shadow of soulmate

lack in thinking

and I didn’t know why. I didn’t even care to reply and dashed my phone on the bed and slept over it. After hardly, 3 hours of sleep headed to school with smoky eyes but not because of makeup .it was due to lack of sleep and rest. I was climbing the stairs and as soon as I walked through the corridor heading to my class, I saw him standing there. He waved his hand but I didn’t react much and ignored with a doubtful. Smile. Why should I talk to someone who is already committed and falling in love and dropped the matter for quite a some time. It was lunch break, I went to corridor and stood to feel the breeze on the face .I saw him coming outside the class and coming towards me. I was honestly very scared .but I did had a good control of emotions. He stood beside me close that I could feel him and smell him too. He smells good .smell is definitely a turn on for me. My inner goddess , screams,” what happened to your control. C’mon it’s just for sometimes.” I tried to get back to normal and focus on the sky.

Lacking thinking chapter 2

He asked me politely but with a humor in his voice , “what happened to you at night?” the message of the last night flashed. Oh! His girlfriend . I wanted to ask him about her but ignored it with shy. I replied with a comic sentence, “I was just busy um.. with studies. He laughed ,”u study all the time ,what’s new then? Its so rude. He is praising or just trying to mock at me.

I replied with a statistic tone,” books are my thing.”

He rolled eyes as if I said something applauding.

I ignored his vision and tried to see the shapes clouded are creating. The sky was so creative and peaceful to watch.

He was waiting to talk something more but..couldn’t. He hurriedly walk down the stairs . It was not my fault why should I talk to guy who is taken and very

appealing to that extent that I might be blown away and that’s wrong . My friends came to the side and we were talking about the pressure of studies and how disturbing It is. One of my friend asked,” what was that guy talking to you”? I told them , “ nothing much just asking normal things,” . The friends added further ,” he has a girlfriend and both them keep romancing around for public display. I told them that I knew that but I actually didn’t. I replied them ,”guys chill he is not at all my type.” .it was truth he was not my type. He is shabby , joker kind of. Not my kind deep down I knew he was very appealing to me because of his body language he had towards me.

Never did I believe in fact of having a soulmate

Soulmate didn’t never exist for me but for that very moment why it didn’t struck that I was paving my way to a wrong direction. Love story always end in sadness why my heart was willing to experience such sort of pain . The bell rang and I decided to keep those thought aside for the coming class. Keeping student and personal life separate is the key rule of my life .

Class started with a common discussion on chemical bonds. The word bond is making me go nuts right now