The Secret She Never Knew

Lilly's POV

I set here on the couch waiting for Ron to get back form talking to the Dr about my little Sara.  I hear something outside I run to the door waiting for Ron to open it.  I cannot make out what he is saying but if I had to guess he was giving instructions to Hank about something to do with the pack I am sure.  Then he opens the door and I jump into his arms ask 20 questions. What is wrong with my baby? Can the Dr fix her?  Why did it take so long to get answers?  What is she going to do to help her?  Can I go see my baby I miss her? 

He tells me, “calm down take a breath Lilly I will tell you everything.  Let’s move to the couch you need to set down for this.”

I say “oh no is it that bad is my baby dying I am losing my only child how am I going to get through this?  What am I going to do without her by my side every day?”

Ron’s shushes me saying, “our daughter is not dying, but I have good news and bad news which to you want first.”

 He kneels in front of her holding my hands in his rubbing small circles on the backs of my hands.  I know what he is about to tell me is going to be very upsetting.  So, I decide to prepare for the worst knowing that after today I may never see my little girl awake again.  I saw her 3 days ago before my wolf decided to go crazy.  I did not want to go see her for fear my wolf would cause her more damage.  Were the last thoughts I had of my daughter going to be seeing her that bed not even as a human but only her little scared wolf.  Please moon goddess please help my baby bring her home I will give anything to have her home and health by my side again.  Before I could think anymore, I hear Ron say, “honey, honey look at me do not jump to conclusions hear me out everything will be ok just listen.”

I take a deep breath and look at him and say, “ok, give me the bad news first make it quick.”

He starts tell me, “that our daughter as stage 3 stomach cancer and without treatment she will die within a couple of months.  But not to overreact that the Dr had a treatment plan that would involve our Sara getting radiation and chemotherapy that will last 8 to 12 weeks.  The treatment will be very painful, so the Dr plans to keep her sedated for a few weeks while the worst part of the medicine takes it effect.

I instantly wanted to know why she thought that it was cancer.  Why it took so long to get this information?  Then I said maybe we need a second opinion maybe we should call that Dr that my bother has at his pack.  I cannot lose my little girl.  We need to keep her alive.”

Ron reassures me, “honey this is the second opinion we asked for.  We decided that this was the Dr we wanted to use I showed you all the information for both Dr's."  We together decided this was what we wanted, but you need to know that I went ahead and told her to start the treatment.  I thought this would be the best way to get our Sara back quickly, I will keep a close eye on everything to make sure our little one lives.  Here are all the tests that the Dr has done on Sara do you want me to explain anything else to you.”

I say, “I am upset that we did not even talk about this before you decided to have this done to my daughter.  I just want my baby to be ok.  My wolf is running laps in my head screaming to see this Dr so, I tell Ron maybe I would feel better if I just went to talk to the Dr to hear it from her maybe that will ease my wolf.”

Ron jumps up replying, “NO, No, no she needs to focus on Sara right now maybe later.  Right now, Sara is all she needs to worry about.”

 Ron says he wants to go to bed so I follow him upstairs.  I go to get dressed for bed, but I just cannot get comfortable something feels off as I lay next to my husband until he is good and asleep.  I look at the clock and see that it is 5:30 am where my brother is at, so get up grab my housecoat.  I sneak downstairs and decide to go out to the garden as not to wake up Ron.  Once outside I call my brother, I hear is gruff voice on the other end of the phone saying, “who the hell is this and why  in the f**k are you are calling me at this hour.”

 I reply, “bother it is me can I talk to you for a moment I need advice on somethings with my wolf and my daughter she is dying.”    

He says, “WHAT?” 

Then I hear get off me you dog I want everyone out leave or else he roars.

“Why is my niece dying,” he yells.  “What is wrong with your wolf, what else is going on you have not told me?”

I tell him all about Sara and her cancer and this doctor that is helping with her that I do not trust.  I then tell him, “my wolf is dying to get out and go after someone, but I do not know who or why.  I am scared that my wolf wants to kill someone and that is something that I have never done.  I also wish to never do, you and father kept me from all of that and

I do not want to start.”

He tells me, “I want all the information you have on Sara sent to my pack doctor.  I will come see what is bothering you wolf we have the same wolves maybe I can detect what the problem is and kill it, so you do not have to.  I will save you once again sister like I always must.  If when I get to you and find that your stupid husband is the cause of all this, I will kill him without any hesitation.  I let you spare him once before but never again sister.  You know that I have never liked him nor will I.  I tolerate him for you and Sara.  It will take me about two months to finish here before I can get to you.  Stay alert and keep me informed daily, if I do not hear from you then I will call you do you understand sister. 

I say,  "yes brother I just cannot lose my baby girl help me keep her safe."  Then I hear the door open telling Laim I have to go, I hung up the phone just in time to hear Ron.