Shot in the Dark

“What?!”  “The f**k you mean by ‘attracted to guys?!’” Dad was yelling at me, I could tell he was furious about my interest in a man, he was very against l***q people; I never intended to tell him anything about my interest in guys, but he was very sneaky. He eavesdropped on me and my sister about my sudden attraction towards men and how I couldn’t control it, I begged her to not tell anyone but before she could say anything, my father barged in and dragged me out of the living room and into my room. “I-I can’t control it! I-I-it’s how I-i-I feel.” I stuttered in fear. He was very aggressive when he was angry. Sometimes I wish I had a better father than him. “‘Can’t control it?’ You piece of s**t! How f*****g dare you go against me and your mother’s beliefs?!” He held out his fist. “We raised you to be a gentleman! Not a sicko gay man who likes to w***e around guys!” Then he raises his fist and punched me in the face. I fell on the floor and held my tears. “I don’t w***e on anyone!” I tried to speak up, but my father grabbed me on the arm and pulled me up. “Bullshit! You’re a f*****g disgrace of this family! You need to be taught a lesson” Then he throws me back on the floor and started beating me up, I tried to reason with him but he just wouldn’t do it, he just keeps on hitting me and telling me I need to “man the f**k up and be a better man” and even saying “I’ll punch the gay out of you” until he stopped and left me there to fend for myself with nothing but darkness heaving over me. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t into men, I wish I was straight so I can make my family proud sigh I’ll never be the perfect child; I wish I could escape in the dark and never look back, but this was the beginning of my story.