Alfaaz ( Words left unsaid )

Chapter 2

I entered the hall and saw all eyes turning at me. Looking at everyone here, I can't stop the feeling of guilt forming inside me, here , these all people are there, loving me as if I'm the purest soul ever born and what did I do? I tried distroying this perfect family!! I can't help but feel ashamed at myself, ashamed of my past, I don't deserve them, they are too good for me... I hate myself for whatever happened, I simply hate it!!

I slowly made my way towards my room and soon Sara aapi came with a flawless dress in her hand.

" Wow aapi!! This is beautiful!" I squealed. It was a long blue coloured shoulder less gown with embroidery at the top and at the bottom. Along with it was a cream coloured hijab. One look at it and I was in love with it.

And this is the dress and hijab.





" Do you like it?" She asked me placing it on my bed.

" Like? I love it aapi!! It's amazing and I know you'll look even more amazing in it!!" I hugged her but she backed off.

" What?" I asked, confusion clearly evident on my face.

" It's yours, not mine!!" I opened my mouth to protest but she held her hand " No more discussions. Get ready and meet me downstairs. The party starts in 1 hour." She left and soon few maids came to help me getting ready, I tried protesting but they said that it was an order or they will be fired so I allowed them.

After almost 40 mins of struggle I was ready. All the maids had amazed look on their face as they saw me all dressed up. I made my way up to the mirror and saw a totally different girl standing in front of me. I was not the Shaziya who is weak, broken, but someone else. At first it felt like I am seeing aapi infront of me but no, it's me, only me.

" Now look at that!! Isn't she the most gorgeous, sexy princess in Aasimgadh!!" Aapi's sister in law entered with Afsa in her arms. That cute little princess looked even more cute in her pink dress.

" For sure she is." I took Afsa in my hands and soon we made our way downstairs. The hall was now even more crowded and as we made our entrance all the cameras turned to face us, everyone had the same expression in their eyes seeing their little princess.

" And here we have our very own princess, Princess Afsa entering with the loveliest queen, Queen Sara." Someone spoke on the Mike and I felt shocked and tensed that they once again confused me with aapi. Yaa Allah!! Aapi will be really angry with me! Now what should I do?

Suddenly I saw jiju and aapi walking towards me and there were murmers all around. Aapi gave me a heartwarming smile and gently took Afsa from my hands.

" My dear friends, this girl here standing is none other than twin of our very own Queen, Queen Sara.

Everyone meet Shaziya, Shaziya Faruquee, sister of Queen Sara and now a part of us royals." Aasif jiju side hugged me and everyone cheered. For the first time in these many years I felt like someone cared for me, like I have a family, like my existence matters.

" Come, I'll introduce you to some of my friends." Alisbah pulled my hand and I looked at aapi for permission. She gave a smile and then vanished in the sea of people.

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" Shaziya, meet Zeha, my school friend and probably my closest of all school friends." Alisbah introduced me many of her friends and Zeha was just one of them.

After meeting her friends, I can't help but wonder what it might have felt to be with your bestee in class, to share lunch in school, to do all the mischief a child does in childhood? I missed everything, each and everything. It was always me with my private tutors and they also kept on changing very often!

"Shaziya are you there?" Alisbah brought me out of my thoughts.

" Yup, just excuse me for a minute." I excused myself from the party. Suddenly I felt this urge for fresh air and I can't help but make my way outside towards the garden.

Sitting on the bench all that comes to my mind is how alone I am. Many people are here with me but still I feel alone. Earlier when I felt like this I had Raakib with me, no matter what he did but he was always a good husband. No matter if he cheated, so what if he used me but he never made me feel like I was being used, for me he was a pure soul whom I loved truly. Even if I force myself to forget him, to act like I'm all strong, I know I need to break my walls at times. I need to let it all out once in a while but I fear, I fear of someone saw me crying they will think that I'm weak, that I am broken, miserable and I can't let them think like that.

" You know it's ok to cry, it only gives you more strength to face the situation." I heard a voice speaking from behind and turned to face him.

" I'm not crying and I'm not weak!" I protested getting up.

" I never said you are weak neither did I say you were crying. I said you should cry, it'll help." He took slow steps towards me.

" What do you want Ahaan?" I don't know why but I feel sudden anger building inside me. Maybe because I know he is right, because I actually need to cry but I won't let anyone see me like that so I did what I perfected in the past year, I built my walls up.

" I saw your face when Alisbah was introducing you to her friends. I know you miss yours." He took few more steps and I started backing away.

" I don't have friends, never had any!" I said simply and turned to go inside when I felt a hand grab my hand and pull me back.

" You have now and we'll never leave you alone. You are beautiful, you are strong but always remember, those who don't cry are not as strong as those who have the guts to cry out their pains." He made me sit down on the bench and slowly removed a strand of hair from my face.

" Look at me" his fingers found their way to my chin and made me face him.

" Never say you don't have friends, we are all your friends and don't you dare think that you are used or what he did was because of you. Shaziya being a boy I know how men are, they have huge ego and most of them like to use girls for their satisfaction, not even caring how they may feel." His eyes held the pain the loneliness which I'm used to see but in my own reflection. It hurts to see him like this when I heard his stories of being the once charming and carefree prince.

He gave me a small yet pained smile and that was all! I could not control my tears anymore, all my walls broke down! I hugged him tightly and cried, cried deeply making all my pain my sorrow my loneliness of the past year and Raakib's cheating move out through my tears. He slowly creased my hairs, uttering sweet, calming words in my ears. Finally my tears dried and pulled away with him slowly helping to sit back.

" You fine?" He asked.

" Yes. Thanks, I really needed to get it all out." I looked up at him with teary eyes. " But don't you dare tell this to anyone!" I warned him and he made a gesture signalling zipping his mouth.

" How do you know this much?" I asked, wanting to know the reason behind his pain although I had some clue but still...

"I know this because once I was one of them but now I know the feeling of being used and I don't want you to feel the same way. Shaziya, I must say it's his mistake he lost a gem like you and I must say if it wasn't for bhabhi I would have never left a chance to flirt with you." I chuckled at his words.

" And she smiles as well. I thought I would never see this beautiful breathtaking smile embracing your face." He too laughed a little making me smile and blush harder.

" Ahaan, didn't you just say you'll never flirt with me? What are you doing now?" I teased him.

" Hey, that's only when bhabhi's near!" He defended and I laughed even more.

" Now miss new royal, are you feeling well?" He asked sincerely.

" Yes. Thanks." I looked up at him and saw him smile as well. A smile not so painful but mostly original.

" That's great! Shall we make our way back inside? Everyone's waiting." He stood up and forwarded his hand for me to grab. This simple gesture made me feel a lot more cheerful than I am but I thought something.

I stood up and walked away not taking his hand and not even looking at him.

" I'm hurt!" He gestured towards his heart faking hurt making me laugh even more!

" I'll never understand you girls!" He said to himself but I heard.

" Now come!" This time I gave my hand and he took it happily and then we made our way back inside with a fresh and happy mood...