Toxic love

Now what?

The time for me to have a girlfriend had finally come.' But why am I so nervous. She will accept me right. But what if she doesn't I will be humiliated. Maybe it isn't time for me to propose yet. Yeah, I need some time to prepare. 'Thinking it wasn't time yet I said to Roman, "I will go to the restroom." and I went away. When I returned Ann and Sam were no longer there but Roman was sitting with a grin.

As soon as he saw me, he said, "She accepted it."

"What? "

I forgot to tell Roman not yo talk about that. But still I was confused. I should have been haply that she accepted my love but I was busy thinking why she accepted me. 'Was I that handsome that she couldn't reject me? Or, did she like me too? But if she liked me why didn't she say it?'

Actually, that was not important. What was important was, what was I supposed to do now? I was kind of happy that I had a girlfriend now but what do lovers actually do? As it was first for me I didn't even know what to do. I asked Roman who self claimed to have had a lot of relationships but according to him, all lovers do was watching movies, eating food, dating and kissing. I didn't have confidence for any of that. From what he said, it seemed like only millionaires can have girlfriend. I didn't even have a job how was I supposed to take her to movies and feed her.

To be honest, I was afraid to even face her. Boyfriend and girlfriend always talk wherever I look but what should I talk about. As I had already proposed her, I couldn't even deny that I like her or it would be humiliating her and she would cry for sure which I didn't wish to see. But then what was the next step. That was the moment when I realised love seems sweet when looking at others but it can be bitter too.

Anyway, there was no going back and I too wanted to brag to my friends that I finally got a girlfriend. So, I asked Roman where Ann was and went to find her. By god's mercy, Roman tagged along. She was near the gate of the school. It looked like she was waiting for me. But I was troubled. What should I say? In the end, I didn't say anything. I just looked at her and smiled. Sam was the one to talk first,

"Look who is here. How do you feel now Mr. Ashish? "

I couldn't give a proper reply. I didn't know what to say. Maybe she knew I couldn't reply, Ann replied her,

" Hey, don't bully my boyfriend. "

Wow! What did I hear just now? She called me her boyfriend, right? I never thought even I would hear something like that.

I have an older brother and he too has a girlfriend. He doesn't talk about her with me but I had seen his messages before. I now regret I didn't read those messages nicely. The area where we live is a little bad. The boys of the area had assembled a gang and used to bully us from timr to time since I was a kid. So, for me being strong was more important than being loved. Even if you have a girlfriend, if you don't have strength to protect her then you will only face danger. Like someone might go after your girl and beat you up. So, in the time my brother chatted with his girlfriend, I would workout and I was confident of being able ro protect people close to me.

I always thought my way of thinking was correct and I would never regret making that decision but right now, I just wanted to shout,

"Just what am I supposed to say here? "