shadow of soulmate

confessions

Why “bond”.!!! Maam could have replaced it with something. Keeping myself away from those thoughts regarding him. I replied to ma’am with utmost confidence “single bond with sigma character and strongest" .ma’am quickly replied with strong agreement, “yes ,that’s correct. But wait my reaction was neutral . I was neither happy nor sad for knowing the answer. Its strange!!

After school got over I ran to home almost to check my phone . Unfortunately the battery was dead . I needed to charge it to see my messages. The wait is killing me. I decided to complete my other works first. I had a bath then got back to room and finally switched on my phone

Messages opened in a flash and I click on his name . What I read was very fearless and mind-blowing

It showed , ”u tried to ignore me and were u asking me about others “?

Wait ,why did he have to text me this . He could have asked me at the end of school when he was actually looking at me . Well never mind I wrote back a strong self defending answer.

“My talk with someone is my business. Not yours and it will be very sad if your girlfriend comes to know about your interest in mine business.

Hahaha..!! It’s a amazing reply . I praise myself for doing a act or bravery

It was 4 o clock in the evening when I was resting in the chair after my lunch and completing my homework. My phone buzzed. My inner self knew it was him. Is he angry or annoyed I don’t know. My hands trembled to pick such a light weight mobile.

The message was ,”chill relax . I wont tell her that I talk to you.

What! Why , I mean we just talk and he is scared to tell that to the person so called his love about his friend

I text him ,” why is she that possessive or will interpret something bad?”

He took 5 min for writing the answer to this and finally his text came

“u look very gorgeous in your pictures “

I mean he is clearly trying to ignore my question and jumping to something irrelevant . I want the damn answer from that moron. I cleverly write ,”ignoring the message wont help or I will text her" .

In 2 second , reply came ,”sorry please don’t tell her. She will almost kill me. Yes , she is quite possessive. But I don’t want to hurt her.

Okay, now he is taking .wait let me ask for picture of the girl. Let me also she the princess (sarcastically). I type the same thing and a pictured appeared quickly.

I clicked on it .what I saw was quite shocking for me. Its like I fell from the terrace. It was the picture of my old friend . Wait, I tried to see the pictures from various angles. Yes it was my old friend. I knew her from quite a lot of time. She actually was in same class with me but dropped a year. We were really close as friends some point of time.

I didn’t know what to write in reply

I write after 10 minutes of gap , “nice!!. I know her from a long time. She is my friend.

He wrote back , “yes I know that , I have seen you two together few years back in school itself.

Really, i wasn’t sure of his reply this time. I hardly now have guts to talk to him as I cant fool my old friend by having feelings for his boyfriend. That’s wrong!. I didn’t reply anything back and went back to studies. During the dinner time , I was thinking

Is it one sided from me. Really! It cant be . I m sure he also have something from his side. I try to gulp down the food but it doesn’t. After what I got to know today ,my interest in food now has vanished.

I decide to text me about this but instead I write , “had your dinner?” . I don’t want to reveal this now. In a flash second. Reply came,”

no , I will do by 12”.

Have you done?

Btw I need to tell you something .

This time I was thousand times more scared about what he is going to right now. I can’t take more than 2 shocks in a day. I said him to say whatever he was going to.

Message received

‘ I had a crush on you since childhood but I couldn’t say because never thought u would like me. Actually it was more than a crush.

What!! Now I get why I have this kind of feeling towards him. I need to write something strong now.

I write,” thanks for telling me that . You really had ?. But yes u didn’t ever tell me. I was also that aware of it. Did your girlfriend know that. Do u still have feelings for me?

Wait… I did a write too much. I shouldn’t have written the last line I regret it now. Damn!!!

I don’t know what he is going to write. Will he reveal anything. I don’t know.

I message came with defined words

“Yes! I do still like you. But you know I don’t want to hurt anyone right now. Also you are my childhood friend .i don’t want to spoil our friendship. I like everything about you.

Now I feel air is not entering my nostrils. The shock has taken over my brain

What the hell is more to know now. He has feelings for me that is evident and I have same for him that I also know but if his girl comes to know our friendship is gone. I cant hurt her. She was very important to at some point of life. I cant do this to her. I would be selfish enough to do this. I just cannot

I write to him ,” goodbye. I have to study now. Ttyl.

I need time now. What I was up to it was not right , it wasn’t not right. Oh god!. I decided to distract and imprison myself with studies to forget the matter for some time.