I realized that the only thing that would help me get back on my track was hearing updates about Mason and Louisa back home.
But I didn’t realize it too soon. I thought not talking about them at all would help me move forward and pick myself up but I just created another problem for myself when I tried to search in another direction.
It was not a good experience at all. I was ashamed of myself for taking drugs but I forgave myself because I know I was struggling during those times. I stopped it, of course. Gladly, I did not become an addict. How wild and rebellious did I become? I couldn’t picture it now. Maybe Lander was right, I was crazy!
And if there was one thing I regret, that was making out with guys. It did not make me feel better. It was the worst experience especially now that
