Cinderella my Ass

Trying to do the forbidden thing Ry

My eyes closed slowly as my arms rested on my crossed arms. All the voices faded away as all I could hear was low murmurs. A hand touched my arm lightly but I choose to ignore it. I wasn’t in mood to deal with anyone.

“Ryder!” Just ignore it! Not now. I don’t want to see anyone. Just leave me already. “Ryder!” No! No. No. No. No.

I wanted to cry. So badly. It was all my fault. Only mine. How could I be so selfish? So stupid? How? All I wanted to do is cry. Maybe crying would make me feel better. I wanted get rid of all the tears I have been trying to keep inside me. But I couldn’t. I can’t cry. Not in front of everybody.

“Ry!” My heart slipped a bit at the mention of my name. Of the nickname. The nickname he gave me.

I raised my head to get lost in two beautiful green eyes. Two green eyes that looked like the deepest part of a rain forest. Full of life and beautiful. But like everything, those eyes hid secrets. Secrets maybe I will never know.

I couldn’t help and feel disappointed as I realized it wasn’t him. How could it be him? He came to visit me and I was too busy being with Aiden to notice that I totally forgot about him. How can you forget about a friend? He was my friend. And I let him down. I am such a bad person. Maybe the worst one alive.

“Are you okay?” Aiden asked me and I just smiled at him not even showing how sad I was. What was the point on hiding it? “You look tired.”

“I didn’t get sleep last night. Nothing important.” I muttered and pretended to listen to whatever the teacher was saying. This was something I never thought it would happen. Me avoiding Aiden.

But I wasn’t fine. I didn’t get sleep at all last night. Once I would think about sleeping, something inside me told me that Midnight would came and I didn’t want to let him wait. I was hoping for him to come. That hope didn"t let me till I saw the first ray of sunshine. At that time, that hope died and I slowly slipped in sad mode.

“You look sad actually.” He said and I smiled again. “Why?” How could he tell I was sad? I’m pretty sure I had the tired face on. How could he read me so well? And then I remembered he was Aiden, the guy I liked and a faint shade of red warmed up my cheeks.

I couldn"t tell him the truth. How could that sound? Hi Aiden. I’m sad because a guy that once appeared injured in my bedroom and after that showed up every night so I call him Midnight, didn’t come to see me, because he came... but I was too busy fainting when you told me I was special because I have such a huge crush on you for over a year now. See ya’ bye! That would be weird right?

I knew for sure I wasn"t going through that. However I told Jass about what happened with Aiden. Well I told her because she forced me to. She even blackmailed. What a good friend huh? And when I told her about the fainting part, she was practically on the floor laughing her ass off. After a half an hour and a hundred glares coming from me she stopped laughing to wipe away some tears from her cheeks. Seriously, where did I find this girl?

I wanted to tell her about Midnight, but made a deal with myself. If she asked me I would tell. And a part of me wanted her to ask me about him, but she didn’t. She focused on me fainting. So yeah... I felt like crying, I haven’t sleep all night, I was tired and all I could think about was how I let Midnight down. How a bad person I was. What a bad friend.

“I’m fine really.” I said and he frowned not believing me at all. Like I said... for some reasons he could read me very well. Like an open book. Should I be worried?

His face became nervous as apparently something crossed his mind. He was blushing lightly and starched the back of his neck, before running his hand through his hair a couple of times. I found these actions cute. Even adorable. Good enough for me to see, to bring me back to mood. But does that make me a bad person? The fact that I forget about Midnight when I was with Aiden? The last thing I want to be is a bad friend.

“I was thinking... you know... for the concert... and it is after two days... You didn’t answer me if you were coming with me or not. And if you don’t want to come, I understand... So what is your answer?” How can someone so ‘ohhh’ exist? How can someone like him notice me? Yeah I know I jumped over him, but still...

I felt the zoo in my stomach and my hands became sweaty. They started to shake and I looked down on them. Seriously? My hands are shaking! Dear God help me!!!

“I... I mean... I...” It was just a simple yes for God’s sake. What is so hard about it to say? Simple like breathing. Open your mouth say yes and smile. Don’t smile if you think it will be hard for you since you are blushing but seriously?

Aiden looked at me with disappointed eyes, probably thinking I was turning him down. HELL NO! NEVER!

“Y-a... Sorry! I mean yes. I said it right, right? s**t I said that at loud.” I muttered with my hand on my mouth while my eyes were opened wide. On the other side Aiden laughed at me while his eyes smiled at me. My cheeks turned red and redder and all I wanted to do was to bury myself in the ground. Deep down in the ground.

“So tell me...” I raised an eyebrow at his words. “What saddened you?” To tell him or not to tell him. This is the whole case. The whole story no, but I could tell him something. Besides... He looked concerned.

“It’s just... a friend...” My voice sounded strange at the word friend. “I think he came to see me... but I wasn’t home... so...” My eyes went to Aiden’s lips, which tugged up and smiled at me.

“It’s not a big deal...”

“It is...” My voice raised, gaining some stares from the people I had around who glared at me. But before he could say anything the ball went off and he got up from his seat.

“See you again Ryder.”

What the freaking Bruno Mars happened? Because I have no idea. He asked me to go with him at the concert and then somehow I told him about Midnight. Is Midnight going to be mad for telling him? What the hell am I thinking about. Midnight won’t even come to visit me.

A tear escaped my eyes and I whipped it away with my thumb. I stared at the tear not knowing what to do. What was happening with me? What was wrong with me? Was I normal? Because if I was, I would have told Aiden I liked him, and I wouldn’t help Midnight that night. But here I am. I wasn’t normal. No need to answer it. I figured it out by myself.

Throwing my backpack on my shoulder, I left the class and walked out of the school. I couldn’t deny that I would miss Midnight. In fact, I know for sure I will miss him a lot. It didn’t last long... but I would never forget the time I spent with him.

Closing the door of my room, I threw myself on my bed wanting to cry. But since I really hate myself when I cry, I tried to don"t let a single tear escape my eyes anymore. And just like that... sad and tired from the lack of sleep, to don"t mention the bad feeling of guilt in me, I fell asleep.

***

“Ry!” A voice whispered in my ear as a warm hand touched my shoulder. I tried to ignore it, since my whole body was carving for the sleep I didn’t get last night. The only one I wanted to see was he, but I knew he wouldn’t come, so I just shrugged the hand off me. “Ry! It’s me.”

Once again the hand touched my shoulder softly. There was something that pulled my attention for the dreamless sleep. It wasn’t the voice. Not even the hand that shook me lightly. Hell, it wasn"t even the breath on my ear. No. It wasn’t none of these. In fact it was just one word.

It was my name.

Before I could think of anything, I found myself sitting up immediately. I wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my face in his chest. The realization of what I did, hit me two seconds later but I didn’t care. I was so scared that I wasn’t going to see him again.

“I’m so sorry, I wasn’t here last night. I’m so sorry. I thought you wouldn’t come anymore. I was so afraid.” The words came out of my mouth in just one breath. I didn’t care that I would look pathetic. After all I was telling the truth. The fear of not seeing him again was killing me. I had lost many people in my life, but loosing my friends, was one of the worst feelings. The last thing I wanted was to go through that experience again.

A soft chuckle shook his whole body and I raised my head, blushing furiously to see two lips smiling to me. The lips parted. “I"m sorry I scared you. But I didn’t come here at all last night. Sorry!” The moment those words left his mouth, I gasped. This and forgot the whole fear thing and punched his chest.

“You i***t!” I kept punching till his arms wrapped around me, pulling me to a warm hug. That made me stop and close my eyes. My body slowly relaxed as I found myself more than I should be comfortable in his arms. More than it was necessary.

Two lips touched my forehead softly as my blush became worse. Okay I have realized something. When it comes to boys... I’m the worst person to talk to. You could bet your money on it. I couldn’t have a conversation with Aiden without blushing and now the same happens with Midnight. What is wrong with me? It’s not that hard to be around a boy and don’t blush right? Right?

“I’m sorry.” His lips brushed against my forehead as he tightened his grip on me. “I didn’t think you will miss me so much.” I slapped his chest as he smirked at me. Me on the other side, wanted to glare at him, but I couldn’t. All I could do was smile at him.

“Jerk!” The words left my lips as he laughed once he heard it. His shoulder shook hard as his hand moved his hoodie from his head.

I tried to look at his face, trying to figure out how he looked like. But unfortunately it was too dark for me to see him. All his features were covered by the darkness of the night. It was hard to see at him. His eyes... well... I could see the smile in them. But however all I could see from him in general was a blurred dark figure.

“Trying to do the forbidden thing Ry?” Midnight asked me and I noticed him smirking at me. He was looking at me and since I’m Ryder, I blushed. No way right? “Bad Ry!” His voice sounded like he was talking to a little child or a dog. “I thought we had an agreement.” I noticed a fake disappointed tone in his voice.

“I don’t get it. Why don’t you want me see your face? It won’t change anything.” I frowned and crossed my arms over my chest pissed off.

His lips smirked at me again. “But my dear Ry... that would change everything.”