Cinderella my Ass

I love Disney. DEAL WITH IT.

Some people might find it strange, but I like the noise of the pencil against the paper. The way it let the thin lines behind, softly and carefully. It was weird. I know it. But sometimes I just got lost in these kind of thoughts, as I draw. I’m going to be honest. For all I know and what the others have told me, I could draw. But I wasn’t good with creations. I was more like see and copy to the paper kind of artist, if I can even call myself like that.

The only light in my room, was the little desk lamp I had. I was lost in my thoughts as I kept drawing a face that I had found in internet. I could come up with something by myself but most of the time they sucked, so I didn’t do much of them.

It has been five days since Aiden gave me that nickname. And I haven’t actually met Midnight lately. It has been days. That thought was enough to put a frown in my face and stick it there. Have I done something wrong that could make him mad? Make him to not meet me? For all I knew I haven’t done anything that could upset him. Maybe I was overthinking about it. Maybe he was just sleeping... Or had things to do. It could be everything.

Slowly the eyes of the boy I was drawing turned sad. But he was smiling...

Was it like this with Midnight? I could see only his lips. They could smile to me... But his eyes... They could be sad. And I had no idea... What if the reason he came to me was because he wanted to take his mind off his problems? Or maybe even talk about those problems with me? But he never said anything.

I frowned at the drawing I was making. The boy looked more and more sad. Could Midnight look like this? Hiding so many emotions behind a beautiful smile? His eyes could tell a whole different story and yet he hid them from me.

“Ufff!” I sighted and left the pencil on the table frustrated. Why it had to be so God damn confusing? It could be easy. But he choose to make it the opposite.

Two arms wrapped around my neck from behind and I felt a breath on the skin of my neck and for a tiny second I thought there was a vampire. And I freaked out. Like Oh-My-God-I-Will-Die kind of freaking out. But then I felt two lips touching that skin, and my heartbeat raised and I was having problems with breathing.

“Hi my Ry!” This was stupid. Why would I have a fast heartbeat because of Midnight? I’m mean... come on!!! It is Midnight we are talking about. I just shook the feeling away and fixed my heartbeat. Slowly I turned around to face with him, which was kind of hard since he wasn’t letting me go. But that turned out bad. Well not bad, but... With him not letting me go and me turned around to face him, our faces were really close. Like If-I-Breath-I-Will-Touch-His-Lips kind of close. And I knew I had to feel uncomfortable, but the only thing I was doing was blushing as his warm breath kept crushing against my face.

I hope I don’t smell like onions or God knows what else.

“Hi!” I said awkwardly.

Midnight smiled and finally let me go. He turned off the light on my desk and took off his hoodie. I looked towards the window and noticed that I had let the window open. How silly coming from me. But yet again... He was here right?

“Well you finally decided to show up.” My voice sounded pissed off. That’s because I was. I mean five days without seeing him? I can’t deny that I missed him.

“You missed me Ry?” He smirked at me. The voice was playfully. Midnight sat on the floor and waited for me to do the same as well. Rolling my eyes at him, I sat in front of him, for some weird reasons away from him. Why did I do that?

“Not at all.” I lied at him, but he kept smirking. His hands grabbed my thighs and pulled me closer to him till our knees touched.

“Better now.” Why was I acting different today? It was weird. And not normal at all. We were friends and yet here I was acting cold with him. Why? “Hey!” He took my chin in his hand and made me look at him. All the time I was looking at the floor. “What is wrong?”

I smiled at him. “Nothing is wrong.” And I hugged him tight. What could be wrong? What was bugging me?

“How are you?” He asked and I sighed. For once, just once I wanted to talk about him.

“Do you have sad eyes Midnight?” He looked confused for a while. I don’t blame him though. That drawing was driving me crazy.

“What do you mean?”

“Nothing. Forget about it.”

“No tell me.”

“We always talk about me. And I don’t know how you feel, because all I can see are your lips. And what if you are sad, but you are hiding behind the smile or the smirk? And that is what is bugging me. You have told me that there is a broken part of you but nothing more.” I watch his lips frowning a little bit. But I had to say that. I didn’t want to act around him like nothing was wrong...

“s**t had happened to me Ry. And it’s just too much to go through right now.” He wasn’t looking at me. And was trying to avoid the topic. But I didn’t want to let it go yet.

“I want you to tell me. Something. Anything.”

“It...” He sighed and his his face behind his hands. “I have lost a lot in my life... And now that I kind of have you... I don’t want to loose you yet.”

“You won’t loose me.” I hugged him again, but this time I didn’t let him go. For some reasons I felt like he needed it. That and the fact that it was making me feel good too. And I wasn’t depressed. But Midnight was right? If he was broken inside then he was depressed. Maybe he just didn’t want anyone to know.

“Okay... Just let stop talking about sad things.” He whispered in my ear and that was supposed to me the part where I let him go and we smile at each other and s**t like that. But I wasn’t letting him go. It was like I stuck like that. And God, that was awkward. Why wasn’t I letting him go? Just leave him Ryder. But I didn’t want to. It was comfortable and warm and I felt safe. And I was acting like a creep. What a wonderful way to keep friends.

Midnight chuckled a little at me and that was enough to make me blush. Just let him go you freak!!! Oh my God! My arm are glued around him. Wonderful. Great. Awesome. Not the sarcasm. “It’s okay Ry. You can let me go now.” FREAK!!!!

I backed away awkwardly and obviously blushing like a freaking tomato. I was so sick of comparing myself to a tomato. I should change the thing. Maybe replace it with cherries. I liked cherries...

“Do you want to do something fun?” He asked out of the blue and I was confused for a while, but then it hit me.

“You mean going out again?” The smile was forming slowly in my lips. I remembered what a good time I had with him the last time we went out. And I actually really want to go out with him. I mean not going out like in a date with him, but like going out as friends right?

“Yes.” He smiled. “If you want to of course.” He sounded unsure and that made me to give him a soft smile.

In response I nodded and his smile was back. I kind of was getting addicted to that smile. For some reasons I couldn’t get enough of them. It was like seeing the sun after the rain. And I know it was weird to act like this, but I couldn’t help it.

“Then let’s go.” He said getting up, giving me his hand to help me out as well. He walked towards the window and disappeared out of it. I was never going to get used with that. Like always I would freak out that he just fell and cracked his head or something, and that scared the crap out of me. But when I leaned out of the window to see how was he, Midnight just smiled while waving like a kindergarten kid at me, while his hoodie was on his face again.

Unlike the last time, I didn’t even bother to change. To be honest I totally forgot about them. Only when my feet touched the hard ground, I realised that. Well actually Midnight made me realize that.

He started to laugh at me and I just frowned. “What?”

“You are in your Cinderella pyjamas and you are barefoot.” I looked down to my feet. And he was right, I didn’t thought about shoes. That was enough to make me blush. Eager to much to go out Ryder? YES! “What’s with the Disney pyjamas?”

“I love Disney. DEAL WITH IT.” Now I was blushing even more. Like that was even possible.

I walked around the house and hopped for some kind of shoes to be left out. And it was my lucky day, because I had left my combat boots outside. Thank you God for that. I wore them quickly and ran back to Midnight and walked side by side with him. But the moment I was next to him, he took my hand in his, and stopped me. I gave him a confused face. What was wrong?

He moved some hair from my face and took out of his Jean’s pocket a mask. The mask from the last time. He put it in my face and smiled. I looked up at him and noticed he had it too. Even though it was weird as hell, I liked this thing. Going out in the middle on the night, doing crazy stuff while wearing masks. It was like an adventure coming out of a book.

Midnight took my hand in his again and we started to walk again. I looked down at our hands and felt... weird. It was just weird... This wasn’t the first time, walking with him hand by hand, but... The feeling from the first time was still there in me again. I shouldn’t be thinking about this, but I just couldn’t help it. And the fact that his hand felt so familiar in mine, was driving me crazy.

“Where are we going?” I asked.

Midnight didn’t look at me, but stared in front of him with a weak smile, and it looked like he was deep in thoughts. What was he thinking about? But after a few seconds he snapped out of it and gave me a smile.

“Firstly we need food. Junk food. A lot of it.”

“I like the idea.” I grinned at him like a little kid in a candy store. That made him laugh. A lot. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and pulled me closer to him and kissed the top of my head while still laughing.

“You are like a little girl Ry. Like a child.” I frowned. “But I like that about you.” Now I was confused. As hell... but I just stopped thinking about it and walked down the road with Midnight’s arm slipping away from my shoulders and talking my hand in his again.

The supermarket wasn’t far so in five minutes we wee there. It was one of those 24 hours open kind of supermarket and I was more than happy about that. I had to bite my tongue to don’t laugh at the cashier’s face when he saw us. But who could blame him? That face would had have everyone if they saw two teenagers walking in the middle of the night in a supermarket, (one of them with pyjamas) wearing masks. Well... It was hilarious.

“I don’t have money with me.” I mumbled to Midnight.

“Don’t worry. I will pay.”

“But...” I started to protest but he cut me off.

“No ‘but-s’ Ry. Now let’s race. Who keeps more junk food in their arms is the winner.” I laughed at him and just without saying anything he started to run.

“You’re cheating!!!” I shouted to him, but laughed and ran as well. Now we were in a freaking supermarket, so there were a lot of options and I had no idea what to take, but when I noticed Midnight filling his arms, I widened my eyes. Hell no he wasn’t going to win this. I started to get some of everything from the shelves not even knowing what my hands touched. I think we will have to find out later what I got.

“Time out!” Midnight shouted and started to run, well kind of, since he was trying not to drop anything. Me on the other side, just was practically hugging the things I was keeping. Almost dropped everything when I saw Midnight keeping with his teeth at least five bags of chips.

When we finally paid for everything, we walked out of the supermarket fighting. Yeah fighting.

“I won. I totally won.” I glared at him.

“No way. Have you seen this arms? I can hold you let alone some junk food.” He grinned at me showing his arm’s muscles at me.

“Show off.” I at least managed to end the sentence because Midnight pulled me closer to him and in just two seconds of screaming, I found myself in his arms in bridal style.

“Told ya’.” He smirked and I rolled my eyes. “ Now if you give me a small kiss, I will let you down and admit that I lost.” How could he be so freaking calm asking me that? My cheeks burned red as I kissed his cheek slowly. That made him give me a satisfied smile and put me down. “You won. But since I got the kiss, I think I won something more.” He grinned at me and I rolled my eyes again.

We walked down the road and talked and teased each other about little things. I enjoyed talking to him. The fear of saying something stupid or something I shouldn’t, disappeared when I was with him. Maybe the fact that he was hiding his face from me helped, but I didn’t care that much, I just like spending time with him.

We sat in the edge of the roof of an abounded flat and ate the junk food.

“I’m pretty sure, pasta isn’t a junk food.” Midnight said to me and I glared at him.

“I didn’t notice that they were pasta. Like you’re better than me. You took freaking chicken wings. Frozen chicken wings.” I smirked and he gave me a sheepish smile. “How is that categorized as junk food?”

“Fine.” Midnight groaned. A soft chuckle left my lips.

There was a comfortable silence and Midnight looked like he got lost in his thoughts again. What was he thinking about? That just made me curious. He was doing it a lot tonight and the fact the he might have something bothering him, made me frown.

“You can shout.” I said. That made him look at me confused. “I know something is bothering you. And you can shout. You can shout it out, just to get it out of you somehow. You know... that stupid feeling that makes you brake things. You can shout that feeling out.”

Midnight looked at me like I was crazy. Maybe I was. But I really didn’t want him to be sad. Because even though he was still somehow a stranger to me, I cared about him, like he cared about me. Or at least I think and hope he cares about me.

“If I shout... you will shout with me.” He smiled at me and helped me up. I stared at his face covered behind that stupid hoodie. If only I could take it off from his face....

“Deal.” We faced the sky and I closed my eyes. A strange feeling of freedom rushing down my veins. “One...”

“Two...” He whispered taking my hand in his and tightened his grip on it.

“Three...” We said at the same time.

And just like that, we shouted to the sky all the worries we had.