My Erotic Writer (English)

"This is it," I said to myself as soon as I entered the room. "I hope those judges would pick me to portray as the main lead actor for the upcoming film Betrayed." Today is their fourth day searching for an actor who would fit for the role of a girl who were accused of betraying her boyfriend. I was here for the fourth consecutive days but it seems like today isn't my lucky day again. Like me there were so many actors who would like to try their luck. I am just starting my career as an actor and my portfolio is nothing compared to them. "Hey, come on!" I heard the staff shouted. "Number 101, you are next!" I feel so frustrated. My number is 150, so it means I have a very small chance to be called for this day for the audition. Tomorrow I have to be here again if I don't want my manager to get mad at me. Lunch came and I was losing hope for my number to be called. I was already starving, but I restrained myself from going to the nearby cafeteria. I shouldn't get out of the room for I was hoping some actors who are vying for the role would give up and that my number would be called in the next few minutes. That was my ultimate wish since day one. "Number 150, you are next!" again the staff shouted. It was already three o'clock in the afternoon. I literally jumped out of my seat as soon as I heard my number. At last I could show them my acting skills. I have been waiting for this moment to show them I am totally fit for the said role. "You know what to do, right?" the staff told me. "You already read the script." "Yes, sir!" I replied excitedly. He smiled at me. "Make me proud, dear. You have what it takes to be a star. Surely Ana sees something in you that's why she handles your career." I smiled cheekily upon hearing the name of Ana, my manager. I know that he is Ana's friend. I've met him before when Ana and I went to the bar last week. "There are five judges, dear," he continued. "Make sure to impress them so you would get the main lead." He tapped my shoulder. "Now go inside! They are waiting for you." "Thanks! I will." I was so nervous, my hands were trembling, but I manage to get inside the room where the judges are waiting for me. I stared at them one by one while I was introducing myself. "Okay, the floor is yours, Miss Jasmine," one of the judges said. "Show us what you got." As soon as my eyes landed on the last person among the judges I feel like my heart would get out of my ribs. Goodness! Never ever in my whole life would I ever see him again. His eyes were the first one that I recognized. Those piercing black orbs that staring at me with contempt makes me feel like I am a criminal waiting to be arrested. I don't know what to do; I tried to open my mouth but no words came out. Surely Ana would curse me if she is here seeing me like this. She already gave me ultimatum that she would give up on my career once I failed this audition. "Hey, Miss Jasmine! Are you deaf? Haven't you heard what the producer said, huh?" the last person among the judges said in an irritating tone. Judging from his looks I know he is mad at me. "You are wasting our precious time by just standing there. There are so many actors outside waiting to be called." "Chillax, Jake," the producer replied immediately. "Not in the mood again?" He smiled sarcastically. "Seems like you are a woman on her menopausal stage..." Several staffs around us instantly burst into laughter. Surely they didn't expect the producer would say those words. But on the other hand those words served as an ice breaker. It allowed me to have a chance to compose myself from a sudden turn of events. "Miss Jasmine, show us your acting skills," said the director of the film when the laughter around us stopped. From the corner of my eyes I saw Jake's annoyance towards me. I know he doesn't want me much less seeing me in an event like this. "Yes, sir," I replied in a monotonous tone. I am determined to get that role so I started the lines which is on the script that the staff gave me a while ago praying that Jake won't embarrass me in front of so many people. "You know how much I love you," I said full of feelings as I walked towards Jake. With trembling hand I did touch his left hand when I was in front of him. Tears run down my cheeks while I continue to act the lines on the script. I feel the pain of the main lead actor as I stared into his eyes. "Never in my whole life would I accept a huge amount of money in exchange for my love for you. Your mom tried to bribe me," I suddenly stopped just to wipe my tears as part of my acting. "But no... I couldn't do it, love. Yes, I did leave you, but that was for your own sake...for the sake of the people around us. In time you'll know the real reason why I left you." I put my hand on my chest. "I just want you to know that until now you are still the one I love. Please give me a chance to make it up to you." "Bravo!" I heard someone shouted followed by an applause. "Well done, Miss Jasmine! Well done!" I didn't mind those praises that I was receiving. My attention was on the man in front of me and that was Jake. I know he was shocked, I could see it in his face. "We will inform you of the result, Miss Jasmine," Jake said as soon as he pulled his hand out of my touch as if I have a contagious disease. "Have a good day ahead." He then glanced at the producer beside him. "Can we proceed to the next actor?" "Sure, Jake! As you wish!" The producer glanced at me. "Nice acting, Miss Jasmine. If I were to decide, this d*mn audition should be stopped. You've got what it takes to be the main lead actor." "Really? Oh, thank you." I was overly joyed by his remarks but Jake has a way to put an end to my high hopes. "We are five judges here to decide, Brent," Jake said to the producer. "We have to cast our votes on who's fit for the main role. I am sure there are so many actors who are way better than Miss Jasmine, right?"