Confused Feelings ( BXB )

It's always hard to fit into a new place when you feel like an outcast to everyone around you. It's also hard to live here. I have moved from London to Thailand with my brother. We have always wanted to study abroad for so long and now we are doing it as we planned all along. It's our first day in Thailand today and it is a whole new experience for both of us. We have never travelled before. My phone has been ringing off the hook with no-stop calls from our mother. If you can't tell she is one of those mothers who checks on children every 5 minutes, she doesn't want her children to be on their own, especially in a completely different country, but she needs to understand we are both the same age and can protect ourselves and each other. We are at university studying Medicine and Engineering. We can't really have our own apartment as our mum wants us to use our time to have the whole university experience, make friends and be back in our dorm by a certain time, as she worries, but my brother and I can't stay in the same room, which is a piss-take. So I have to share with a loud and messy guy who, if he does not care, I will punch him. I know I sound violent, but I can't stand people like that. On the other hand, my brother's roommate is calm. They both have many things in common, which is good. Today is the first day they meet and they have hit it off well. They both like football and drums. The next morning, I had an idea. If my mum wanted us to have the whole university experience, I should do an activity on campus. I made my way to the hall where there were all different activities set up i was still deciding what club to join. i have always loved swimming and Kain had always loved football, so I knew he will join the football club. I made my way to the swimming table. The people at the table looked at me differently. I tried to keep my s**t together but i thought this is going to be harder than i thought. I didn't think I was going to last one minute here. I made my way outside the campus s**t!! i give up. I can't do this. It's easy for Kain to this Half Thai so you can't really tell his English as well. It might sound stupid getting angry about someone looking at me but I felt like an outcast here. " What's the matter with your face." I heard from behind me it was a tall light skinned guy he wore black ripped jeans and a blue shirt he seemed like the annoying type I's it to you i replied" he walked closer to me i walked backwards l don't like people close to me "Come on Bro back up" i said he just looked straight at me i finally stopped when i felt the cold wall pressed against my back i looked at the guy in front of me he had brown eyes i tried to move away but he placed both his hands on each side of my head against the wall his face was inches a way from my face i felt myself burning up it confused me i have never felt like this around i guy before What the f**k i thought i am a man snap out of it Ken i repeated over and over in my head he had a cocky smile on his face "Do i make you nervous" he said with a smirk on his face N..noo i tried to speak out s**t!! What is happening to me but it came out in a stutter i pushed past him. s**t, that is not good. I hope i don't see him anymore. How can he have this effect on me i am a man and i don't even know him. I rushed back to the hall to see if i could find my brother but he was nowhere to be seen he must have gone back to his room, so left and took a slow walk back to my dorm feeling a little weird about what had just happened to me i just brushed it off once i got back to my room i was lucky my roommate wasn't back yet i had a sense of relief, So i made my way to my the corner of my room as i hadn't finished unpacking my boxes yet so i started to unpack them all i put my clothes in my wardrobe and put my books on my desk once i finished i decided to call my mum to let her know how it's been so far i grabbed my phone from the desk. RING RING RING... Face time call... MUM: Hey Honey how are you fitting in KEN: Hey Mum it's Okay MUM: Why Do you look off KEN: it's nothing MUM: Honey what's wrong KEN: I don't think i can stand it here they everyone seem to look at me funny MUM: You need to get used to it's been one day KEN: Mum you don't understand, how can i stay here if people might not want me here MUM: Ken you did want to go and study in Thailand, KEN: Yeah i did but now i am starting to feel out of place MUM: Okay Honey calm down i think you should give it a month if you don't want to stay in Thailand anymore you can come back Deal!! KEN: Deal i will give it a go MUM: that's good sweetie if you want try and find someone friends KEN: Okay mum i have to go now MUM: Okay Honey, BYE KEN: BYE CALL ENDED... After the conversation with my mum, I realised that it was my decision after all to come and study in Thailand so i must stick to it and that's what i plan on doing tomorrow. My first lesson in medicine i have always wanted to be a doctor help people like they helped my father, who, sadly. In He Car accident they did such an amazing job keeping him comfortable for his remaining days he went peacefully with no pain which my family is thank full for on the other hand i have always seen myself as good-looking so i sure will have plenty on a woman. Why I was deep in thought i completely forgot about my brother and how he is doing i rushed out of my room to his dorm BANG BANG BANG.. (No Answer) I knocked on his door but there was no reply. It was dead silent, so I walked around near our dorm and checked the football, but he wasn't there also, so I decided to call him, but there was no answer. This made me worried. I called him four times and every time when to voicemail, "THE PERSON YOU HAVE CALLED IS CURRENTLY UNAVAILABLE PLEASE LEAVE A MESSAGE AFTER THE BEEP BEEP". So I gave up trying and made my way back to my dorm. I have a lesson at 9 am tomorrow, so I need to be there. I see him on campus tomorrow.