Teach Me How To Love

Beth's prov Today I feel so week, I am not sure I want to get up to go to school but its been my only safe haven for so long so I can't stay at home. If I do I would be hit over and over by my dad. It seems as though he takes his pains and frustrations out on me. I don't know what I did to be beaten, but all I know is that its been getting worse. Last week he hit me so hard I blocked out for who knows how long. I have been trying to stay out of his way and not cause any problems since. My mom doesn't seem to care what happens to me so when ever my dad drinks she leaves me there alone and with no one to help. I have no idea when we started to grow apart but ever since I was10 nothing was happy or good anymore. I remember all the love they once shared and had for me but it all seem to never even exist now. Some nights I cry and wish that I had that love again. Beep....Beep the sound of my alarm brought me back out of my thoughts. "ugh" I got myself up and went to the bathroom took off my clothes and too a quick shower not wanting to be late for school. After my shower I put on a long sleeve shirt and sweat pants with a hoody to hide my bruised skin. I then applied a little makeup to cover my face so no one see bruises that has been done there. Grabbing my backpack I stuffed my phone and books in. I went down stairs as quiet as I could and started walking to school. By the time I got to school I had five minutes before I had to go to class so I went to get something to eat in the cafeteria. After getting some food I went to the back of the room to eat, I was so lost in thought that I didn't notice when my best friend called my name. "Beth.....Beth.... BETH" when I finally looked up I saw Kelly smiling a me. " hey girl, you ok?" she said. "yes" I replying not paying much attention. Kelly was my one and only friend in this school and she didn't mind me being quiet all the time. she knew about the abuse my father gave me so she was very understanding. sometimes I would sleep over her house just to escape the beating I would get. I had so many nightmares but she was always there to comfort me when I cried and it helped me so much. I had been working and saving up money to move out when I turned 18 next week and Kelly has been so supportive. At one time she wanted me to move in with her and her parents but I told her I need a space for me and she agreed. I was being pulled back out of my thoughts by Kelly shaking my hand and say something I couldn't quilt hear. "Kelly what's gotten you all worked up?" I asked looking at her smiling face. "did you hear that there's a new teacher who will be teaching math?" she asked with so much excitement while pulling on my arm. "no what about him?" I asked she looked at me with shock in her eyes then said "how could you not everyone's been talking about him and how sexy he is. How could you not know?" In all honesty I had no clue why she cared about a teacher being sexy I mean he's just a teacher and does it really matter its not like he will change the world or anything. "because I don't listen to rumors and I really don't care about a new teacher" I said while getting up with my bag to throw away the rest of the food content. I headed to class with Kelly on my heels following. "How could you not care about a sexy guy" she said " I don't know because he's my teacher" I said, she just look at me as if I had two heads. " girl you really need to know what its like to see someone as the definition of hot" she said "do I really need to know?" I asked with a little smile "Beth you do... you really do" was the last thing she said while we walked into class and took are seats in the front corner of the room. Every one was here for class when the bell ran. The door was open and a tall but very attractive man walked in with a bag over his shoulder. He was wearing a blue dress shirt tucked in a black dress pants that did his body no justice, his hair was black and think and at that moment, I wanted to run my hand through it just to feel how soft it is, he had a chesled chin and his lips looked so soft when he turned around to speak to the whole class. "Hello class my name is Nathan Collins, you all may call me Mr. Collins" He said as his eyes scan across the room. Our eyes met for a moment and he gave me a small smile and kept on talking. "Starting today I will be your teacher in science, I would love for everyone to do their work and do what is required during this class" he said. The whole time Mr. Collins was talking the girls behind use kept on whispering. one girl in the back said "he so sexy, I wish I could have him" the girl beside her said "If I had him in my bed the thing I would do to him" at that point in time I just couldn't listen to anything else they said, I just blocked them out and focused on the rest of class making sure to take notes. During the class Mr. Collins was looking at me a couple of time and I actually blushed a little. When he saw my face get a little red he smile and looked away and kept on with the lesson. By the end of class every girl was how should I say in love with the fact that there teacher was 'sexy' I honestly didn't know why I mean yes he was vey good looking but come on he's your teacher and why would a teacher that looks like that want anything to do with any of us. The bell rang and I slowly packed up my stuff being in my thoughts I didn't realize that everyone had left the room to go to there other classes. Even Kelly left talking to some other girls about the teacher. By the time I had everything packed I turned around to be face to face with Mr. Collins. we stayed there looking at each other for a couple seconds but it felt like hours. He finally spoke up and said "Bethany is it?" I was so nervous and I never really talk much so it was hard to answer his question so I just faced him and said "y..y..yes" a smile graced his lips "I'm not trying to be a pervert by looking at you or anything but you are just so beautiful" he said. His words shocked me at the same time made me feel butterflies in my stomach. I didn't know what to say so I said the first thing that came to mind " t..t..thank you" looking down to my finger to avoid eye contact. He let out a little chuckle that sounded so good to my ears. "your a very shy girl aren't you?" he asked. I didn't know what to say so I just nodded my head. he laughed and said some thing that I know was not meant for me hear "so cute" he waked over to his desk with a smile, I could not help the smile that appeared. I lowered my head and walked to the door, having my hand on the nob and was about to turn it to leave when I heard Mr. Collins say "see you tomorrow Ms. Saliva" I smiled a little and said "you too" am not sure if he heard me but I wasted not time finding out I left for my other classes The day dragged on but I finally got the chance to go home. the whole time walking home Mr. Collins was on my mind. I don't know why because I have never had feeling for someone nor had someone on my mind this much but in my heart I hoped it was a good thing and not bad "well ill find out soon enough" I said to myself.....hopeful