Loved and Hated by You

It All Begin

CHAPTER 2

It was my last day in the office. everyone was wishing me well for my future and my marriage. As they all wanted me to be happy, only one person, I knew wanted me to be truly happy and that was my girl Aru. She hasn't said a word to me up till now and was pretending to be super busy.

"Hi" I said.

" Hi " Said Arunita.

" So you are not gonna talk to me on my last day" 

" NO it's not that here take this it's your wedding present"

" Why are you giving this to me now aren't you coming for my marriage"

" No as much as I want to come, I can't its on weekdays and you know my parents won't let me go to your marriage. I tried but they are like how you will come back and you know I won't stay at your home after marriage either"

" Fine I knew it you don't want to come because I am still marrying Richard, even after you said not to."

"Baby you know I love you and its not like that. come let's talk outside ok"

"Sure let's go"

Right after we got out and were alone I jumped on Arunita with my Questions.

" So what's the real deal tell me," I asked.

" Nothing things are not good at home as you know my Stepdad doesn't like me much and his been fighting with my stepbrother daily."

" But why"

" because Beck got to know that his Father r***d me when I was a kid and I tried to commit suicide after that."

" oh my god WHY you haven't said a word to me up till now".

" As we all know you are getting married and is already busy in the preparation of your marriage and I don't want to make you feel bad or upset by telling you the bad stuff about my life."

" God so helps me Aru, I tell you all the shitty things that happen to me. I even told you those things which I never mentioned to anyone in my 25 years, but still, you hiding things from me is making me feel like a b***h right now."

I feel like crap because I did not notice at all how sad she looked and how she tried to hide her pain from everyone. I know how you always laugh to look ok to others but when you are anything but ok. I pull her to me and give her a tight hug.

" you don't have to come if you don't want to take. but please if you think of me as your friend don't hide stuff from me, if I can't do anything about those things I can still hug you like this" I smile at her.

" ok ok" she laughs " you know that I am 5 years older than you and not younger"

" ah I know you don't have to remind me that because you are like a second Mom to me an i***t" I laugh.

" What no I not that old, I am hot and sassy" she winks at me and I laugh.

Just like that all the worry and problems are forgotten and we start making remarks about silly things. when you have so much to worry about its good to talk about silly things because they take your mind off of those problems which you want to forget about and for once I wanted to laugh from my heart.

" ok let's go inside the office or they will think I kidnapped you before your marriage" said Arunita.

" they can think whatever they want its not like I don't want to get Kidnapped" " just Kidding" I smiled.

But we both knew how serious I was. As my marriage was in 4 days and Richard was getting impatient day by day. He started to harass me with his request. Which I was not complying with and in return he was getting angrier by each day. I never knew what he was planning up till now, I was just his scapegoat nothing more. where I dreamed of a loving husband and a beautiful family with my cute kids. He planned differently.

Arunita knew what he asked from me and that's the reason she still wanted me to cancel my marriage, but me being my parent's sweetheart how could I disappoint them by backing out of this marriage, telling them that I don't like the guy they choose for me. Like a good girl, I was going to get married to Richard no matter what. If anything I was a very stubborn and headstrong kind of girl. Arunita always said that's why I get hurt because I don't know how to be diplomatic and tackle things in a diplomatic way.

we both went in and I bid my farewell and left the office after hugging Aru one more time and telling her to call me if anything happens, because I will run to her and she knew it.

The four days went by in a blink of an eye. Every day there was a party in my house all my uncles and aunts, cousins were here and every night all they did dance and played games. It made me feel like a queen because, I was getting married and they wanted to make me feel immensely happy about that, Everyone was pampering me in their way.

Every night I have a fight with Richard because he asked me to send him my nude picks because he was feeling horny, Due to the rituals we can't meet so he wanted me to video call him and do stuff for him.

Me being a Virgin. yeah, I was a Virgin knew nothing about those cheap things, Also never wanted to indulge in those kinds of activities either. So, these acts made Richard angrier as I was, his soon to be wife and he had all the rights over me.

He treated me like his property he never liked anyone looking at my way or me talking to anyone. If anything, he was possessive he asked me to delete all my male friend's numbers and get a new number so that they will never be able to contact me.

I laughed and cried at the same time in these 4 days because I was so happy to see my family being so ecstatic and loving me all the time. My brother was dancing like crazy who never danced before was dancing in my marriage and enjoying to his heart content my cute little nephew Arron was also dancing with him his chubby hands were going up and down like he was flying. I Cried Because I knew I was making a mistake by marrying Richard but who could I blame that for no one but myself. so I did that and cried my eyes out every night after everyone slept.

"Ahana"

"Ahana wakes up baby girl, its time you have to get ready, it's your marriage day," My mom said.

"Mom if I say I don't want to get married "what will you say," I asked 

Mom laughed " silly girl, don't worry you will be fine, you are my brave girl" 

"You don't have to be scared, Richard will love you and pamper you, it's fine to be a little scared" 

" Now get up you have to get ready everyone is waiting for you outside"

" Love you Mom"

" love you to the doll, now get up and we have to go to get ready for your marriage". Mom Said and Smiled at me.

Once my Mom was out I went inside the Bathroom. I looked into the mirror and saw my dull reflection in it. 

"it's your marriage day Ahanna" 

"Try to look Happy or they will know" said to me. I started to cry again but stopped because I knew if I cried more than this my eyes will become puffy. I don't care about others but mother Kristine is very observant. she will know something is wrong.

So once I was showered and ready to go to the salon. I came out and found my cousins on my Bed with my stuff packed in a bag.

"Ahanna your stuff is in this bag, please check if something else you want to get inside it" said my cousin calie.

"Ok" I said.

" So are you nervous, what will happen tonight what will Richard do to you" my other cousin Jeena asked laughing.

"shut up Jeena" I said not in a mood to talk about that.

" Oh please, don't be like that. I have seen Richard looking at you like he wants to devour you, eat you whole" said Jeena.

"Yeah, you remember when we all went out for dinner, he was all the time looking at Ahanna, like she was the meat he wanted to eat instead of the one in his plate." laughed Calie.

" you know what I think, you both need to get laid so you can stop, polluting my mind," I said.

" Don't act saint Ahanna, you won't be a virgin after today. I am pretty sure Richard has many plans for you" said Jeena.

" ok let go, I have everything I need in the bag now," I said.

" let's go" both Jeena and Calie said at the same time.

the whole ride my mind was not in the stuff Jeena and Calie telling me, but what was awaiting. what would Richard do, what he meant by that Message? " Enjoy all you can, you will only have me going forward." 

Only have him. I tried to guess but who I was kidding with I had no idea what he planned for me. Like Jeena said he had plans for me and I was not sure anymore if I can go through this marriage or not. Just as I was going to tell my Mom on Back seat that I am scared of Richard. we stopped in front of Salon and saw my grinning Brother John with my Sister-in-law Diana.

All thoughts of saying No left me. how can I be so selfish and tell them, when they are so ecstatic, that I don't want to marry anymore. I swallowed the lump in my throat. I smiled at them.

" Hi Baby girl," said John

" Hi" I said.

"Nervous" asked my sister-in-law Diana.

" Umm Yeah, weren't you when you got married to John," I asked.

" Not really, I knew what I was getting into" She smiled at John.

" Ok, go in and get ready I will be hereafter 3 Hrs to pick you all up" John said.

" Mom, I am going dad, said he needs to check all the arrangement for the reception, Also want me to personally taste all the dishes, which will be served to the guest. So, I am leaving will come to pick you guys up in 3 hrs," said John to my mom.

" well ok Son, go your head will be beside himself" Mom said.

" Bye" John said and left in his car for the Reception venue.

we all went inside to get ready, now everyone was familiar with me here, as I was coming here for my Pre-wedding sessions. My Make-up artist was getting selected by my Sister-in-law. It was her favorite Salon in the city. She wanted me to get my make up done from here.

Suzy, my make-up artist got me inside the room and started working her magic. After a long painful 3 hrs, I opened my eyes and saw myself in the mirror. I looked different and pretty.

"Breathtaking" Said Diana from behind me.

" I just look ok" I said "You look beautiful, Diana" I commented.

" Right, John will be so happy to see me all dolled up" Diana said.

I rolled my eyes ." Yeah, he will be" I said.

"Ahanna you look Pretty" Mom said. she thanked the Artist as well for doing such a good job on me.

" Yeah thank you Suzy" I said.

" your welcome, it's my job you know" said Suzy.

" ok I am going, you guys can stay in this room till your ride is here," said Suzy and left.

" let me call, John and ask him why he is not here" said Diana.

"Honey, where are you?" 

"oh, alright tell him to call me, once he is here."

"Mom, John is not coming he has to stay back because the groom and his relative already reached the church and he is there to welcome them. Ray is coming to get us all," said Diana

" ok, let's pack our stuff, before he comes so that we don't forget anything behind" my Mom said.

"Ahanna, you rest baby, you have many things to take care of later, get all the rest while you can," said, my mom.

"yes Mom, let me know if you want me to do anything ok, I am closing my eyes for few mins," I said.

" No you just rest, you are the bride how can we ask you to help us," said Diana.

I smiled and closed my eyes, I don't know anymore what's right and what's wrong. I want to hold my Mom and Cry like baby, please I don't want to get married, I don't love Richard. I know they will tell me, I will eventually start loving him when I start spending time with him. They are wrong I know that I know it deep inside I am making a very wrong decision today by marrying that manwhore.

Knock sound on a door. As I open my eyes and see my Cousin Ray in Blue suit, he looks ravishing, in that suit, it compliments his looks also those beautiful, mischievous eyes.

Smiling he whistles" Someone is looking mesmerizing here"

I couldn't hold back my Smile" thank you, your grace, for your kind word" I said in a teasing tone.

I and Ray are of the same age and liked each other's company. we are close like good friends. so we often teased each other by saying embarrassing stuff.

" you are very generous my lovely lady, for calling me Grace, but you know what you are the real queen of tonight," said Ray

I laughed for the first time in a day" oh stop it, you look handsome yourself" 

" oh thank you for the compliment my queen" he said with a bow.

we all started laughing at him.

" Ok, enough both of with you Jokes, we have to go it's already time" said Mom.

"Give me the Bags Aunty and Diana, I will take them to the car" said Ray.

"I will help you Ray" said Diana.

"You stay here Ahanna, we will put these things in the trunk and then help you with your dress," said my mom

" ok Mom" I said.

I was wearing a beautiful white gown, a princess style one V neck, which showcased my delicate collarbone and neck made them look more tender, along veil and lots of orchid in the back of my head with my hairs in a bun, a pretty silver necklace with a cute pendant of the star in it. John brought this for me, he said I was his star, now he was giving it to Richard. he wanted me to always remember that even after marriage they are still with me.

I was wearing very minimal make-up Red lips, smoky eyes, which complimented my round big black eyes, little stars in my ears as well. my bouquet of white roses was sitting on the make up table.

I looked at myself in the mirror and saw, what no one saw in my eyes helplessness. Nothing matters now, I will be fine, I am a big girl now time to face the reality nothing comes after shedding the tears. Time to face the things head-on otherwise I will not survive like this.

I need to be happy and feel it or else my life will be miserable. Richard is my husband, he won't hurt me, I will be fine. if he doesn't fall for me, I will do my best to make him love me.

So, I did some pep talk and tried to cheer up it was my marriage after all, what good will come by crying why not smile and face the problems head-on.