To love and Be Unloved

"Please don't leave me, I need you; You are always there for me, my pick me up, my ride or die, my best friend and the one I love more than I will ever admit. If you wake up I promise I will do better and I will be there, I took you for granted and always denied the love so selfishly; Please f***king wake up Jae-bird please I need you so much Jaelynn! " Zane pleaded as he bit back a scream laying his face into the pillow that rested his best friend's head while she laid in her deep sleep, he angled himself to kiss her bruised cheek; her hospital bed slightly raised to control all the tubes and wires, not one movement was made as he laid next to Jae's unconscious body, watching a tube breathing for her with each beep of the monitor counting the slow beats of the biggest heart he'd ever known. "Please wake up, I love you Jae! " Zane whispered as his own battle against sleep was quickly lost, he curled up against her as best as he could so no monitors would shift, especially the odd ones across her body. "I know she will wake up, we've been through too much for her to leave me now. " Zane mumbled into the dark of the hospital room before completely letting the sleep take him over. _______________ 8 weeks earlier _______________ "Is that my beautiful best friend I hear? " Zane yelled from down the hallway, he walked in to see Jaelynn unloading groceries and opening cabinets to make sure everything was put away in its proper place; Jae turned around and rolled her eyes but smiled at Zane leaning lazily against the wall, all six feet of him -okay well all six feet three inches of him but Jae already felt short enough to acknowledge his full height- his green brown eyes following her every move. "Unless you feel like helping instead of supervising then please feel free to get your ass out of my way!" Jae said as she playfully threw a balled up grocery bag at his head but Zane quickly hit the bag and knocked it to the floor, "Damn it girl" Zane laughed as he walks towards Jae and wraps her up in a tight hug; Jae squealed and swatted at her best friend to let her go so she could get back to work. With one arm around Jae's waist and the other holding a beer he looked around "What is all this stuff anyway? " Zane asked as he looked around at the variety of drinks, lunch meats and items to make full homemade meals; "I didn't even ask for any of this yet here you are making sure I am always taken care of" he said shaking his head and taking a long sip of his beer. Jae wiggled away from Zane's hold "I grabbed a few things to help you get settled into the new house. " she said as she moved to the pantry, "I mean someone has to make sure your ass survives" Jae continued. "Excuse me!" Zane exclaimed "I am capable of doing so myself I have managed to stay alive twenty-eight years now. " he shot back sticking his tongue out and opening another beer; Jae started to laugh "Yeah barley and I'm not sure how you got that lucky! " she went into full on laughing not paying attention to Zane crossing the room, he grabbed her by the waist again and held her close - So close Jae could feel his chest rising with each breath- "Almost as if I've had a guardian angel this whole time. " Zane spoke as he kissed the top of Jae's head and walked away. _______ " Yeah ten of those twenty-eight years is definitely because of Jae Bird man, without her you would be screwed or worse dead knowing you! " Drake's voice and laugh booked over the phone; Zane paused and zoned out remembering the day Jae saved him from dying but he shook away the thoughts he dared to relive haunted by what he could only imagine what his best friend felt that day, he was sure the friendship would end that they were now even on the rescuing but no matter what she stayed for some reason. Shaking his head again fighting the thoughts he yelled at Drake "Shut up man no one asked your dumbass! " he laughed as he shouted because in the most sense he knew it all to be true, if it wasn't for his best friends -especially Jae- he would lose his f*****g mind, he could hear Jae laughing from the kitchen, listening into his and Drake's conversation. "You cannot live off of freaking pizza rolls and frozen waffles the rest of your life Zane!" Jae laughed, Zane loved poking the bear he was ready with a comeback as he walked into the kitchen "Not the rest of my life, just until my next future girl comes along!" Zane exclaimed smirking, Jae turned around rolling her eyes "Like I said you cannot survive off this crap, I've seen your track record of girlfriends and most of them make me question if they even know how to boil water! " Jae laughed but only half joking about Zane's choices in relationships, she lost count on how many were "The ones, The End Game girl" it was truly never ending with these dumb girls, of course if Zane stopped choosing girls based off of how good they were in bed then maybe he would find one actually worth the struggles of a relationship. "Dang boy she got you!" Drake laughed hard at the shots being fired between Zane and Jae which was completely a normal daily thing that never got old; "Now get out of my kitchen, I have stuff to out away and dinner to cook! " Jae yelled and playfully shoved Zane out of her way, "Your kitchen? This is my house, you have you apartment remember!?" Zane laughed and rolled his eyes at Jae; she turned away "Yeah an apartment I could actually enjoy if I wasn't over here all the time taking care of you!" she remarked before realizing how irritated she sounded, Zane only huffed and walked back to his room forgetting Drake on the phone. "Man you made her mad, I could clearly hear it." Drake laughed trying to lighten the angry mood -it was also a daily thing for Drake to hear Zane and Jae fight a few times- "Shut up, hop on the game I'm hanging up!" Zane snapped resisting slamming the door to make more of a scene towards Jaelynn but he didn't want to risk her leaving and her avoiding him for days like she likes to do, she is a big part of his life and not seeing her at least once a day would mess with him in a way he could never tell another soul.