Seesaw // taejinyoonkook

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Chapter Eighteen

Seokjin went home looking so exhausted since he did Taehyung's make for a lot of times because of the different concept of the photoshoot.

Taehyung feels so bad knowing that Seokjin is already tired. He insisted that the younger should just stay in his condo unit for him to rest already but Seokjin doesnt want to.

Tomorrow is the day wherein he needs to go to Jeju with Taehyung. He agreed going with the model since he has nothing to do without him. He still needs to pack his clothes.

Seokjin stopped folding his clothes as the door suddenly opened revealing Jungkook who looks worn out with his camera bag in his left hand. The older ran his fingers through his hair before placing his bag on the corner of the room.

The younger cleared his throat before finishing what he's doing as he already zipped up the luggage and put it beside his side of the bed oblivious to the stares that the older is giving to him.

He's not dumb. Jungkook is well aware by the sudden changes of his boyfriend's behavior. He noticed how he never accepted his kisses anymore, if ever he tried all he could get is a kiss on the cheeks and nothing more.

Once he tried to start a conversation with Seokjin last night, the younger immediately cuts him off saying that he badly needs to rest. Jungkook can only bit his lower lips not even wanting to ask the younger why as he know better what's the reason behind the cold shoulders.

"Do you have an out of town work?" Jungkook asked.

Seokjin raised his brows at his boyfriend and just let out a tight-lipped smile at him not wanting to lie at his boyfriend. Though, he also doesn't want to directly tell him that he's going to be with Taehyung.

Seokjin still knows that what he's doing is utterly wrong but being with Taehyung just feels so damn right to the point that he always forgets that he is not supposed to do those things to someone other than his boyfriend.

Though, he always try to make himself feel better by thinking that Jungkook is probably somewhere doing much more intimate things with Yoongi- the younger shook his head not wanting to think about him already, he's continuously making a lot of mistakes these past few days.

"I'll just take a shower..."

Jungkook turned his back against Seokjin. The younger didn't say anything and just stared at the older until he finally made his way inside the bathroom closing the door.

He shut his eyes closed trying to make himself believe that he is not doing anything wrong. Who is he kidding though? He is also cheating without the label.

He is not sure with whatever he has with Taehyung, he cant put any names into something that they both have. Who is he to the model? He doesn't even want to hear the answer to that. He is afraid that it will be the total opposite of what he wanted to hear.

Seokjin picked up his phone and stared at Taehyung's name on his screen. He bit his lower lips while his eyebrows are knitted together trying to concentrate with the every letters that he wants to type, it's making him dizzy.

Seokjin:

Im ol don.

Seokjin looked at the screen of his phone tilting his head to the right while biting his lower lips hard as he knows that his words seems off.

He shut his eyes closed shaking his head as his heart pound harder against his chest not wanting to embarrassed himself. Though, he knows that it will happen any minute now when he pressed the send on his phone.

His breathing is getting heavy while waiting for the model's response. Can he even undersand it? Was it that bad? Oh! He shouldn't even texted the older and just called him early in the morning. That's a pretty dumb move.

He almost jumped out of the bed when he heard his phone dinged and the name of the model popped out on the screen. He took in a deep breathe before opening the message, a smile forming into his pink plump lips.

Taehyung:

Me too, baby. Sleep well!

Seokjin stared at the text for a little longer trying to concentrate and making sure that the words that he just read was right and he is not making it all up just to escape from the supposed to be embarrassing outcome of what he just did.

He locked his phone already when Jungkook went out of the bathroom with his pajamas on and a plain black shirt with a towel in his hand trying to dry his hair up.

Seokjin cant help but to stare at the older while he is making his way towards their bed. He used to dry the older's hair up before they sleep before- he hates it when Jungkook will sleep with his hair still wet from the shower that's why he always ends up doing it for the older.

Honestly, there are a lot of things that is continuously reminding Seokjin about his supposed to be happy relationship with Jungkook. He wonder if Jungkook also feels the same way too- he wants to know if Jungkook is even reminiscing those times when the both of them are still madly inlove with each other.

Why are they still together? Seokjin doesn't know. He doesn't even want to ask, he doesn't even care anymore. Though, he knows that everything that is happening is still hurting him. It is all thanks to Taehyung that he couldn't feel the pain anymore.

Of course, Seokjin cant help but to ask himself as to why Jungkook needs to seek attention from another man. He knows that he lacks in every aspect but the older should've told him about it because he will gladly change and try his very best to improve just to avoid any of this to happen.

Jungkook lied down on the bed shifting his position so he's facing Seokjin's back, his mouth went agaped as he tried to call for the younger but decided against it so he just took in a deep sigh as if it reflest all of the regret that he has deep inside of him.

An hour has passed, the older is still staring at Seokjin's back knowing that the younger is probably fast asleep as he's not even making a move.

Jungkook gulped down as he moved closer gently putting his hands on the younger's waist caressing it up and down in a comforting manner befor letting out a nostalgic smile trying to bring back and reliving the emotions that he first felt for Seokjin- it's like fireworks, rainbows and every beautiful things.

"I am so sorry..."