Then one day...
he stopped looking.
That hurt more than the waiting ever did.
Because that's when I knew he finally understood.
She wasn't coming back.
And despite everything she had done...
despite all the lies, theft, and betrayal...
I could never bring myself to tell him the full truth.
Not then.
Because every child deserves the right to love their mother.
Even when she doesn't deserve it.
So I carried that burden alone.
And I prayed that one day Kael would forgive me for the secrets I kept.
I didn't know then that those secrets would one day return.
That the past I buried would claw its way back into our lives.
And when it did...
it wouldn't come for me.
It would come for my son.
This version deepens Dorian's regret, his love for Kael, and the tragedy of the failed mate bond while foreshadowing the future conflict involving Kael and his absent mother.