The omniscient dream

I wonder how I've lived all my years in school... One day since I was a five-year-old, I've been isolated from my neighborhood kids for a long time. This started to make me feel lonely, alienated, and disillusioned. Until I went to elementary school, it was an unforgettable memory for me to leave in the minds of my friends around me. I pee my pants at noon just because I have a dream so true... Then in middle school, I felt like I had been given something remarkable, like a kind of ability to see the future even though I felt it was profoundly illusory in the first place... By the time I was in high school, my imagination had gotten so powerful I couldn't control it. It seems to have formed a separate, ongoing consciousness that makes me feel too real when I'm in my dream. I woke up once with these strange dreams. So honest... And now I don't know what else will be waiting for me ... How can I live a normal life? I just want to be a pupil and enjoy my day at university. Please leave me alone.... Ha... I think I should go to work right now