Crossroad Mates

Buried Memories & Burning Desires

Smell,

Touch, sound and taste, sigh, this is my favorite part about being a wolf. Everything is heightened, everything is so much more clear, not muddled and complicated nor over exaggerated, it’s just pure instinct.  The difference between Wild Rage of a beast and the cunning and calculated thoughts of human.  when I’m in my wolf form running and jumping and weaving through the trees, sniffing the air, and feeling the wind whipped through my fur, I can’t help but feel free but I know it’s a fleeting feeling I know sooner or later I’ll stop and start to panic thinking I’m back there again, chained, starved and tormented. Anger rose in me as I pumped my legs harder, that sick bastard, touching my hair, saying how perfect of a mate I was for him, that when I was old enough I would mate him and bear his pups. I snarled in anger, i can still feel his hands forcing me to look at him, whispering in my ear "Theres no reason to be so agitated, or unruly. If you keep this up i will just have to break your spirt and rebuild you from scratch."  

my eyes burned so badly i couldn't see anymore i slowed to a stop and just stood there for a minute, before i started to cry. my wolf always tried to comfort me, she always felt guilty for not being there sooner even though she wasn't fully emerged yet. i have never held it against her and she knows it but the scars from what that sick man did are still ingrained in my head. Maybe that’s what he wanted as for me to never forget what happened to know he would always hold a piece of me that would always be a frightened child afraid of what he could do. Well it worked I remember may things, being chained to the wall while he would slap me for not eating or not saying I loved him or calling him my mate. 

The days he would spray me with a water bottle with silver in it to beat me into submission, or whip me with leather leaving red welts all over my legs and arms from shielding myself. I would cry myself to sleep some nights wishing I could die quickly instead of enduring the physical and mental abuse. 

Then that night, he came in the cell drunk which he had never done before he unchained me and grabbed my hair a dragged me out of the cell and the prison I was kept in to the main area then up some stairs as I fought him I frantically looked around for way to escape. I saw a kitchen with a window that was open, I knew that would be my escape point, I was dragged further away trying to pry his hands from my hair but he was stronger than me.  I was dragged into a room that reeked of him I assume it was his room, then panic shot through me, “let me go! Let me go!” I screamed, he just grabbed my hair harder forcing my face up to his, “ I’ll let go when I feel like it not when you say,” he hissed “ I’m tried and want company tonight and who best to serve me than my future mate?” He grinned down at me licking his lips, “ better to teach you early how I like things and who knows many this is how I’ll break and tame you. Every. Single. Night.” I was terrified he grabbed and threw me on the bed face down as I screamed and thrashed, he was behind me taking his clothes off, when something my dad said came to me, “if ever a man ever has you pinned has you kick him in the balls and grab something hard and heavy and bring it down on his head until he stops moving, you won’t kill a wolf like that but you can knock Them out long enough to get away and run hard and fast and don’t stop not matter what, DO. NOT. STOP. MAVIS!” In that moment I reared up and kick him so hard he silently screamed I grabbed this weird crystal thing from off the side table and hit him with it again and again and again there was so much blood after he stopped moving I struggled and got up and ran back down the stairs as quick and quiet as I could to the kitchen but the window was closed and locked now. 

I frantically looked around when I was a small bathroom with a busted window and vomit on the floor, no doubt from one one the pack member get drunk and angry. I quickly grabbed a towel and put it in my window ledge and climbed out, I managed to cut myself pretty good still threw the towel but got outside and once I wax outside I ran into the woods running farther faster than ever before, I was so. Scared I’d be caught I did stoped even while my muscles screamed, I ran almost all night before I found a deserted town I wondered through hoping to find someone to help me, I was so skinny and cold when I felt someone grab me I tried to fight but by that point I was so exhausted I couldn’t, I then heard them say, “Tell the Alpha we have her.” I started to cry I thought I was caught and being taken back when he looked at me and s  are said, “it’s ok, shhh, we have been looking for you Mavis, your going home, your dad is coming right now.” I cried even harder I was being rescued, I cried to hard dark spots took over my vision and I passed out.”  I was panting gasping for air, Recalling those events brought me into a panic attack, I wasn’t getting enough air felt myself getting dizzy when I felt warm hands lift me up. 

I sniffed the air sighing in content realizing it was my mate, he came to find me even after my outburst. I mentally cursed my self for being so harsh, “ what are you doing here?” I breathed. “ I came to find you beautiful, glad I did to seems your having a bad time.” He spoke so softly and when he smiled at me my stomach fluttered so much I thought I’d die of embarrassment. “ I was just fine I did need your help.” He chuckled and oh moon goddess that sound that graced my ears was bliss, his laugh was like a lullaby that made me melt into a puddle of goo. “ oh really now, is that why your face is red?” I stiffened, oh moon goddess was I blushing right now?!?!  “ I am not your eyes are just imagining it!” He laughed, “ well, either way it think it’s cute.” He smiled down at me in his arms, he walked to a bench and set me on it, “ I actually came here to say I’m sorry,” he scratches his neck sheepishly, “ I should have considered maybe you wouldn’t be happy about finding out we’re mates. I was just thinking about what I wanted and for that I’m so sorry, if you will allow me though I’d like to start over, if that’s ok?”  I BBC was speechless all I could do was nod, “ Thank you, Mavis, I promise not to disappoint you.” He kissed my hand and that was it I was officially blushing like cherry tomato. 

“So, Alpha cre..” He shakes his head, “ my name is Atlas, you don't have to be formal with me.” he smiled at me, “ Ok Atlas.” I smiled back at him and I just blankly stared at me. “ um, you ok over there you seem a bit distracted something on my face or?” he blinked and shook his head quickly, “ no no nothing is wrong I just...i just liked the sound of your voice saying my name is all.” This time he was flushed and it was refreshing to know I had some of the same effect he had in me.  “Im glad you like it so much Atlas cause you will hear me say it a lot more I'm sure. Haha.” we sat quietly for a bit just listening to the night breeze blow through the trees, while the summer crickets chirped. 

 “ so, where are you from Atlas? I assume not the US based off your accent.” my heart panged with sadness knowing if I were to choose him, I would have to leave my home and go to his pack which Atlas being alpha and me a potential luna we would rarely get to travel. He looked out and sighed, “ well your correct I'm not from the US, as you call it, I'm from England.”  He looked to me seeing my face fall a bit, knowing I was sad to leave my home if I choose him. He reached out and brushed some of my loose hair behind my ear, making me look at him. “Mavis..” he breathed, my throat tightened at him saying my name and being so close, I felt like time stopped in the moment and all that was there was the night, the crickets and us. “Mavis, I know what your thinking and it is true we would be in England with the pack but I won't restrict you from visiting whenever you want. I never want to be the reason you can't see your family.” he stroked my cheek softly. I smiled happy to hear him say that, I was worried honestly when I found my true mate I would be held hostage again not able to see the people I love the most. “Thank you Atlas that means the world to me.”

 I moved closer to Atlas and rested my head on his shoulder. He tensed under my touch but did not make a move, “are you alright?” I asked, he snaked his hand around my wait holding me closer, he gruddly said, ” yea, perfectly fine.” I could tell he was controlling his wolf but as I pulled away he tightened his hold and pulled me even closer to him, I was about to protest when my shirt came up and his hand touched my skin. I sucked in a ragged breath as I tried to keep my self together. It was like someone touched a tingling fire on my skin making me hot and driving my senses into over drive. I could feel his rough fingers on my skin making me want more of his hands touching me feel alive with a need and desire, I haven't felt for any man. I began to think of what his hands would feel like on my stomach tracing patterns or how it would feel for him to go under my shirt further and touch my now sensitive breasts. I shiver at the thought, and adjust my legs a bit, as I uncross my legs I hear a low grumble, I look up at Atlas as his black eyes bore into my own. “ if you keep that up, I Dont think I'll be able to control myself, ” he learned down to my ear and whispered “ because you are starting to smell good enough to eat.” I shuddered at the thought of him touching me like that, he leaned closer and closed him lips around the top of my ear, I moaned out loud at the contact as his grip tightened further pulling me impossibility closer.  He pulled his face away from my ear turning my face to him, we were centimeters apart lips barely touching, “ You are the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on.” I blushed, “ well, your not to bad your self.” as we were moving ever closer, our lips ready to touch...”MAVIS!! Where the hell are you!?” my brother screamed out and just like that the beautiful spell we were under was broke leaving us in a panting sweaty mess.