Stuck in Between

Six

He moved closer to me, what is wrong, he asked again holding my hands. I moved my face away to avoid eyes contact with him. Ahmad, I know you might think I wanted to take advantage of you, but now, it's just that I also can't hold back myself anymore. I love you, Ahmad, he said holding my hands. Hmmm, I love you too sir, I do. But for this, can we take it slow, I don't think I am ready, I said. It's okay Ahmad, I understand, I will give you enough time to get ready, he said. Will you be okay? I asked looking at his face. Of course, I would be, your safety is my priority, take your time Ahmad and let me know when you are ready he said. Now come here boy, he said, dragging me to his chest. He hugged me for a while. It felt safe and comfortable being in his broad chest wrapped by his arms. I leaned comfortably and closed my eyes. I will love you with all my heart Ahmad, I will make sure you don't regret this decision, he whispered into my ears. I smiled hearing what he is whispering, I felt happy being in a relationship. Even though it's my first time, but I am already enjoying it.

One evening, Kabir was cooking in the kitchen when I entered, I couldn't detect the aroma of what he was cooking so I got curious and asked, what are you cooking? Sir, it has a weird aroma. He kept quiet without answering. I waited for a while but he isn't responding

What have I done this time, I asked. I won't answer you if you continue calling me sir. He said still concentrating on his cooking. I am not your teacher anymore, call me with some sweet names Ahmad, he said as he packed the coolers he put the food from the kitchen to the sitting room. I am sorry dear, it won't happen again, I said as I followed him immediately. Okay! So I saw this recipe online and I decided to try it, he said opening the cooler. What is this, I asked peeping in. Do you want to try, he asked. Yes, sure, I replied. He hurriedly picked a spoon and take a small amount of the dish, he put it gently in my mouth. It was freaking hot, I threw it out immediately, oooooh, I kept my mouth open trying to get some air. Kabir was worried, he immediately blows air into my mouth with his mouth and slowly placed a kiss on my lips. It felt really good. I withdrew myself from the kiss after a while. Wow, Kabir, as if it's not enough that you cooked your weird food with no taste, now you want to burn your mouth too, I said. As if you didn't like the kiss, he replied. That's not part of it, I said. Then what, don't you like it, he asked. I..I, I started murmuring. Let's go eat dinner out since this didn't work, he said. Okay dear, I replied. Wait Ahmad, how about you stop calling me dear, it's weird. Ohh, again? I asked. What should I call you then, I asked. What about you call me husband, he said in my ears. Are you this cheesy, I asked hitting his laps. Well, just wanna treat my wifey right, he said laughing. You are sure gonna make me run, I said. You can't run away from me baby, he replied. Can we go and eat, I said standing up. No, let me hug you like this throughout the night, I will be full, he said. That's how we slept in each other's arms. The night was warm and peaceful, I enjoyed it.

The next day, Kabir didn't wake up early for school, as usual, we were both late as we were fast asleep hugging each other, I woke up to him looking at me. I slowly opened my eyes, Good morning dear, I greeted. He placed a kiss on my cheeks, I prefer this greeting, he said smiling. Won't you go to school, I asked. No, we are going out, he replied. Going out to where, it's still early, I asked? Says who, this is noon. I wonder what you took last night that made you sleep this long, he said. What, and why didn't you wake me, I said sitting up quickly. I enjoyed looking at your sweet face, he said. let's eat out and celebrate our first day anniversary, he said. Lol, I laughed, who celebrated the first day anniversary, I asked, still laughing. I do, he said, jumping off the bed. Where are you going again, I asked. Just sit there, I have something for you, he said opening the wardrobe. He brought out a pair of shirts. They have stripes of different colors, just like a rainbow, customized with our names. Here, wear this, he said handing me the shirt. Kabir has a great sense of fashion, he wears good outfits and looks good in them. When did you do this, I asked, looking at the shirt. Since the first day I started loving you, I ordered it online for us and promised to use it on our first date, he said. Don't you think it's too obvious to wear this together, the society might be looking at us somehow, I said with a concerned tone. Hmmm, Kabir sighed, he walked to the edge of the bed and sit down, holding my hands, he said, Ahmad, firstly, I want you to remove the society out of our lives if you truly want us to be happy, secondly, if you believe in us, then u should put your effort in building us rather than thinking about the society. Ahmad, this is about us and our happiness, you don't have to feel bad just because someone is not happy with you for making a decision that benefits your life, he added. I sighed and looked at him. Kabir, it's not as if I don't want us to be happy, but all this is new to me, I don't know how to act, I said. You have got me now Ahmad, let me hold your hands and walk through this together, he said. Now get ready, let's give them a hell of a show, he added. We got ready and head out in his car. We went to a restaurant, it was a nice place, I have never been to somewhere like this. For no reason, I feel comfortable. Maybe it's because of what Kabir said, but it seems everyone is too busy to notice us. I feel even more secure seeing the kind of people roaming in the restaurant. Everyone minding their business. There was even another gay couple at the corner of the restaurant. I was still looking around when I heard Kabir talking. Try this dish, it's nice, he said, placing a little of the food on my plate. I tasted it and it was great. Wow, this tastes good, I said. See, I told you no one will care about what you do. Society itself is getting tired of all these Nose Poking activities. Ahmad, all you have to do in this life is become successful, be financially free, and no one will dare question your decision, he said. I nodded my head. I know he is telling the truth and that is why I'm trying too hard to have a better future for myself. We finished eating and headed home. I wasn't tired I am not even sleepy. I just want to continue talking to him, I felt happy talking to him. We laid on the bed, I leaned on his chest playing with his broad hairy chest. Hey, since when did you start liking me, I asked. Let's say since day 1, he replied. But you were still together with Jeffrey then. Yes, but I admired you since then, and thanks to your constant meetings, I fall more for you, he said. Wow, what a coincidence, I said. Wait, did you also start liking me since then, he asked. Who, no, I didn't, I said stammering. Are you trying to pretend, I know you do boy, he said. I laughed and continue playing on his chest. What about Jeffery, he didn't show up anymore, I asked. Ohhhh Ahmad, stop spoiling the mood by mentioning him, he said. I think he is back in Lagos, he added. Oh, okay, I said. You know, if you continue playing with that spot, I Will get aroused, he said peeping into my face. I quickly removed my hands and turn the other side, laying in between his lips. What is that poking my back, I said, trying to touch it. Is that your phone, I asked. Oh, s**t, he shouted as he quickly jump and ran to the bathroom. What happened, I followed him. He has an erection. Kabir, do you think am torturing you, I asked. No Ahmad, I am fine, he said. I know he isn't fine and I wish I could help him, but I am not ready for that. I moved closer to him and place a kiss on his lips. I am sorry Kabir, can I have more time, I asked. Of Course Ahmad, you can take as much time as you want. I am willing to wait for you, he said as he lift me to the bed. That was enough for me. I don't want you to think am greedy Ahmad, he said, now let's go to bed, he added. I closed my eyes as he wrapped me around his chest...

While we were enjoying our love life, things have not been easy for Jeffrey. The breakup has broken him and he was out of his senses. He has been drinking and clubbing.

Even though he has been a jerk as Kabir said, he loved him. It wasn't easy for him to see his love life which he built for years slip away in a blink of an eye. A friend was telling Kabir that Jeffery's situation is really bad, his family has recently taken him to a Rehabilitation center because of his drinking. The last time we heard from him was when he sent a message to Kabir telling him that he will surely come back and take what is rightfully his. I was afraid to see the Message but Kabir assured me that it would be fine.

It's been almost 3months since I started dating Kabir. I want to give him a surprise 3months anniversary gift which will be coming in a week. I think I am now ready to get down with Kabir. I began searching online for how to get myself prepared for it. I got some necessary information and I began practicing for the day. Kabir was being suspicious but I always pretended nothing was going on. Even though he insists on taking a bath together, I will bring up excuses so I can take time to do my practice.

I was sitting on the sofa going through the internet on the day of the anniversary waiting for Kabir to return. I have already arranged the bedroom in white and red color with lots of flowers I got from a nearby store. Where is this guy, I asked myself as I checked the time, it's 8:20 pm already. He doesn't go out like this, we always go out together, I started worrying. I called him and he told me he was on his way home. My phone beeped, I checked and it's an email from my Jamb portal. I opened it, and behold, it's an admission, I have been admitted into the Federal University of Lagos. Wow, I shouted, this is great news. I hurriedly went inside the room. I wanted to surprise Kabir so I left the door open from inside. I have no fear since it's confirmed to us that Jeffery is in the rehabilitation center. I went and took a shower, came back to the bedroom, and turned off the lights. The room was a bit dark. I heard footsteps as I lay on the bed, it must be Kabir, I saw his shadow by the door, it seemed like he was holding a bottle. I was surprised. I quickly stood up to turn on the light, but before I could do that, he had already pushed me back to the bed and climbed on me. He used force to cover my mouth. I was struggling to move but he overpowered me.

I tried all I could to break free from his forceful grab but I couldn't. He used a handkerchief and tied my face, I couldn't even talk or see. He forcefully tore my clothes, I was crying seriously. Why Kabir, that was the only thing I was able to say. He didn't even listen to my cries. He forcefully had his way into me. After what seemed like forever, he jumped off from me and left the room. I have suffocated already so I passed out immediately...