Loved and Hated by You

Nightmare that haunted me for years

Chapter 4

Once I was back in my room, I tried to unpack and settle my things in the wardrobe, after a few hours later everything was settled and I was really tired. As I haven't slept for the last 24 hours I felt very tired and sleepy, so I lied down on my bed.

I was jolt awake in the middle of the night, I don't know how much time was passed because I was so tired that once my head touched the bed, I fell asleep but this was not the reason for my sudden reaction, but due to the hands-on my thigh which was going towards my inner thigh. Suddenly I was fully awake and I tried to pull back but Richard held in place.

"Shhh doesn't be afraid sweetheart, it's me," he said and went back to what he was doing.

" Richard let me go, I don't want to" I tried to wiggle out of his arms. All of sudden his face was right in front of me and oh god he did not look pleased and he reeked of alcohol.

"Why can't I touch you," he asked while grinding his teeth.

"Because....because" I don't know what to say as I was scared of him right now and what could I say to him, he was my husband and he had all the rights on my body, how could I deny him.

" Because WHAT? come on tell me because what? Why can't I touch my bloody damn wife." he asked angrily and I started to move backward with the help of my hands. Once he saw I was trying to escape, he got really mad and his eyes narrowed on me. I stopped because myself-preserve told me to stay put or else I will not like what will come next.

"Trying to run away from your husband," he asked.

" No, I was not" I retorted even though I was.

" Then care to explain what exactly you were doing" he asked calmly like he was trying to pry something out of me but I had no idea what.

Suddenly he pushed me down and kissed me forcefully, he bit my lips to get access inside my mouth, he started to dominate my mouth his tongue was everywhere, he was licking and sucking inside of my mouth like a hungry animal, starving for ages.

Once he was out of air he left my mouth and started trailing down my neck, I was Breathless, I had no idea what got into him and why he was behaving like an animal with me, Even though he knew I never had a man in my life before and I was way to inexperience in it.

His hand went behind my back for the zipper of my dress and slowly he pulled it down. I was nervous I was on the verge of tears, he was not gentle he was taking me without my consent and I was hell scared for what was to come, I tried to hold onto my dress but he pulled it down with force and came back on me, started to punish me for holding back my dress and hiding from him. he started to suck my collarbone and he bit me bit me, I cried out in pain.

" Richard you are hurting me, Please I don't want it like this" I cried out while trying to control my breath.

" No baby, you hurt me with your actions first, you should have been f*****g ready for this but no you were pushing me away trying to keep me away from what is rightfully mine" he said in a very dangerously low tone. A shiver ran down my spine.

" Now time to pay the price, don't worry I will try to be gentle after all it's your first time. It is right?" he asked and I knew he was doubting me he thought I was not a virgin and I was deceiving him.

"NO NO ....you are wrong Richard, i... I never lied to you?" I tried to explain but he was not listening to me anymore he wanted to see for himself if I lied to him or not. Did I betrayed him, fooled him into thinking that I was a virgin.

"Shh my love, if you don't shut up right now, I don't know what I will do with you?" he said to me while looming over me.

" I told you I don't like to share my things with others and you are my women now, you must serve me and bear my children," he said and started assaulting my mouth again this time more forcefully he bit me so badly that blood came out of my lips and he started licking and sucking my lips and tongue, he was devouring my mouth and I tried to surpass the pain and numbness I was feeling because of his continuous assault on my mouth.

He started kissing my neck and licked my collarbone and started sucking and biting occasionally his one hand was on my breast pressing and pinching my n*****s so hard that, it brought fresh tears to my eyes.

" Ahhhh" I cried out when he pinched my n****e too hard.

" shhh, baby you don't want the whole house to know, that we are f*****g each other right now, do you?" he asked while laughing.

"Richard it hurts please ....it hurts" I started to beg him and I had no idea how many times I begged him to spare me of this brutal assault.

"Oh it won't in few mins when I get inside you and you will start to enjoy and shout my name in pleasure" he said in a hoarse tone, thick with lust.

" I love your curvy body, I want to slowly enjoy every inch of you, want to f*****g mark every nook and cranny of your body," he said seductively. Soon he was back on me he pressed my body under his again and took off my bra swiftly.

" You are so beautiful, they are just the right size for me, f**k I want to get inside of you right now and f**k you till you can't walk straight," he said in a hoarse tone, thick with desire.

He started sucking my left breast and pressed the other one with his other hand. I could not contain my voice and started making sounds, I was feeling weird and to control my voice I bit my lips and held onto the bedsheet for my dear life, all the time praying to god that this torture will end soon.

He was biting my n****e, So hard that they were red now due to his continuous onslaughter. his one hand went to my panties and he started to rub my p***y, he was breathing heavily. he cupped my p***y all of sudden.

"Mine" he said I don't know what possessed him because he became insane. He inserted his two fingers into my mouth all of sudden.

"Suck" he commanded and I did as I was told because I did not want him to hurt me more than he already did, by defying him.

" Good girl" he said and kissed me on my breast and squeezed the other one. He started to kiss my stomach and started to trail south towards my p***y and with his other hand he pulled my panty down my leg leaving my p***y, exposed for his eyes, his eyes brightened when he looked at me.

He kissed my folds and started sucking my button and took his hand out of my mouth and without any warning he inserted his two fingers inside. "Ahhhh" I cried out in pain.

"Hurrrt....it Hurts" I tried to say in between my breath it was really painful, I never experienced this kind of pain, I know some of my friends fingered themselves for pleasure but I never felt the need so I never touched myself down there.

"Relax your muscles you are too tight, your p***y is not even able to handle my two fingers, how will you handle my monster," he said while continuously thrusting his finger in and out of me.

" I am getting you ready for my c**k, try to relax a little bit" as I tried to adjust, he inserted one more finger inside of me and I started to feel light-headed due to all the pain he was inflicting upon me.

Not only he was violating my p***y he was assaulting my breast as well, he was scraping my breast with his teeth. I was lost in all this pain, I never imagined my first time was going to be like this, So painful that I wanted to die at that movement. There was no love in his movements only lust and hunger for my body, he wanted to fulfill his desires not caring for my wellbeing.

"Now I am gonna put my c**k inside of you and make you mine" he smiled at me with those lustful eyes, he was not looking at me he was looking at the meat he wanted to devour and just like that he opened my leg, positioned himself between my legs.

"Richard I am scared" I started to cry badly because I was really scared and in pain, had no one to lean on, so I started to beg the one who was assaulting me. In the hope that he might listen and will stop torturing my body. Oh god, how wrong I was and I realized it too late becasue his eyes had turned cold again and he was looking at me in a way, saying that I will kill you if you said one more word.

"I am your rightful husband you are denying me the pleasure, I have been waiting for months," he said getting angry again. He pressed my legs apart and dig his nails in my thigh in a warning. He did not go slow but pushed his full length inside me and I howled in pain "ahhhhhh"

It did not stop him but he pulled himself out but again thrust himself with full force inside of me tearing my v****a, I knew blood was coming out of my v****a, I could feel something warm coming out. He did not stop but kept thrusting himself until he was near his climax, he kept going like a madman. He squeezed my breast, keep kissing me, and thrusting in and out of me again and again.

"Pleassseee .....PLeeasssssssse"I kept begging him to let me go, to stop hurting me, I told him please in between my sobbing, but he was lost in his pleasure that he did not see me crying under him, begging for him to stop.

"mmmhhhhh" he moaned and he came inside of me. He did not use any protection either, he did not care for my pain, my wishes, everything was hurting inside of me. He fell on me when he came down from his climax and kissed me one more time on my lips but this time. it was not a forceful kiss but a sweet and tender one. He put his forehead on mine and looked at where we were still joined together and smiled, Became a different person.

" Now you are completely mine, I deflowered you and made you a true woman, see your p***y swallowed my whole cock." he was smiling while seeing our joined bodies. He did not notice my dead eyes, not the tears running out of my eyes. How she shattered my innocence without caring about me. Hurt me so bad that it will never be possible for me to completely trust him.

He started to kiss me again and I felt him swelling inside of me again. Soon he was up and started his assault on my body again until, I was blacked out due to the immense pain of going again and again with him.