Lingering Darkness

I've been thinking about this for months or even years, when did all this started? I was always asking myself where did i go wrong? Why the hell are they like this? All of this been bugging me for such a long time, not until i finally realized when. All of it started when i was just a kid, someone important to me was already taken without me realizing it. That someone is what people call a "Father". He died when i was still three, i don't even know his face nor voice, all i know is that i have a father but died early. It sound easy hearing someone's father died but its not done yet. I don't even want to mention her but she'll be occupying almost every single pages i wrote in here. I was not informed before that my mother and father had dust on each other, my mom hated my father for such a long time that she doesn't even felt a sting right when my father died. I know this because these words came from her mouth itself. She's that type of woman who has a lot of boyfriends, my parents are not even married. Because of this hatred my mother has on him that i don't even know the reason, the family whom i'm supposed to be laughing with right now begun hating me, all because i was the child of this woman, they didn't even considered the fact that i am also my father's only child. I'm still young during this time and i don't have any idea about their hatred towards me. ......