loosing someone is part of loving them

Hello, I guess the beach is empty my life sucks I hate aunt Julie and her dumb daughter Sarah they just love to annoy me and Sarah is always acting like the victim I have no friends my parents are dead no one cares about me I should just end it I don't have a single person I'm so done with life I miss my mom and dad how we used to laugh at Sunday lunch or how my dad promised to walk my down the aisle and I hate this world and those stupid drivers why me why did my parents have to die in that car crash I wouldn't wish this upon anyone it hurts so bad and my mom's dumb sister isn't making anything better she just causes the pain to increase and I'm in this depressing state that I don't know how to get out of she falls on the floor and starts crying then starts having a panic attack I feel I can't breathe I I don't feel so good. Hello, where am I and who are you?" the lady said. "Don't worry, miss. Haley, my name is Haley," she said. "Nice to meet you, Haley. I am Elma, and this is my husband, George, and my son, Jake. He is seventeen," I said in a low voice. "Hi, I am sixteen. My parents passed away two months ago, and I got stuck with a really bad family member, my aunt Julie," Elma said. "I am sorry," I said. "Don't be," . Elma offered me to stay, but I declined. Jake replied, "Mom, what if she's a liar and this is a scam?" I got emotional and got up to leave. Then Jake said, "Wait, you can stay. I'll get the guest room set up." I couldn't stop thanking them. George showed me around, and then I went to sleep. The next day, Elma told me I am starting school with Jake. I will be in grade 10, and he will be in grade 11. I said, "Okay." She said, "Sit, sit, sweetheart." I sat down, and she put some eggs, toast, and pancakes. I teared up a bit, and George said, "Sweetie, what's wrong?" I said, "I remember every Sunday my mom would make some pancakes, and we would laugh and have Sunday lunch." Jake hugged me and said, "I am sorry for before." Jake had green eyes like his father and brown hair like his mom. The next day, I woke up and got ready for school. I put my hair down, did my makeup, got dressed, and went downstairs. Jake was there with two other boys, Sam and Kyle. They asked me, "What's up?" I said, "Nothing, and you?" Kyle responded, "The sky." The boys laughed, and Jake said, "Let's go." We reached school, and it felt like everyone was staring at me. Mary was the Cheer captain Alexa were the debate captain. They said, "Hey new girl, sit." I replied, "What?" They gestured to the chair next to them and said, "Sit down." I sat down and they asked, "So, how do you know Jake?" I answered, "Oh, well, we're cousins." Mary said, "Cool." Then Alexa said, "Wanna come prom shopping? It's in three weeks." I agreed, "Yeah, sure." She added, "Next week, Wednesday." I replied, "Yeah, sure." In the back of my mind, I knew I needed money. I would probably get a job at the local bakery after school. I asked Jake to drop me off at the bakery to see if they were looking to hire. Luckily, I got the job. I came out smiling like crazy. Jake asked, "What happened? Did you get the last bagel?" I laughed and said, "No silly, I got a job." He replied, "Okay, good for you. But you do know Sam works there." I responded, "No, I didn't. Ugh, this is the worst." He said, "Not really. After school, you both can drive together so I can have alone time away from you." I said, "you know like an annoying older brother." We drove back home and Elma and George made lunch. It was some salad and burgers. We ate and then I got some homework done. After that, we went to sleep. The next day at school, Mary came up to me and asked, "So, what color prom dress are you going to wear?" I replied, "Maybe red." She followed up with, "Who are you going with?" I answered, "No clue. I might just go alone." Alexa chimed in, "Are you sure about that? Mary's going with Jake and I'm going with Kyle. Maybe you can go with Sam." I said, "Sam is a class clown, and I think it's better if I just go alone." Alexa said, "But it is your choice. Oh, and also, I'm having a sleepover with just me, Mary, and Lily. If you want to come, it will be fun." I said, "Sure, it'll be fun. I guess I'll see you then. Send me your address." Alexa said, "Okay Alexa said okay My phone number is 023478506. Sam's waiting for me outside, so I got into the car and said, "Let's go to the bakery." He drove to the bakery, and then we both put on our aprons and started working. We both had around a 4-hour shift. After that, Sam dropped me off at home. Before I got out of the car, I asked him, "Do you want to go to the prom as friends together?" He said, "Sure, why not?" After that, I went inside, and Jake asked me, "Why are you smiling?" I said, "I guess me and Sam are going to the prom together." He said, "Whatever." I went upstairs and went shopping for my dress with Alexa and Mary. It was red and silver at the bottom, so I got silver jewelry. I had no clue how my makeup and hair were going to turn out. They dropped me off at home and said, "We'll see you at the sleepover." I put on my pink silk pajamas and got my bag with some makeup for the next day, snacks, and my water bottle. I also got clothes for the next day. Fast forward to prom day, I was so excited. I thought it was going to be the best day of my life, but it turned out to be the worst. Me and Jake got ready and took pictures with Mary and Sam. George pulled me aside and said, "Sweetheart, I love you to the moon and back. You know I am not that young. I am 51 years old, but I do know that I want you to be safe. And I have a surprise. We're adopting you. Now you're my official daughter." I gave George a huge hug. I smiled. He said, "Jake and Elma know also." I smiled, and we went outside and drove to the dance. Then we were all dancing and drinking some punch and eating crab cake. It was so much fun. Then the news came on all of the town's phones, and an alert came on. They said, "In this house, on this day, there has been a shooting attack." When I saw which house, I ran out of there like crazy, and Jake followed. Then our dates followed, and we pushed them away. George had been shot, so we went to the hospital. George passed away, and my father figure was gone again. I just couldn't stop crying, and I felt so bad for Jake and Elma. Elma, she's the reason why I was even here, and I love her so much. If anything happened to her, I don't think I could even look Jake in the eye or even talk. I would just be a mess. But luckily, she was okay. George was the sweetest, kindest, and most generous person. He helped everyone, and I just wished I was there with him. I love him so much. Jake wasn't speaking, Elma was depressed, and I have not gone to school. We missed our final exams, but the school understands and is letting us take them again. The funeral is tomorrow, and everything is just moving too quickly. I don't know what to do next. The next day, I put on my black dress and black shoes. Everyone was there for George. I wish I had met George earlier. He was sweet, kind, and just a loving person. But everyone there was just crying, and I tried to keep it in, but I just couldn't. So, I let it all out. I just started crying and crying, and that's the only thing I could do. After a few weeks, we went back to school. We took our exams, and both Jake and I passed. We both graduated, even though we were in different grades. Jake got some minor detention, and something bad happened because of it. He got taken back into my grade, so we both graduated on the same day. I miss George. Elma was there on the day of graduation. Jake and I went our separate ways, and so did I and Sam. I stayed with Elma for a bit. I took a gap year, but then I started college, and then I met Alex. He was five months older than me. He reminded me of George - sweet, kind, and helpful. College was a dream. I made new friends, Christy and Maddie. We went shopping together, hung out at the beach, and I introduced them to Elma. On summer break, it was amazing. I even caught up with Jake. We grabbed coffee and met up with Elma. Alex introduced me to his family, and I introduced him to Jake and Elma. In Alex's point of view, l loves her so much. He asked me, "Hey, um, Haley, can you grab me water?" Elma, can I ask your daughter to marry me?" Elma said yes. My smile just grew. A few months after that, it was graduation day and Alex proposed. We were going to get married in the fall. I said to myself, "I think I finally found my smile." We were so happy. We started cake tasting, food catering, trying on dresses, and he was trying on suits. We were finding a place to get married and making the guest list. I reached out to Mary, the person who got me through high school, and Alexa to both be my bridesmaids. I also asked Christy to be my bridesmaid and Maddie to be my maid of honor. We got married in the fall, and now I was pregnant. I was over the moon. I said, "I hope our baby has blue eyes like yours and blonde hair like mine." Alex hugged me tightly, but then suddenly I felt a feeling I had felt before. I woke up in the hospital. Alex said, "Hey, honey, you passed out." The doctor came in looking scared, and that's when he said it. "Your baby didn't make it." I screamed and cried, and it felt like there was a shatter in my heart. Alex was crying and hugging me, but all I wanted was to go in a hole and cry. This was the worst feeling in the world. Alex supported me throughout everything. Elma and Jake were there for me also, and so were his parents. Over time, it got better. I got a job. I wrote my first novel, and it was a hit. Almost 1 million of my books were sold. But I could tell something was wrong with Alex. I just didn't know what. One day, Alex said, "My brother invited me and his brother to dinner so we could get to know each other." To my luck, it was Sam. I hugged him and said, "Sam, oh, I missed you." Alex was confused and said, "You two know each other?" I laughed and said, "He was the class clown in my grade in high school. He took me to prom." Alex chuckled and said, "Small world." After eating, Alex went to the bathroom, and Sam said, "How's life?" I said, "Good, good. And yours?"He said, "Alright," then said, "Here's my number. We can catch up another time." I smiled as Alex came back, and we went home. A couple of weeks after that, I asked Alex what was wrong. He said, "It's nothing." A couple of days later, he was gone. He passed away. The doctors said he had a major sign of depression. Jake rushed to the hospital and said, "What happened?" I told him everything, and he gave me a hug. I said, "I can't keep losing people. Everyone I have ever loved has died. I am done loving people. My parents, my baby George, my husband. I should just stop loving people. It hurts too much, Jake." "When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure," Jake said. "You're not losing these people, Hales. You still have the memories." "I know," I said, "but what if I forget?" "You won't. You truly loved those people. They will always be in your heart. Always remember that, Hales." I gave him the tightest hug, and then I took time off work to focus on myself and mourn the loss of my family. I didn't reply to messages or talk to anyone. I just needed to be alone. Knock, knock. Someone was at the door. It was Sam. As soon as I opened the door, he burst in and gave me a hug. He said, "I love you from the moment that I met you. I know this is soon, my brother just passed away. It doesn't have to be now, but will you marry me in a year's time?" I said, "Give me some time, Sam." He said, "Take all the time in the world, my love." Five months later, I caught up with Sam at the mall, and I said yes. He looked very confused. I said, "Yes, I will marry you." We started to plan our wedding. It brought back some memories, but I shrugged it off. Honestly, it was the best thing in the world that had ever happened to me. And then, two weeks later, my hair started to fall out. And I thought I was gonna die. Sam took me to my first appointment, and I had stage 3 Hodgkin's Lymphoma cancer. So, I started chemotherapy. It really helped But the doctor said I have two months to live. I wouldn't stand for it. I told the doctor, "I am a fighter. I will not stand for it." I did chemotherapy and took tablets, so all my hair fell out. It didn't bother me much, and it didn't bother Sam either. Three months went by, and I was still standing. Sam was there throughout everything - when my hair fell out, when I started chemo - he came to all my appointments. I love him so much, and all I can do is wait patiently and hope my body fights it off. After 4 months of chemo and medicine, my hair is starting to grow. I am currently 27, and Sam is 28. Jake and Elma came to visit me and Sam. We went out for lunch, and Jake told me he was getting married to Olivia. Olivia was in my class; we weren't close, but we would talk occasionally. She had pink and blonde hair and blue eyes the last time I saw her. Then she came in, and she looked exactly the same. She greeted me; she was very nice. Jake asked Sam to be his best man, and Sam said yes. And then I saw someone I hadn't seen in years - Kyle. I said in shock. He changed a lot. He was much taller. His hair is brown; it used to be blonde. It was a great day. We went home, and then I got the best news of my whole life: my cancer is gone! I screamed in happiness. Sam came into the room and hugged me. Then he said, "We're throwing a party for you." Kyle, Jake, Elma, Mary, Alexa, Olivia, Christy, and Maddie all came to the party, and we had an amazing time. (Sam's POV) We didn't get to have a honeymoon. I wonder where I should take her: Maldives, Thailand, or Cape Town? I have no clue. I'll ask Jake and Elma. I pulled Elma and Jake to the side and said, "Hey guys, I was wondering which one place Haley wants to visit." Jake said, "She has always wanted to visit Zanzibar or Maldives. You can choose; she will love each one equally." Elma said, "Choose Zanzibar. It's where her birth parents got married." I smiled and went to look for Haley. I said, "Hales, let's go to Zanzibar for our honeymoon." (Back to her POV) I said, "Yes, yes, a million times yes!" Two days later, we started packing our suitcases. My suitcase was so full. It was a long journey, but when we got there, it was so beautiful. We went swimming with the turtles, scuba diving, and rode dolphins. We also tried new food. It was so much fun, but all good things come to an end. We went back home, and then I went wedding dress shopping with Olivia. She got the most beautiful dress. Her wedding is in 5-6 months.I called Sam into the living room and said, "I think I am going to start working on a book about my life and all these obstacles." He smiled and gave me a hug. The next day, I started working on the book and had only written the first 5 pages when Sam burst through the door and said, "I did it! I got a huge job in London!" I smiled and hugged him, just as he had done for me. In Haley's mind, London seemed far away. I couldn't bear to be away from Elma, who was 62, but Sam had supported me through everything. Back to reality, I asked Sam, "How long are we going to be in London?" He replied, "One year, maybe two." I said, "Oh, okay." He then said, "You can stay if you want." I replied, "No, you stayed with me through everything. I will join you, but I will stay here for a month to be with my mom, and then I will join you. Okay?" "I am so sorry." he reassured me, saying, "No, no, no. It's really okay."he left and I went to London. While I stayed with Elma, it was really nice to just be in her company. I love her so much. The door opened and it was a deep voice. I turned around and it was Jake. I gave him a big hug. We were all a family again. I really started missing George a lot more that day, wishing he was there with his cute smile, blue eyes, white hair, and his favorite red and black checkered shirt. I miss him so much. I started packing and then took the first flight to London. I saw Sam standing there with a sign saying "Welcome to London." I gave him a big hug and he asked, "Do you want coffee?" I said, "Sure." He went to go get coffee and then I saw someone I hadn't seen in years, Mary. I screamed, "Mary!" She said, "OMG, Hales!" We hugged and then she said, "Oh, your hair is so short. Is it because of the cancer?" I said, "You knew?" She said, "Yeah, were you in town?" I said, "Yeah, I said some friend you are." She looked confused. I said, "Don't stand there looking so innocent. You were in town and you knew, yet you never visited once or even sent a message." She said, "I am truly sorry. I don't know what I would have said." I responded, "You could have said three simple words: 'Are you okay?' But I didn't even get a hello. I am done with this conversation. Goodbye." I went back to Sam, and we drank our coffee. Later, I visited the apartment. It was beautiful – a two-bedroom with two bathrooms, a living room, and a stunning marble kitchen. As I sat on the couch, I had mixed feelings. I felt happy being with my partner in crime, my joy, my life, my universe. I love him so much; he makes me smile and feel something real. My heart does a little excited flip every time we speak; my stomach gets butterflies, and my cheeks turn pink. I love him, but now I've just lost a best friend. It hurts. I was super tired from this long journey, so I decided to go to sleep. I hugged Sam and said goodnight. The next morning, I woke up, and for the first time in a long time, I felt happy. Sam was at work, so I unpacked my suitcase and video called Elma. We talked about how much we missed each other, and we discussed when I would visit again. After about 20 minutes, I hung up the call. I texted Sam, "I'm going to explore the city," got dressed, and first went to a cafe. There was a really kind barista named Mimi. She asked if I was new in the city, and I said yes. She suggested, "If you want, I can show you around the city after my shift, and don't worry, I'm not going to kidnap you – haha." We both laughed, and I gave her my phone number. After that, I went for a walk on the Tower Bridge; it was so beautiful. Later, Mimi called me and said, "Meet me at Hyde Park." When I arrived, I saw a group of people – Mimi introduced me to Nicole, Lara, and Lexi. They were all so kind. We ate, went for a walk, and they told me everything I needed to know about the city. Soon after, we all became really close. I was especially close with Mimi; she was always there for me in my hard times and my achievements. Life was going well until one day I got a phone call from my old town, saying they would like me to write a new novel since my last one was a hit. I told them to give me some time to think about it. I called Mimi to discuss it, and she told me, "You have to follow your dreams. What about your mum, Elma, and brother Jake? They live there, and you haven't visited once in almost five months. This is a good opportunity." My dear friend, now you just need to discuss this with Sam, okay? Then, I decided to ask Mimi about her life goals. She said she wants to become a computer engineer; she has loved computers since the 6th grade. She also added that when she was around 11 years old, she came across a computer, learned how they work, and instantly fell in love with them. I gave her a big hug and said, "I wish you all the best and hope your dream becomes a reality." I thanked her for coming into my life, for always being there, and for supporting me in my dreams and hopes. I expressed gratitude for being there when I was sad or depressed, for calming me down when I was nervous. Both of us teared up and hugged each other. She said in a sad voice, "Call me with your decision; I want to be at the airport. I love you so much." I told her, "I love you more," and promised to call. Then she left. Normally, Sam comes home late, so I stayed up late that night. I watched a series, and then I heard the door opening – it was Sam. I sat him down and said, "Look, I got offered a job to write another novel in our old town, and I think it could be another bestseller." He looked at me and just smiled. He said, "If you're asking for permission to go, you have all my blessings. I just want you to be happy and have all the best opportunities in life. I love you." I gave him a tight hug and said, "I love you more." He whispered, "We both know I love you more," and we both chuckled. That night, I barely got any sleep, just thinking about what I would write about. The next morning, I called the person who wants to publish a new novel with me and told him I agreed. He informed me the next flight back is in 2 days, so I need to get ready I put on black leggings and a grey hoodie and headed out to the cafe to get coffee. Mimi was there, and I told her I would be leaving in 2 days. She insisted that my coffee and bagel were on her. I smiled, and she added, "I'll come over later to help you pack." I thanked her and left. As I walked around the city, it started raining, but I didn't mind; it was quite peaceful. Eventually, I got really wet, so I went home, took a warm shower, drank my coffee, and had my bagel with some cream cheese. After finishing, I packed away my makeup and skincare. I left my toothbrush and toothpaste for tomorrow, along with a small bag of mini skincare. At this point, I was already tired, so I went on the couch and scrolled on t****k, missing Mary's account. Mimi reminded me of her, and I started wondering if I was too harsh on Mary. Perhaps I didn't let her explain. I decided to reach out to her, telling her I'd be leaving London soon and asking if she wanted to meet before I left. We agreed to meet at the mall. We met in front of the fountain, and she explained that during the time I had cancer, she knew about it, but she was going through her own struggles with OCD. It got so bad that she had to go to the hospital for treatment. Feeling guilty for not visiting me during that time, she blamed herself when she found out about my cancer. We both started crying, and I apologized for cutting her out of my life without knowing the full story. Later, both Mary and Mimi came over, and I introduced them to each other. We all got along so well, and I felt better knowing that my friends still had each other. After some time, we finished talking, and I gave them both the biggest hug, saying, "I'll see you at the airport." We all started crying, realizing we might not see each other again. That night, my heart was heavy, and I went to sleep. The next day, Sam took off work, and we had a great time together. We explored, had delicious food, and in the morning, when I went to fetch some coffee, I met up with Mimi. She had gotten me a gift – a scrapbook that I could decorate, knowing how much I loved designing. Today was so emotional, but I'm glad I have met all these amazing people in my life. Without them, I don't know how I would survive. They have helped me through everything. I still wonder how life would have been if people in my life didn't leave, but all things happen for a reason. I know that now. The next day, I arrived at the airport. I gave my friends the biggest hug, telling them I love them, and I always will. They will always be in my heart, forever and always. I gave Sam a hug and said, "See you soon, my love." I arrived back in my town, saw Olivia, Elma, and Jake, and gave them the biggest hug. When I got home, all the memories flooded back. I unpacked my suitcase and started working on my novel. After four weeks of writing, my book was done. I was going to publish it in two days. The day before it got published, Sam, Mary, and Mimi surprised me. I was the happiest girl on earth. The next day at the publishing, behind me were all my family, friends, and more – my world. The book was published. After that, Sam stayed in the town as his job ended early. I said goodbye one last time to Mimi and Mary, and that's my story coming to an end. My life, full of adventures and losses, excitement, and terror. Life always has the most unexpected turns, but just know everything in this life happens for a reason. There will always be a person who loves you in this world and someone who wishes for your downfall. Always get good people in your life like my best friends Mimi and Mary. I love them with all my heart, and my husband Sam, my mother Elma, and my brother Jake always trust the process 5 years later me and Sam have two kids one older boy and one younger girl I really hope that they don't go through the same pain I did I will help them and always be there for them sometimes I still meet up with Mimi and Mary in London and Mimi has two beautiful twin girls there so identical I still can't tell them apart and Mary has two sons and one daughter I love my life and I will countine to enjoy life to the fullest I could have given up a long time ago but I still had my friend my partner in crime always and forever Sam we will grow old together and always be there for each sad to say . Now, my story has come to an END.