If I was right in the past,maybe I would be happy right now.

It was dark,unnaturaly dark..the sunlight barely coming down.The boy sighed,looking though the airtight window at the gloomy sky.Then he looked down,at the shining screen of his phone.At the picture of two smiling girls.Tears dripped down his eyes.He wiped them away.Picking up the phone,he clicked on the voice message the billion'th time-"Hi,how are you?.you are my best friend ok..,and would always be....hey just shut up....your crush is disturbing me...i dont why you even love her-"he stopped the message.He cried. He again looked outside..at the sky,it was now drizzling.As if it was crying for him as well.He really felt the feeling to go outside and get washed by those tears of the sky.But he knew,it was suicidal. It was the year 2067,the 7th year of doom,as it is called now by the reamaining humans.The earth is pretty much destroyed,due to the heavy usage of nuclear strikes by enemy states,and the breakage of war between many hostile countries.According to old news and old estimates,87% of world was destroyed,with over 98% of population annihilated.(news are stopped now a days,pretty much everything has stopped). His home country was one of the nuclear states and used n-bombs as well on others.And as revenge others used n-bombs as well..and on everyone.The nuclear fallout and the radiation from the strongest WMD's caused the world to fall into chaos. 'Well,the world was pretty much in chaos even before the bombs'the boy sighed. He was one of the luckiest one to survive,and he is miserably surviving till now.Each memeber of his family died,the ones he knew,the one he loved and the one he was closest to..they all died,leaving him alone.Its been 6 years from then,and he is still trying to find happiness,but now the harsh truth is now dawning on him-"its impossible". He wanted to kill himself,but he didnt for two reasons-the last words she said to him was to live and to remember her always and obviously he is afraid to die..but now he knows that being dead is much better than this way of living. He was ready for it today,to make this day as his last..He remembered the events which took place beteween him and the one he loved..the pain he gave to her because of his immaturity.He felt a pang of remorse..if only he would have trusted her,he might had some good memories to look back into.He mumbled sorry to both of the girls,looked at pic on phone again and played that voice msg again.. Then he picked up the knife,a rusted one,and with one breath he slashed his neck.As his vision was blackening,he thought 'If only I would have gotten one chance...i would have saved them and the world' And then he died.