CHAPTER 13 - BYE
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HANNAH
Not once did Apollo look at me, he just kept his attention on Anabel. I don't even know what to talk about because I'm not familiar with their topics.
"You remember Asahi, right? The famous curly boy. He married our substitute professor last year. Aren't you invited?"
"I am, but I have a lot on my plate. I just sent a simple gift," Apollo replied.
I just followed them and still tightly held the bottle of water I bought for Apollo. I bit my bottom lip when I saw him put his hand on Anabel's waist while walking.
"Uhm, what..." I said. They turned to me and I immediately met Apollo's gaze. Heis still irritated with me. "I need to go to the loo."
"Ah, okay. Can we go on the rides first? We'll be right there on the shuttle." Anabel asked. "If you want to ride too, we'll just wait for you."
I shifted my gaze to Apollo. He could read my expression. But I'm disappointed, it doesn't matter. It's like he really wants to leave me.
I smiled. "Alright, it’s fine. You… you go first. I'm afraid of heights anyway."
I hope you will be happy. I no longer force what I want.
"Okay. Just wait for us at the exit."
I nodded and just watched them walk away. I swallowed a few times, to stop my overwhelming feelings. I looked at the sky for a long time, just to stop my tears from falling.
But, at least, Apollo is wearing the bracelet I made for him. It is made of small black beads, so it does not attract attention. I know he'll throw it away after today, but I'm glad he wore it.
After I cried in the loo and retouched, I went to the rides they were talking about. Just as they were about to board there, I caught up with how Apollo was going to support her.
He's hurting me on purpose.
"Apollo, I promise that this is the last time. It's only one day, but why can't you bear it?" I whispered to myself.
I want to ride there while screaming that I love him. But, that plan was ruined. But maybe it's not too late, there are still many exciting rides. It's not even night yet, I still have a lot of time.
And he still has plenty of time to torture me.
The ride ended and the two got off happily. While they were going down, I noticed that the bracelet I gave Apollo was gone. I approached them when they got out.
"Apollo, I'm so sorry." Anabel apologized.
"It's alright. We didn't expect that it would happen." Apollo said with a smile.
"What happened?" I seem to have a hunch but I want to be sure.
Anabel faced me. "Because I pulled his bracelet when I forced him to raise his hand earlier."
I stiffened and looked at Apollo. He knows I gave it to him. Please, be angry with me. Please, Apollo.
"It's okay. It can't be avoided. Let's just forget about it." He said before throwing the remaining beads in the trash.
He threw it away.
He threw it while facing me.
I begged him to wear it.
He threw it away as if he didn't care about how I would feel.
He threw it as he smiled.
"Apollo, I...." I was almost holding my breath because I didn't know if I should cry or just run. "I.... I made that for you."
Anabel gasped. "Oh, my god. I'm really sorry."
"There's no need to apologize, Anabel. Hannah can do it again. It's not that hard, right, Hannah?"
I couldn't stop it anymore and my tears fell. My willpower couldn't take it anymore. I want to run but my blisters hurt. I just stood there, my tears were falling but I’m not sobbing. I was looking at the blurred version of him.
"Apollo, she's crying! Do something!" The panic in Anabel's voice was obvious. "Hannah, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to."
I firmly pressed my lips together and bowed. I slowly walked away from them as the tears continued to fall.
I can't speak or smile anymore because it's so painful.
I don't even hope that Apollo will chase me anymore, because he will think that I might hope for more. But how many times do I have to say that it's too late?
I promised him that this is the last time. Didn't he trust me?
All I want is to be happy for this day. I begged properly, did I? Is it too much to ask?
I sat on the bench while wiping the tears but there was no stopping the flow. To the point where I was stunned with nothingness, but Apollo still didn't come to me. Anabel probably accompanied her to find her companions before she came to see me.
"Let's go home, I'll give you a ride." I didn't have to look up to know who owned that voice.
"Sit beside me, Apollo. At least, let me say goodbye." I weakly promised and put my palms together.
I heard his sigh but he also sat next to me. There was a long silence between us before I spoke.
"Did you enjoy it?"
"Yeah. Best day of my life." It doesn't make any sense.
I nodded. "Okay, uhm.... do you want some water?"
"That was a while ago. Why didn't you drink it?"
"You might be thirsty anytime. That's why I didn't drink it."
He took it from my hand and placed it in the space at his side. I just looked at it. He will disregard it again, huh?
"I noticed that you were crying earlier. Did you hurt your foot?"
I smiled sparingly. "It was this morning but you only noticed it after Anabel left."
"I didn't pay attention to you."
"I'm used to it." I said while looking at my feet. "Tomorrow, I can't talk to you anymore?"
"Zander's back. My job as the substitute is done. You will no longer be my secretary tomorrow."
I took a deep breath. "I'm sorry for nagging you and for disturbing you. I'm sorry for the times I didn't pay attention to the fact that I invaded your personal space."
I looked at him. I don't care if my eyes are swollen or if I'm ugly now. This is me, this is what you really feel.
I'm not just playing. I am serious about him. I noticed her swallowing and looked in another direction. Maybe he hates me so he doesn't want to look at me.
"Apollo, you don't deserve to be alone. I know you love her, but I hope you won't be blinded by that. I hope one day you will see that she is not the only woman for you," I said and continued, "Because it's not hard to love you, you're just not for her."
"That's enough. Let's end this." He cuts off what I'm saying.
I hugged him and felt his shock. I rested my cheek on his shoulder and closed my eyes. "I hope when we meet one day we will be equally happy."
"I know it won’t matter to you if I'm out of your life, Apollo." A small tear escaped my eye. "But thank you anyway because you have been a lesson in my life."
I moved away from him and gave him a sweet smile. "Goodbye."
"Goodbye."
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