Long Lusting Love

Buddies "She doesn't deserved to be in that position anyway! I'm more deserving than her!" I angrily shouted together with the sound of all of the boom boxes here in the club. I slammed the shot glass down the table. "Calm down," my friend Ysabel said. Well, she's not actually my friend. We're just closed, that's it. Nagkataon lang na pareho kami ng ugali kaya madalas kaming magkasama. I'm more worser than her kaya alam ko kung anong tumatakbo sa utak niya. Alam ko kung anong klase siyang tao. And I'm greater than anyone else. Even greater than my sister! Kung ano ang gusto ko ay dapat na sa akin lang. If I want to be the very best, then I am the very best. If I want to be a total b***h, then I am a total b***h. End of story. "...I've got to talk to Rael. He's willing to do the work." Her eyes shone in lust saying her puppy's name. "You can talk to him tomorrow in the office of his boss." And most shining eyes for the word 'boss'. I rolled my eyes at her and to the now getting wild crowd. Kahit anong gusto kong makisayaw ay hindi ko magawa. I just couldn't dance knowing that my great sister was starting to get everything from me. I deserved the project alone! Kung bakit kase isinali pa siya ni papa sa project na iyon. I can do that alone. I don't need the help of my younger stupid and only sister, Cassidy. "And how can I make sure he's fine with the work? You know me, Ysabel. Gusto ko ng malinis na trabaho lalo na sa isang ito. It's a matter of life and death situation for me." She laughed sarcastically on my words. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. "I can't believe you really can do this to your sister. Alam ko namang sobra ang galit mo sa kanya but, I'm not expecting this to ever happen. Sana lamang ay hindi kita makaaway." Her last sentence is more sarcastic. We are buddies because of our similarities. Kilala namin ang isa't isa, kaya alam namin na parehas kaming walang kinakatakutan. If she's really afraid of becoming my foe, I don't believe her at all. Well, I don't believe her all the time. Kaya nga gusto kong makasiguro sa taong tinutukoy n'ya. I don't want this one messing up. "I'll come with you in their office. You'll talk to Rael while I'll busy myself with his boss." she winked at me and playfully bit her lip. "Give Rael all he needs so he'd do what you wanted." "I'm not going to bed him like you did Ysabel." I warned her, narrowing my eyes at her so she would easily get my point. She laughed at me and drunked on her glass before speaking. "It's up to you! But what I mean is money. Iyon naman ang kaylangan n'ya kaya n'ya gagawin ang gusto mo. But, I'm telling you, Rael is good at bed too. Though his boss is more than greater." I scrunched my nose up in disgust. We're not totally the same. She's a b***h, a slut, a w***e. It's in her system at nakakadiring isipin na nakikisalamuha ako sa tulad n'ya. I have met that Rael once. He's in our age and very attractive but not my type. He has a perfectly built muscles, dahilan para makuha s'yang personal bodyguard ni Mr. Ranieri, the one Ysabel calling boss. I haven't met the guy yet and I don't have plans meeting that old rich maniac. Surely, gusto lamang s'yang makuha ni Ysabel para maging sugar daddy. Isang beses ng may nangyari sa kanila at hindi na naulit. Kaya naman ang bodyguard na si Rael na ang nilalandi n'ya ngayon. "To get to Mr. Ranieri again, of course." Ysabel once told me when I asked her why stick to a bodyguard like Rael. He's really looking good. Looks manly but he's still a bodyguard. Shouldn't be our type of man. "Ang problema kase sayo, you're wasting most of your time pleasing your company and your father. You should wind up sometime. Wind up I mean not like this, okay? Go somewhere and find a man to make you happy." Here again, her useless advice. It's a silent advice of, be a kind of girl like me. Bagay na hindi ko gagawin kahit kailan. "It's not wasting of time, Ysabel. Once I get Papa's attention, all of this is going to be worth it, and I don't need a man to make me happy." "Really?" pinagtaasan n'ya ako ng kilay. "Every woman needs a man in all aspects of their life, Cat. At sa tingin mo, kaylan mo kaya makukuha ang atensyon ng Papa mo? When it's not about your flaws and mistakes? You're like a liability to him; a ghost daughter who's trying to scare them to death because you're a b***h in their butts!" Uminom ulit ako ng isa pang shot. I get offended but I know how to handle and hide it. Iyan naman ang gusto ko sa kanya. Her dirty mouth would say anything she wants. She doesn't need to say flowery words to me. Atleast dahil sa ugali n'yang iyan ay mas natatauhan ako sa kung ano nga ang tingin sa akin ng pamilya ko. "Well let's see who's going to be a b***h in their butts once my plan succeed. No more Cassy, more of Catty." And with that, we cheers our glass so hard it almost breaks and we laughed so hard as well. This is going to be the best moment for Catalina and a nightmare for our dear Cassidy. "You think this would work?" tanong ko kay Ysabel na nasa kabilang linya. Maingat akong nagpark sa company building ng Ranieri. Ysabel is already inside at hihintayin ko na lamang na lumabas ang body guard na si Rael. "It's your plan. Kaylan ka pa nagduda sa mga gusto mong gawin?" she said and I know she's rolling her eyes to nowhere. I can even imagined her tight hugging like a second skin dress, with her killer heels and looking f****d up lipstick. Of course, hindi n'ya ako tutulungan kung wala s'yang mapapala. Goodluck na lamang sa kanila ni Mr. Ranieri at goodluck naman para sa akin kay Rael. This guard must do my will or I'll really going to cut his balls off. "It's because some random stupid guard is with us. Paano ako makakasiguro na magagawa nga n'ya ng maayos?" I asked and stepped out of my car. Tinitigan ako ng guard mula ulo hanggang paa. Maging ang receptionist ay nagtaas ng kilay sa akin. Mas itinaas ko ang kilay ko sa kanya bago umupo sa sofa ng lobby nila. This company looks pretty good. Sa dami siguro ng naging babae ng may-ari ay alam na kung paano mas papagandahin ang building at upang mas lalong maging kaakit-akit. "Call him stupid if he fails this. You have to trust him for now..." Trust. I don't even trust you, b***h. I've learned not to trust anyone so long time ago. "... He's on his way down and I'm on my way to Mr. Ranieri's room." she squealed on the other line and that's the sign for me to end the call up instantly. After a minute of glancing around and rolling my eyes to the gossipers, I finally found Rael walking. His body is stiff. Diretso ang lakad n'ya palapit sa akin kaya agad akong tumayo. Ang akala ko ay nakita na n'ya ako pero ng diretso s'yang naglakad at nilampasan ako ay sobrang pagpipigil ang ginawa ko huwag lang ibato sa kanya ang sapatos ko. How dare he! "Rael!" I shouted, suddenly forgetting that I'm in other's company, not ours. Mabilis s'yang lumingon sa akin. He's already in the exit of the building. Nang nakita ako ay nanlaki ang mga mata sa gulat. So he really didn't notice me here? How rude! And the guy just watched me approaching him. Hindi man lang nagawang lumapit. Ako pa talaga ang lalapit sa kanya? But anyway, ako naman ang may kailangan so it's more fine for now. "You're Ysabel's friend." he muttered still in the state of shock, towering over me. I crossed my arms over my chest and turned my chin higher. "She's not my friend." Nagsalubong ang kilay n'ya. Inirapan ko naman. "I'm here because you know very well why, not to talk of what kind of friendship I have with your f**k buddy." His mouth parted from my blatant words. Lumingon s'ya sa paligid at hinawakan ang braso ko. Agad ko iyong hinawi bago pa man magdalawang segundo. He gestured me the side and I stepped on it. And now he wants a private conversation, huh? Sa pagkakaalam ko ay proud ang f**k buddies sa mga ginagawa nila. Ysabel is. Kaya bakit naman ganito ang guard na ito? "I can't do this." Nagtaas ako ng kilay sa kanya. Tila balisa s'ya e wala pa namang ginagawa. I'm here to make sure na gagawin n'ya ang ipapagawa ko. At kung hindi n'ya gagawin... Well he really need to! I'm wasting enough of time already! "Nag-usap kami ni Ysabel. I agreed but I don't think I can do this now." "You can do this because it's your nature. Wala naman iyong pinagkaiba sa ginagawa n'yo ni Ysabel at ng iba pang mga babae." He leaned closer and whispered through his greeted teeth. "It's a r**e. Magkaiba iyon. You want me to r**e your own sister, really?" Each his words were firmed. Tinitigan ko ang mga mata n'yang tila nagmamakaawa na huwag ko itong gawin. Or more like, he's pleading na iba na lamang at huwag s'ya. "Really. And I'm sure Ysabel talked about this with you when you're both naked in bed right? Do you want her to ask you again in that way?" mapanghamon kong tanong. Syempre, alam ko kung paano kakausapin ni Ysabel ang mga lalaki mapasunod lang sa gusto n'ya. "No, hindi na. Ayaw ko na." he stubbornly said. "Why?" I asked him coldly. "Give me enough reasons to understand why you cannot do this and why I should not cut your balls off." Nanlaki ang mga mata n'ya sa akin. Diretso akong tumingin sa kanya, ni hindi ako gumalaw. I want him to know that I'm f*****g serious here! Dahil hindi ko na alam ang gagawin kung hindi s'ya papayag. If I need to find someone else then who would go help me? Not Ysabel anymore dahil wala na s'yang mapapala. I'm sure she doesn't care where this talk goes on. Surely, she's now savouring her moments with that old sugar daddy of her. "Hindi na talaga. Hindi mo ba naiintindihan? This is wrong." pagmamatigas n'ya. Huminga ako ng malalim at ngumisi sa kanya. Bakit ko pa nga ba s'ya kailangan kausapin kung magagawa ko naman ng sapilitan. I rummaged through my bag and get the brown envelope, holding it out to him I said, "I want it to be done the day after tomorrow. Do to her what you wanted but don't kill her yet. I want her to suffer with the consequences. Bring her back after a week when she's all weak and limp." Mas lalong nanlaki ang mga mata n'ya sa sinabi ko. Hindi n'ya tinanggap ang sobre kaya hinampas ko iyon sa matigas n'yang dibdib. Still he didn't react, kaya naman ibinagsak ko na lamang iyon sa sahig. The small thud of it makes him blink his eyes rapidly. "I told you I can't--" "You can. Mess with me and you will feel like messing with the world." I warned him at seryoso ako roon. Hindi ko na s'ya hinayaan pang magsalita at tinalikuran na. I was all smiling because of his priceless face when I bumped into a wall. I feel so embarassed! Ngunit ng makita ko ang pulang necktie ay doon ko lamang napansin na hindi pala pader. Masama ko s'yang tiningnan. His hooded eyes almost makes me melt. His hard body against mine almost breaks me. We were staring at each other when it registered on me that his huge hand is still on my butt, supporting me. Mabilis kong naramdaman ang pag-init ng aking pisngi at agad na lumayo sa kanya. Composing myself and not letting my anger to resurface, I stood straight in front of him. Bahagyang nagsalubong ang kilay ko dahil sa pagkatangkad n'ya. I raised my brows so he won't notice I'm intimidated by him. "Any words from you, Sir?" I asked him and tilted my head. This man looks respectable, honorable and educated. Siguro naman ay alam n'ya kung paano humingi ng paumanhin sa pagbunggo n'ya sa isang babae. And I'm not just some random stupid girl. I am Catalina Ventura for him. He too, boastfully raised one of his perfect brow directed at me. I raised my chin up and chose not to waste time with him. "No apologies? It's fine. My day is just starting for you to ruin it." He glanced over my shoulder, seeing that the sun will set any moment now. And yes, ngayon pa lamang nagsisimula ang araw ko. I shrugged my shoulder at him and looked over his shoulder. Doon ko lamang napansin si Ysabel kasama ang dalawang receptionist na nanlalaki ang mga matang nakatingin sa akin. Not meeting this man's gaze, I started walking towards the gawking girls. They looked pathetic actually, just like Rael. I smirked remembering his face. Nang nilingon ko s'ya ay nagmamadali n'yang kinuha ang sobre sa sahig at lumabas. Siguro ay pinanood muna n'ya ang nangyari. And the man I bumped into didn't look back at me which is good. He watched Rael frantically walks out the building before he follows. I noticed the bad aura sorrounding him before Ysabel shook me literally. "How is he?" she asked, giggling. Nagkibit balikat ako. "He actually didn't agree, but he has no choice, so." "No!" she said and dragged me away from the reception desk. "I'm talking about Mr. Ranieri. I told you, he's a best man right?" Nagsalubong ang kilay ko at iniwas ang braso sa kamay n'yang humihigpit sa paghawak sa akin. "What?" "That guy! The one you bumped into. He's Mr. Ranieri! I was following him when he suddenly stopped and watched you talking to Rael, and then you bumped into him." I rolled my eyes and tried to wash that Mr. Ranieri's eyes off my mind. So he's the boss? I thought he's old like grannies with a gray hair. "So, you wanna tell me I'm stupid now for bumping with someone?" "What? No!" aniya habang sinusundan ako palabas ng building. "That"s not a stupid act. That's actually a wise tactiques! But you can't want him Catty! He's mine!" She put his pointing finger down after I gave it a glare. Then my eyes darted to the now starting car. "That's an accident. And that, Mr. Ranieri is all yours. Man with an STD is not really my type." I noticed her mouth turn into a big 'O'. She followed my gaze. Pinanood naming dalawa ang lumalayong sasakyan ni Mr. Ranieri, with Rael the driver, of course. "He's clean Ysabel. He certainly don't have a STD." Ysabel said firmly but lowly. Nagtaas ako ng kilay sa kanya. I'm more excited to know what will happen to mine and my sister's life after this than anything else. "Are you saying that to convince me he's really a best man and a nice catch?" She blinked her eyes at me. Bahagya akong natawa. "I've never been interested to any of your f**k buddies, Ysabel. Don't be so silly. And why you look so stressful, anyway? Don't you get a great minutes with that best man without an STD?" I mocked her. We're fair now. Her f**k buddy Rael, almost annoyed me. Her shoulder fell before walking to her parked car. "He dismisses me. Again." I nodded to myself once, smirking to her back and watched her drove away. Hindi ko nga rin alam kung bakit s'ya pinatulan nang Mr. Ranieri na iyon. I get it, she's beautiful and sexy. But one look at her and you could say what type of a girl she is. Probably that Mr. Ranieri was too drank when he took her. Pathetic buddies.