Love Triangles are Hell with Kids

As I sit in the grass under our beautiful cherry blossom tree outside our two story home, in the Summer kindom who is ruled by my high fae uncle Smoke, watching my two beautiful girls play in the yard. It was a sunny day for once for us to get out the house. I couldn't help but to think about our life so far, being a mother of two girls, alone because their so called fathers didn't love their mother enough to not stay as a family. Even with all the hopes I had for either father to just stay and love me as they once said they did, so atleast the girls had a father in their life. This is not what I expected my life would be like when I had children of my own.. Looking at the girls running about, they both favor their fathers so much, that its hard to get them out my mind. My oldest, Lilli, 6 years old, long sandy blonde hair with the greyish blue eyes like mine and her father Carden but darker. She's very smart and top of her class at the school of faes, but is a fireball when she's in a mood. ha.. Always said she had my stubborn problems and her father's anger issues, the two did not mix too well. Carden left us a few years ago for a young nymph name Molly, like we were nothing. Before Molly, we were happy, loved each other so much that we seem to never had enough of each other. If you know what I mean. It was us against the world, after our two year mark, we found out we were expecting. At our three year mark and two weeks before our babygirl arrived, we got engaged. After Lilli turn 3, our world started to go out of control, we started agruing and saying stuff we didn't mean. We ended up taking a break and tried to make it work for Lilli, and 5 years wasn't to be wasted, but of course young females don't know how to keep their nose out and keep away from taken men. I fight for love, but I ain't fighting over no male fae, especially when the female is nothing but a nymph. We got into our last arguement, it didn't end too well because Carden got alittle physical with me, and I told him that was it, I'm done, if the little homewreaking nymph wants you that bad, to hell with it. she can have you. The hurt look on his face after I said that was unforgetting, but he did it himself. After that, I focused on Lilli and I. I did everything for her with the help of his parents who are high fae of Spring. His parents were always there for me, I adored them for all the support in helping me with their grandfae. Even his siblings were on my side and helped out. There were times were I was loney, and times were me and Carden would be in the same living area. We were best friends at one point, even after what he did, but we had a daughter. We'd talk, and bring up memories, he'd complain about Molly to me like I really cared. Then one night, we were drinking and gettin high as usual, and things happened.. Our love was still there, it went on behind Molly's back for few months. He was the person that I feel in love with again when it was us, we were finally good again. One day, he was about to go to Molly's but stopped and told me he was gonna leave her and come back to me, he regrets everything. I just nodded, since hes says one thing and it ends up a lie. He left, so I thought he did, as I went to pick up a piece of clothing to put in the dirty pile and as I went to stand up, he caught me by surprised, grabbed my face and kissed me like he had never before. He smiled at my shockness, said I really do love you and left. After that, turn out to be a lie and I never let him touch me again, not only did he lied to me but also our daughter. I hated him for it, then Molly found out about things, and we never been cool since, she was mad mad but thats what happens when you mess with a ol' lady's family. She hated that Carden and I still had to communicate because we had Lilli. My youngest, Althea, just a young toddler, long dark blonde with a red tint, and greyish blue eyes like mine. She's so smart already like her sister, but very explorive, can't keep her still or stay out of things. Her father Lucian and I knew each other when we were kids, he was three years older than me so we stayed best friends for years. After couple years, after me & Carden went our own ways, we remeet up with each other and still had loved each other. Lucian said he always loved me since we were kids, not going to lie, I never stopped thinking about him. We only seen each other 2 times and spent a few days each time together, just catching up on life, not in a offical relationship, two months later, found out I was I pregnant. He wasn't to thrilled about it, it happened toonfast but he stuck by my side. We were happy together, he loved Lilli like his own, great father to Althea, and great partner to have. Just few months go by after I birthed out babygirl is when we started falling apart, he left to go back to Spring kingdom to do some work and think about everything that's going on for us to work out. Never seen or heard from him again. Both Carden and Lucian had stepped out the girls lives, left me to take care of both on my own. That's all the girls need, just each other and their mother. I make sure they have everything, and Lilli knows the truth about why her father left us. Althea will know the truth as well when she reaches the age to ask questions. I know their fathers loved them, but they chosen the path they went. They both tried to blame it on me but we all know the truth. They couldn't handle me, couldnt handle the independent woman I had became after Carden hurt me, betrayed me. Then my uncle offered me and the girls to stay in the summer kingdom to get away and not have to deal with drama. A place for me and the girls to have peace, we been here for a year now, haven't heard from nobody and been loving it. My parents haven't spoke to me either since I took the girls and left. They hated I made the decision to move their grandfaes far away from night kingdom, well it apparentally was the right move.. "Mom....Mom....MOMMMMM" I snapped back to reality and see Lilli holding Althea's hand walking to me. I stood up and meet them halfway. "yes my little princesses?" I was so caught up within my thoughts I didn't realize the sun was starting to set. "We are getting hungry" Lilli told me, while Althea looked at me while rubbing her tummy. "well I'll go fix some deer burgers with cheese noodles and some sweet carrot while you two go clean up and when I say clean up I mean both of you get in a bath." I say playfully "how does that sound?" Both of them nodded and raced each other inside. I shook my head and follow them. I hope both of their fathers regret doing us like this. After the girls ate, they went off to bed. I cleaned house like usally. After cleaning the house for the thousandth time, I went to my room upstairs and stopped at the tall mirror in the hallway. I looked at my reflection, my tan skin that brought out my greyish blue eyes. My mid length bright red hair w/ blonde side bangs put in two dutch braids that showed off my pointed ears that were gauged. That's one thing Lucian didn't mind that Carden hated, wild hair colors. My chop top and shorts night clothes showing hourglass figure off, my average size breast, my thick thighs then my small mom pouch that I hated so much even with my navel being pierced. For me, losing weight is really difficult after having Althea, maybe thats why her father left us, I wasn't small like I once was. I know after Lilli was born I had gain a little weight and come to found out Carden about left me because of my weight, said he don't like fat girls. He didn't because I lost the weight when I started having health problems after Lilli. I snapped myself out of it, bawled my fist in a ball and growled at my reflection. 'why do you do this to yourself Alex?' I thought to myself. I sigh and went into my room.. I got into my bed and laid there, just lost in my thoughts, asking for a sign.. finally my body shut itself down and I drifted to sleep...