Let me Love You : Miguel Drinn Mc'Rickette

**** I keep crying while looking him. He still standing infront of me while looking me with full of disgust, disbelief and dissapointment. I know I'm look f*****g desperate woman now but what I can do now? I really love him so that much that's way I'm doing this.... I want to do everything and tried everything what I can do para kung dumating yong araw na pagod nako at sumuko ako atleast ginawa ko ang lahat. "Please maawa ka sa sarili mo" My knees shaking right now and I know It's because of him and my heart break again and again with the same person tears come out silently. Maingat niyang sinout sakin ang hinubad kong robe na sinundan niya na buntong hininga ng maitali niya ang lace ng robe ko. He stepped away from me nasasaktan ako sa ginawa niyang pag hakbang papalayo sakin. "Drinn" I muttered with saddest sound but he look me so tiredly and stress. "Zaileen" he deeply called my name made my heart pounding. This is the first time na tinawag niya ako sa pangalan ko na walang halong irita kundi malumanay gusto ko magtatalon sa tuwa and asking him repeat my name because it's melody to me pero agad din pinatay ng tuwa nun sa katawan ko ng magsalita siya muli. " I'm begging stop this! Hindi tayo pwede dahil bakla ako, gay, baklush beks! Naiintindihan mo naman yon diba. Please stop this! You're so beautiful and Adorable woman zaileen. Hindi ang tulad ko ang papatol sayo dahil hindi tayo talo" pagod na pagod na sabi niya sakin saka marahan na bumuntong hininga. My tears running out of my eyes while staring him. My chest keep trembling na nag bibigay na ng sakit sakin puso sobrang sakit and hate this pain. "Drinn" I utter with soft  voice. I held his hand and my bend my knees. Now I'm kneeling in front of him now and hugging his knees. I don't f*****g care of what the people thinking of me I don't even care kung wala ng natitirang dignidad sakin katawan I'm doing this because of him. I love him so much more than myself! "Z-zaileen" gulat na bigkas niya ng makita niyang nakaluhod nako sa harapan niya. "I'm begging too miguel drinn! Please let me love you I don't f*****g care kahit hindi mo ako mahalin nor your gay I don't even f*****g care what is your goddamn reason I didn't ask you to love me back but please will you please Let me Love you" I pleaded.  I almost break down because of the pain keep stabbing in my chest right now! I already lost myself because of this so-called love. He hold my both shoulder and force me to stood up. "I can't  I'm sorry" mahinang sambit niya at tinalikuran na niya ako pero hindi ko siya hinayaan niyakap ko siya mula sa likod niya. "D don't  leave me" while hugging him tightly I don't want to let go him pero pwersahan niya tinaggal niya ang kamay kong nakayakap sa kanya at iniwan akong nakatingin sa bulto niyang palabas ng unit ko. Napa-upo ako at napahagulgol ng sobra dahil sa sinabe niya sobrang ng hihina ang buong system ko ubos na ubos ako ng dahil sa kanya wala na ng natira sakin even my dignity na iwala ko na ng dahil sa pag mamahal ko sa kanya.... And keep asking myself! Why can't you let me love you Miguel Drinn? I didn't ask nor favor you to love me back but why? Why? I did my best no, I'll everything What I can do but why? Why he can't love me? -TO BE CONTINUE........