It is what it is (A Naked Dust)

#CHANGE What is death? and why it happens? This is something I always think about and maybe you must have thought too... Yes? Alright everybody does at some point of their life! The thoughts I had were just normal as in just like an episode of numerous "why it happens" and an appearance of someone popping out of nowhere answering with their point of view. And did I accepted their answer and followed the same thinking? or did I just randomly listened to it? Perhaps I don't know maybe probably both... But I did heard them all... And noticed the absolute difference in their thinking pattern. Instead of believing what they said I stood there and simply observed them. The difference was altered in their situation. Their experience. The experience and what they went through was what the difference that caught up with their reasoning of the definition of death. You see that's why we hear "we are similar but different." Some said after death you end up either in heaven or hell. And quite some of them believed absolutely into what they were taught as a child. Not an individual thought. Just another human following the crowd. The another category type had quite a lot of atheistic vibes. What you actually need is a mind of your own! and what matters is how you perceive what death actually is? Is it just exactly how them people say you just die and your soul goes to heaven or hell or is it something else? Good people end up in heaven and bad people are destined to rot in hell is not the truth... The truth is heaven and hell is just another point of view of someone who decides what is actually good and bad according to their morales. Nobody has a birthright to anything. No one in this world owns anything. Its like you are in a playground. The smartest and powerful one ends up capturing and names their own and the rest adjust with what is left behind. You owned it. Simple! You captured it and you yourself will have to leave it behind one day just like the rest. Skinned inch by inch your flesh ends up into ashes as raw as birth. The very first thing I realized about whatever that happens isn't the actual culprit of your change. But the people in it. The people involved in it is the culprit of your change... The map to your route or your voyage to your reaction are them. The people involved in it is what makes the situation and alters you. They act up just like the chemicals and fastens like an enzyme, here the situations you encounter. "The epitome that brings change in us and the way we live, analyze or perceive things is the people in it." They are the colors that make up this entire piece of art. You name them situations as death, birth, responsibility, or you yourself. Your reaction right after what you go through, the reason behind this is how your thought process works and how you look into things in an unclad manner. You aren't afraid of change but you are afraid of coming out of your comfort zone and coming out of it is like being out there naked in the street not knowing where to go. So after all these things slowly getting piled up together you get an outcome which we call change. "Things change" or "people change" is what we say after what we go through and experience things we don't really want to. Death, Birth, Responsibility is what brings change. And change is what it is. The people in it. I know its confusing to understand but I figured, it is what it is. And if it took four years for me to understand this, I get it if you don't get what I'm saying. So lets get straight to the point though its tough to not be philosophical. But things do get invented that way. "We need them words too to make things happen." Okay so about me? I was a hyper active child who always had and did made a bad first impression. So I kinda maintained to be a "not really people's favorite kind of person" but hey! still, I did have an audience. My dad was one of them. A good man who never really appeared or behaved malicious and a person close to my heart as he enjoyed answering my questions. At least that's what I felt. He didn't ignored the fact to whatever I felt like confusing or constraining. He tried his best to cover up my questions like solving a puzzle. Now the seriousness about the question of death was when I encountered my first trauma, a trauma in the form of death. I couldn't handle it well as I was just fourteen, a hormonal teenager and was left alone with my grandparents and many more people since my parents left for my father's treatment as he was ill. Since then it was never a good day. Nothing much really mattered as you know in such kind of situations, either you end up staying alone "facing it" or you just end up alone "fading with it. " But you somehow try being alone. A sense of solitude is always there in your mind. Suddenly the "you" thing matters the most once you get into the world of confusion. Especially when you are unfamiliar with situations or people in it. You get overly conscious you are out there to protect yourself from any harm leading into you shutting off from the world itself. And the weird thing is you never seem to consider it. The happy go lucky mood or any kind of mood turns up to the matters what should I do? or what should I say? Will it be alright? will I be alright? or Is it just a phase that people face? You question things and you don't believe things. Cause you know somewhere deep down inside that things aren't normal, not anymore. There is a thing that's constantly happening. And subconsciously you are aware of it, the constant darts of replacement or new adjustments called "CHANGE." A slow sudden change, not even a woo hoo kinda one but the one where you don't feel the change but things did change a lot, like a lot in your lifestyle, the way you live, the way you think, the way you had a small little ray of hope as a child because its obvious there is change, and just like a liquid you are aware that you need to take a shape. That's what clearer and that's what scares you. The CHANGE. It is what scares you the most. Come on, I know its no fun to welcome a burden called RESPONSIBILITY that adults talk about particularly when its so not your will to accept it. But do you know why we end up with such things at some point of our life? Simple! that's how the system works. If your biological parents failed conceiving apparently there's no birth of a baby. There's no baby. There's no you!!! When there's no "you" in there don't even come up with your "my money" and "my existence". If there's no existence of you then there's not an existence of your "DUST". Dust? The one that you leave after you die. The ashes. And that's what makes change interesting. Death and Birth these both are like an end in a circular loop where we can't claim the start and the end. Its just out there somewhere, where life takes in a form and leaves into ashes. Not claim of an exact uniform straight line. Just a loop with a beginning and an end and you can't find it cause you are in it. Also its just a loop, a loop with no exact route. We don't see it coming, we can't see it and we can't claim it. "Only thing what we can do is MANIFEST it." We can't decide our BIRTH. And DEATH can't be controlled but manifested. It depends on what we decide. But don't we sometimes get stuck with a situation called "TAKE IT! it is what it is". Something that is expected from you once you are born some can't even wait for your adulthood cause the situations are in bundle. Someone have to carry it. That's what it is, that's what change is. We are interconnected to everything we are attracted or not attracted to. At some point you gotta face them and accept them cause a loop has a start and an end but the thing is its just a loop. You just can't find it. The Universe itself works that way no matter even if there is any kind of existence of terrestrial life or not. We are dependent and interconnected to whatever things we wish to not appear or change! I won't say don't worry about the change it doesn't matter. Cause obviously these aren't baby talks I'm talking about. You'll encounter even if you hide and escape from it. Face it but don't let it deceive you. The change changes you not your individualism. It still exists even if you die someday. The words of the dead still lives. Just like that live up to your wishes don't let a teaching or a religious fear let you stop for what you are searching. Remember the loop you are in it... The experience you encounter and how you face is it is what enlightens you!