CHAPTER 11 - CRY
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HANNAH
I stared at him, studying his expression. His lips were smiling but his eyes were ice-cold. There’s only five days left, but he still has this expression every time he sees me.
I bit my bottom lip and nodded. He left my side and went back to the sofa. I just stood there for a few minutes with my heart aching.
God, please don't let him be lonely when I'm gone.
"Hannah, how long are you going to stand there?"
I raised my head and turned to him, wearing my sweetest smile. "That's it, you're too thirsty for my attention, huh?”
We ate dinner and he was on the phone the whole time. I have to say annoying stuff to get his attention. He never compliments my cooking, but I think he likes it.
“You need to go home after this.”
I blinked twice and looked at him. His eyes are still fixated on his phone. “I’m sorry?”
He put down his phone and looked at me. The chill runs on my back. “I’m expecting someone. That’s why you need to go.”
“Uhm, o-okay…” my voice almost broke.
After our dinner, I put on the clothes I wore before. I hugged the shirt and I felt like crying. My heart is about to burst and my throat hurts to stop my tears.
I was startled by a knock at the door. "Why are you taking so long? Don't steal my boxers, you crazy lady!"
I giggled. "No! I’m just smelling it! Anyway, nice fabric conditioner."
I left the room and walked closer to him. I held onto his arm. He wasn't looking at me and I noticed in his expression that he was bored.
"I called a taxi to take you home."
My heart sank. "You won't take me home?"
"No," he said as he looked at the wristwatch. "Go home, it's getting late."
I let go of his arm and faced him. "I only have five days, Apollo. Five days! And you’re being a jerk to me! I didn’t say a thing when you threw my efforts away. You didn’t even thank me when I prepared our dinner. I’m the only one who’s trying here!"
"Not my problem."
I sighed and walked ahead to face him. "Can we date again tomorrow?"
His brow rosed. "You want me to take a leave tomorrow, so we go on a date?"
I nodded. "For the last time."
"No."
"Then I ask for an extension. Another week." What the hell, Hannah? You're numb. You’re a masochist! This man doesn’t love you and he’s not even trying!
He laughed mockingly. "Are you being serious?"
I swallowed several times to hold back the tears that were about to come to me. "Just one more date and it will be the last time, Apollo."
He took a deep breath. "Fine. No more chances after that, Hannah."
Even though I was feeling heavy inside, I nodded. "I won't come... close to you after five days. Deal is a deal."
"Where are we going tomorrow?"
"At the amusement park in Laguna. 9AM. I will buy the tickets."
"Alright." He started walking and opened the door before looking at me. "Then I'll see you tomorrow."
I stopped when I stepped on the threshold before turning back to Apollo. I approached him and held his hand. I put there the simple gift I had prepared to celebrate our first date.
"I hope to see you wearing it tomorrow."
"I don't like jewelry," he said coldly.
I giggled. "You hate a lot of things, Apollo."
"I hate everything you do."
I didn't understand what he said or I didn’t mind it.
"That's a rosary, so you won’t be possessed tomorrow. I hope you still remember how to smile, baby.” I joked before leaving his condo.
The sweet smile I showed him gradually disappeared while walking away from his unit. And when I got on the elevator, my tears started to flow.
I don't see any hope.
After five days, I will say goodbye to him.
Five days is all I have, but I still can't fully accept that he chose to be alone even though I was here. But I wanted it, I wanted to love the man who loved someone else. I’ve brought this pain to myself. I shouldn’t blame him.
I got into a taxi and pointed the way back to my apartment. After getting out of the taxi I noticed the Civic stopped in front of my apartment. His driver got out and my eyes lit up when I recognized him.
"Adonis!" I quickly ran and jumped to hug him.
"I'm here to check if you're home."
I stepped back so there was a distance between us. "Apollo wouldn't let me stay there all day."
"Hmm, who knows?"
"He can't stand us being together for half a day."
He sighed and cupped my cheeks. "Freya called me."
I snorted. "You gossiped about me, didn't you?"
"She just told me about your antics."
"It's not annoying, I'm serious." I moved away from him and held his arm. I led him into my apartment and made him sit on the sofa. "Do you want coffee?"
"No. I want details."
"This is very serious. Just chill, sir." I said, laughing, and sat next to him.
He held my hand. "Hannah, I know you're keeping it all inside, again. You can take off that mask and show me what you really feel right now."
I smiled. "What are you talking about? I'm happy, right?"
"But are you satisfied?" I was speechless.
"Adonis..." I whispered.
He pulled my neck and leaned my cheek against his chest. I stopped everything from going out but the comfort from him was the reason why my tears flowed like a broken dam.
"It's okay. Crying is normal."
I sobbed. "I am sincere about my feelings. I'm not playing."
"I thought everything would be okay," I said between sobs. "I can feel that he is getting closer. I don't know, but every time everything is going well, he suddenly pushes me away."
I almost told Adonis everything, everything I feel for his older brother. It was just quietly patting my back while listening to me. His hands cupped my cheeks and wiped the tears on it.
"You want me to dig six feet?"
I laughed a little. "That was my line when Elizabeth dumped your ass. Copycat."
"Sorry, I don't know how to make you laugh."
"Maybe you're in love with me, huh?"
"Don't worry, I don't hook up with my fellow animal."
I hit him on the arm. "You're too much! That's why your mother is the one who truly loves you."
"You know, it's a good thing I didn't date you before."
"Why? Because I cried ugly?"
"Besides that." I pinched his arm and he shook softly. "Because no one will comfort you now. Freya’s always busy. She's 'Auditing Firm first before anything else'. You don't have any friends besides us because of your pushover attitude, so you get it, right? "
"Thank you for making me feel better, Adonis." I embraced him. "You know, just a little more muscle and you look like your older brother."
"Don't compare us, I don't make women cry," he said, annoyed.
"And he didn't fall into the ditch while wrestling the PS4 with me either."
"Maybe I should bang your head against the nearest wall, so you can forget about that too."
I laughed when I remembered those times when we were in college. "I almost called Auntie Vicky!"
I almost couldn't deliver that line correctly because I was laughing so hard. I will never forget what happened to Adonis. It's a good thing that his unit is close to the campus, but the guard is a bit hesitant about whether to let him in or pour water on him before letting him inside.
Adonis stopped having dinner at my apartment and went home. He promised that we would be out of town— he went to Canada for his business training. I also didn't mention to him that Apollo and I have a date tomorrow so that he wouldn't worry too much.
I laid down on the bed as if I was very tired from the day. I just stared at the ceiling while thinking about what I could do tomorrow.
I felt my phone vibrate and I picked it up from the bedside table. It was from Freya.
From Freya:
Adonis sent me a photo of your crying face. I couldn't stop laughing while at the meeting. Anyway, I hope everything went well with you and his dear brother. I don't want to see you cry but, f**k, it was hilarious. Good night.
These idiots are crazy as hell.
- Writer
