vampire princess

raven

it has been 18 months since i left him, im still hurt but i have accomplished so much, my dad helped me with my powers, his mate, darla helped me with support with the baby and ive had maya help me through giving birth.

i gave birth to a healthy baby girl, i named her after my mum rose, dad fell in love with his grandaughter instantly, we spent months getting into a routine, i often feel damien he gets drunk at night but recently not felt dizzy from his drinking, probably stopped, i miss him so much, he probably doesnt miss us.

i smile down at my daughter when i hear her cooing.

"good morning my love, lets get you fed" i sat on the sofa and starting feeding her when dad sat next to me.

"how are you" my dad asked.

i sighed "i miss him loads dad, but i have our 1 year and 4 month old look after, he hurt me so deeply dad, how am i supposed to forgive him with another woman" i wiped a tear off my cheek and put rose

down to play with her toys.

"look, your mum forgave me, i got so angry once i slept with someone else, i regret deeply, im sure damien does to, i know its hard move on but it gets easier, your mum made me work for her forgiveness, so you make him work for it, sleep in seperate room, dont talk to him unless needed, let him beg" my dad shrugged.

"i didnt know about you and mum" furrowing my brows in confusion.

"yes" he sighed "i was an i***t, arguing over her leaving seeing her parents, i got scared she was leaving for good, i slept with someone, she left me and when i finally got to her i saw her belly round with you, i was shocked and knew then i couldnt lose either of you" he smiled.

"rose deserves her dad, but im scared he will do it again" just then maya, sheila, lila and her mate and sam came in.

"honey, you are strong, if he does it again, f**k him, sorry but he does it again it proves what he truly is, look he hurts you again he wont just lose you, he loses his daughter, he hurts you we will have your back, even sam" maya said with a smirk.

"damn right, king or not, you have become like a sister to me and best friend, im going have yours and my little nieces back"

"we all will sweet girl" darla said walking in, with a cup of blood, one for dad, one for me, sam found it weird at first but got used to it quite quick.

"thankyou" i take a deep breath thinking through all of my options.

"i want to go back, but i am not ready to see damien, i need time" my dad nodded in approval and sam went to ring the former king.

after what felt like hours i was packing all my daughters things, thinking back to how i was asking for damien during childbirth, how hard it was and remembering what he did, i wiped a tear i didnt know was rolling down my cheek and picked up my daughter, her birthday is in 8 months.

i cant stop shaking, i cant believe i am going back, im nervous, what if he despises me, my thoughts get interrupted by maya picking up my daughter.

"you okay hun" she asked concern flicking through her eyes.

"yeah, im just,....what if he despises me for what i did"

"he wont, he knows he royally f****d up" she said with a smirk.

"did you just use a pun" i laugh.

"yes, i thought it was such a good punchline"

"you should get sent to the punternary" i laughed and we grabbed our bags and my daughter and walked through the kings portal and as i stepped through i was faced with the king and queen.

"hello little one, im grandma" clara said smiling and grabbed rose.

"shes beautiful raven" the king said a tear rolls down his cheek as he babbles with the little one before clearing his throat.

"my son, is away for a few days, i sent him on a mission, i thought you need a few days, he has done some stuff while hoping you come back"

i gulped and followed them to damiens room and into the closet and what i saw made tears stream down my face, her cot purple bedding with golden stitching, lovely crystal white cot, 2 rocking chairs, a little chair by cot, a small chest for her toys, shelves filled to the brim with all different story books.

"he did this" i asked no one paticular.

"all on his own" the king smiled, pride dripping from his tone.

"wow" i heard my dad.

i sighed "i wasnt going stay in his room till i was fully ready forgive him" i shook my head and sat on the rocking chair.

"there is another room attatched that he has decorated and matched this nursery with the colors, i think he had a feeling you wouldnt want stay with him"

i nodded and went into the room and got settled as the king and queen took my dad and daughter outside.

maya burst through the door a big smile on her face, i knew already.

"dylans your mate" i smiled she grinned and squealed.

we spent hours talking when the door was burst open and dylan came in.

few minutes as they stared at each other i broke the attention excusing myself, i joined rose outside playing with her dolls and toys when i heard a commotion inside.

"f**k" the king muttered.

"wait here" he said excusing himself.

"hes back must of finished early, im so sorry love" clara apologised and i calmed my erratic heart and my daughter tapped my face and snuggled into me.

i heard the door slide open and my breath caught at the scent.

my daughter when back to playing when i faced damien.

"lo..."

i shook my head.

"im not ready, look you hurt me, i only came back so my daughter can know her father, im not ready forgive you, all i can picture i..."

"mama, me go grandma, grandpa" i smiled.

"yes you can sweetie" she gave me a hug and kiss and went off with her grandparents.

"all i can picture is you with that ome.."

"lizzie"

"what"

"her name, not that it matters but shes gone, im so sorry, i seem to do nothing but hurt you, ill reject you then you can have a better chance, someone more deserving."

"i damien..."

i kissed him interrupting him, i forgot how sweet he tasted and i pulled away.

"dont, i dont want rejection, i need you, i will forgive you because ive held a grudge against you to long, i loved the nursery by the way" his head shot up eyes wide, suprised i saw it.