WHAT'S LIFE & HOW LIFE CRUELTY BECOMES REALITY

I can't really say much.In I don't know who all can relate to this.But this is my story. I remember.We was staying in Birmingham Alabama . I Don't know how I remember this I was only a baby probably around 6 or 8 months cause I can sit up by myself.All my family was over that dayI can't say really they was family but i had a good feeling.I remember my Uncle Amos.In my uncle Michael auntie Bettie Aunt Maggie aunt Mary.grandma pinky, papa this was family of 12 Siblings in all they kids was over I remember my grandma and Papa they had real big white house up stairs and downstairs so probably a basement in a big U driveway.I was getting pass around like crazy.But I ended up in my Uncle Michael arms and he was just talking in talking I don't knows what he was saying but I am going to be something special. In I remember Papa came in yelling drunk tho like always saying the grown ups need to go home to y'all place saying leave my grandkids they can stay but y'all grown one's need to go to y'all own house.Yall ways over here ever week end he said and am taking my grand kids for a ride Come on grandkids let's go for ride in my truck he had a red pickup truck. momma every one was yelling u drunk Daddy no.But we left anyway he picked me up in sat me inside the truck rest of my cousin and sisterd In brothers got like in the bed part of the truck and as he driving he gave me my bottle in was just talking change the world you have lot of gifts.But you are special in going to go far.bigger then Aretha Franklin she's kinfolks too . You got all gifts.Never for get where you from. In you going to loose so much.But you going to remember us.In touch me on my forehead and said remember.I didn't know what he did I know I was just smiling at him in he said beautiful smile baby girl. But in Birmingham Alabama I remember the sweet dirt as known as red Clay.I can't lie we used to eat it ever kid did there was.i can't say where he took us but i remember the sweet dirt and getting out the truck.I remember family love ones it's was a beautiful thing the hugs kisses.I can't say why momma left(Abbie Chiles /Franklin).But i remember them arguing in papa putting momma out in wasn't letting her take me I don't remember much about it just remember waking up and I was with her my mom so basically my auntie Maggie said she stole me from Grandpa and Grandma and we was in Wichita Kansas for a minute and then Oklahoma City and Newton and Illinois I remember Newton with the hills and they had old say about ghostes and it was called a ghost town.in boy did we saw a lot of ghosts. now in a country they say babies can be born with a special veil ain they can see ghosts in it all depends how thick the veil was and we saw ghostes I don't know if any of y'all be relate to this but the country is big on that.But yes we saw ghosts all five of us we saw husband in wife walking down the street they said they was killed shot on a wedding day.in they walk the streets at night looking for they wedding.i do know it was in June cause the June bugs was out we was catching them.Me and my siblings. we always had the habit in taking off there back off or butt part off that glow in place on our ears.Iike ear rings and I basically remember Fourth of July the fireworks.in now like I explained Newton is a ghost town the big old built houses in buildings. I also remember ghosts coming to me late at night surprisingly I wasn't scared of them at all sometimes I could say they even look like my momma every once in while.i remember a hand crawling up the window my family is running out the to room and left screaming and hollering they left little me behind. I know she was with a man named Robert back then and I cant say for sure what happened but I remember Robert getting out arrested and they said he was molesting my two sisters Kathy Franklin and Annette Franklin at the time and he went to prison. and my mama got with a man named Dwayne tape this man was awful and taking all my mom's money beat on my brother( Darryl Franklin )like nothing. well let me explain my brother he liked volunteered to take the beatings.for anything in all of us in mostly my brother( Jeff Franklin) Anything he did it was a lot of beatings in this only over a electric truck fallen down the stairs one time it was so bad he beated him with a broom stick until he splited both of his hands open cause my big brother was blocking the strikes with his hands and my momma took my brother to the hospital. me I was for sure that we was going to be saved but my mama lied said he felled down the stairs and split his hands open which didn't make no sense and came back with the him (Dwayne Tape)I called him the devil caused he so evil or the and toxic. come home everyday intoxicated beating on my mom or beating on my brother or one time beated on(Kathy Franklin) My sister but always he always wanted get a hold of me for some reason he said I stared like I wanted to do something about him in know he wasn't wrong I didn't like him at all it ain't much I can say I was about only four or something this went on constantly for years everyday one time (Dwayne Tape) hung me( Vickie Bento/Franklin) and my sister ( Annette Franklin)was hung out of two storage building by one leg each my sister was crying screaming I wasn't and I was busy focused I was focused on (strength stronger and hold)for this crazy and toxic man wouldn't drop us and surprised my mama took up for him again and didn't send him to jail in this was Penrose apartment and Wichita Kansas the beating kept coming i say after day on my brother( Darryl Franklin ) or my mother mostly and sometime my oldest sister (Kathy Franklin ) and I should let you know Kathy wasn't no Angel she was having s*x with Darryl on a basic to basically day every weekend thing Making him have s*x with her in let me tell you momma was wild a party girl every weekend went out did speed the little black pills and her favorite drink was Thunderbird for oned who don't know speed was the little black pills that people was doing back then saying momma a sexaholic wearing lingerie all the time taking pictures with lingerie on and that's what every weekend. by the way Darryl always went threw momma stuff knew all her in hiding places in showed them to us every weekend she leave my oldest (Kathy Franklin) and charge of us and every time she'll take Darrell Franklin my oldest brother and another room with her and surprisingly some how my middle a sister (Annette Franklin) got involved.but both of them was already child molested by Robert anyways they still wanted s*x so they used (Darryl Franklin) and it wasn't his fault cause half the time or should I say he never wanted to do it. these two were sexaholics they even tried to force me am (Vickie A Benton/Franklin) and my Middle brother(Jeff Franklin) to have s*x but I didn't want to but I think Jeff did I could say in that A Annette tried to force Darryl on me telling him to put it in my hole and my hole as the time I didn't know what they was talking about but I can add if something was told with my mind I told him no Darryl in he stop so I guess he heard me in didn't do nothing no more and my with Kathy or Annette but Kathy tried can force him I the room but momma caught them that time or someone told in she was mad in told (Dwayne Tape) to help her in Kathy got a beating that when stopped kathy was pissed.I was tomboy I thought my brother's was cool I dressed like a boy.i act like a boy and everything plus my siblings said I was born a boy always tease me about that. so automatically I thought i was a boy and I was tight I love being one of boy's I had a haircut like a boy I was a boy to me my. brothers cool I look up them follow them my brothers was saying I was just born with the wrong part and as a kid that was programmed in my head I believed it and everything. so one day I remember my auntie's all showed up and Grandma surprisingly my mom she didn't know they was coming and I was so happy to see Grandma so was Jeff all us we was with our cousins they came and I think we was there in Illinois by then we was at some apartments no food or nothing I think Dwayne Tape was in jail him and momma always fighted in she was happy when he got locked up it was like a break to her so when they showed up it was fun our cousin was here in grandma she was so beautiful I thought that mostly beautiful her eyes were green sometimes gray in her hair was all the down kinda of past her butt In light skinned she was Indian Cherokee Indian slime little she was petit my brother Jeff was crazy about her to she came in straight got me I am the baby out of all five squeezing me .so all of them left to go get us some food my aunt and Grandma was fussing at mom your kids need food in you just thinking about liquor all the time my mom hated her family were hear we could tell by the look on face we all did we always laugh at mom cause the look on her face frowns she hate been told what to do. by the way Grandma knew she was on welfare so she was asking where the food why the kids ain't got that got no food and Mama didn't like to be told what to do tell her Dwayn tape takes her money but I think Darryl did and they got in the car with them in went to the store but yes Darryl told her. in she was getting fussed at talking back or back talking like always.but they took her to store and we stayed behind like always did at the apartment we were looking for food why they was gone in we went to the apartment next door in there was old old food there in we was looking around and i wondered off the room my older brother found me in it was a girl there tied up but she was dead bloody i remember a she had on dotted dress in a red barrette in her hair and we knew there were bad smell in there and I told Darryl she told me she was kidnapped rap and killed which she did. so as Darryl pulled me away Darryl was saying he wasn't not going tell no one but I guess momma was back in we were all in trouble like I excepted except for me but well ever else was Darryl was telling every one it was a dead girl in there grown ups didn't believe him they thought he was trying not to get a beating with a belt of course or a switch Grandma said it was that's why she wanted to stay behind she and she knew we was going nextdoor we couldn't hide nothing from this lady so it's best to be honest at all time cause she knows when we lied in so they called the police some people said it was Nancy shoemaker and it was cause she told me her name was Nancy shoemaker in police was asking alot of questions in cover up the fact Nancy shoemaker was found there in that's all I Heard about it Grandma and all them stayed for while in left in a week Darryl and everyone's was mad at mom cause Grandma i mean my two siblings my brothers cause why she took us away from love ones family. We never figured out why.. I know they had to go to school in Jeff didn't want to go he yelling a lot grandma acted like she was staying holding me tight and Jeff yelling when he gets back Grandma better be here. it was crazy momma said she Is go to school.in my grandma was holding me crying I knew something was wrong but couldn't tell but now understand she wasn't coming back and that's it family fallen apart my family passing away Uncle Michael Grandpa and in the 90s my grandma I couldn't believe it but everyone was leaving me like grandpa said love ones never saw my grandparents I again I often pray ask God why in why was I here why am around hurt this time before you all wonder why I said again I was reincarnated I it strange but true I can actually remember pass life's it's trippy but true that's why I said again but all my past lives I rich money the hippity type you know I was even the little girl on the Titanic not the one who plays her but I was her in a different time so automatically I know I suppose to be to Rich but going to take a different perspective this time around ill tell just keep reading so yes I prayed for time to time in want to church love the holy Ghost church Christian Church and brother hood church ended up our church pastor Bob was the he pastor there I love it Sunday school in everything I knew we back in Wichita Kansas at this time we stayed on a Street called New York by the bridge sometimes it hurts to come to your Mom beat up all the time but that was our lives you know I guess she tried to act like he stop beating on her but we knew better one time he broke her jaw always coming home intoxicated accusing my mom doing something it was different all time or his friends saw her doing something wrong the point is he couldn't leave the house so he came home she went upstairs and slept with us and came upstairs she got in was asking him what's wrong I was wide awake and I saw he straight punch her in the jaw no reason in back down stairs I guess she laid back down in went to the hospital the next day I was thinking to my self wowi know I was in school but couldn't remember the school name move so much I stop keeping up I remember Washington, Colman middle school ,Mayberry, North high school, the rest is a blurr.. So also remember Dwayne tripping about nothin i think my oldest sister was cooking oatmeal in wasn't supposed to we find out later he be shooting up with heron and so he took the pot of oatmeal a tall pot of oatmeal and threw it like a frisbee and hit a girl and a head split her head right open and her mama started tripping and called the police on him and tried to fight my mom and I remember my brother was like a monkey bars or whatever he did some kind of flip and kicked her in the head cuz she was trying to fight my mama and I guess the complaint was Dwayne was messing with her too the lady that was tripping with Mama and the lady daughter he hit in the head.so cant where that happened but it was apartments so again we was always moving around can't keep up with everything all I know it was Oklahoma City Newton Kansas City in Illinois and back to Wichita so I just kept going on for years too and tell one day we were supposed to be leaving I guess going back to Wichita and Dwayne was high I'm shooting up high and I know he was wanting to kill all of us he was off telling my mom that he was going to take us off the bridge with him or highway with him so my brothers and sisters was sleeping I wasn't going to sleep it was something strange abound him he wad arguing with momma so i know I said to myself but to him to stop and get in out walk it off in did my momma in yell aat him to come back but he kept walking and then she looked back at me so I kind of figured she know it was me but didn't say nothing only thing I know he getting up finding us in Wichita and I guess my mom was asking him why he got out the car like that and he said he heard a voice telling him to get out and walk it off and stop he said it sounded like a man but he had a feeling with me so from that day for it he kept staring at me staring at me staring at me staring at me didn't say nothing always stare at me and I stared back of course so if you remember and the cover page I was talking about gifts so as grown up as a child these gifts got stronger I also saw everybody friends died in the bars I saw my brother white friend Jeremy I know he was going to die and so on so we lost a lot so I'm about had enough it was typical of choosing friends so I thought it was no use to getting no anybody so why stay still so why have a friend and get used to a school we never sit still so basically know someone in so ger close i came across along by that time Darryl was already popular at school with Stacey they known now as the plastic in the world the head cheerleader I don't think we was in n Wichita Kansas at this time but somewhere i should say Illinois but at this time there was always feeding us in helping while I should say he was stealing momma food stamps but it was a candy store somewhere at the time we then I don't no I knew we was in Illinois Kansas and I can't say where we were staying I do not remember the school name either but that school was great we was going to school with Darryl some how I didn't understand then in Illinois was different to did things was different there weird but alright school we ever went to Darryl didn't like us going to school with him either me and Annette he was typical on that he even argue with mom when he found out (I don't want to go to school with them .) he should over and over again I was laughing at time in Annette you know me and Annette got alone sometimes you know that feeling when someone don't really like you it's like I urge that comes on very strong in it never comes in till they are present as I knew for along time she staring at me all the time when I was coming up so i knew sometimes people say things or intervene with as a child i knew alot didn't ask for this gift but I had it and it's a mission that I have to complete i knew that to a Path I had to follow but what's wrong with wanted to be normal i couldn't say less as a child you did what you grown up said honor and obey your parents it's written in a Bible so i believe in that Strongly i believe in the Bible so much i could not intervene the answer was right in front of me I had to let things play out so I did playout and all will work out them selfs and I did that alot but trying to find everything wasn't the answer then but sometimes I had no other choice but to intervene and it was for better good I told you true or false/fake and this was seriously true the ones in with nothing to lose anyone could relate to this situation I don't know but I could not say at the time either.But as the time went by momma end up leaving Dwayne Tape for ( Allen D Chiles) her Ex boyfriend by the look on her face for the first time I saw she was happy like Excited happy so we ended up moving in with him as soon as possible for the the first time I felt peace in it was a wonderful feeling in stayed In his one bedroom for a while he was a cook in can barbecue it was his favorite he in joyed cooking in working he worked at the Ramada inn motel downtown and Wichita Kansas he was a dish washer and also for got to mission when him and my mom hook back up he just got out the army and was doing great for once I actually know what a dad felt like he was great dad he help me sometimes with my home work if he wasn't to tired.and we ended up moving to a little bit bigger place I think it shadybrook apartments in Wichita Kansas that was just for more space a two bedroom so I guess it was okay we had fun over there to met the kids and neighbors hood from there we move to Estelle Street in Wichita Kansas where my brother left went out and build his team the 12 Street boys a dance group mostly he was right a Cross the street stayed gone for months and months to a year almost in then he started coming back around him and his group gang I should say, Muscle, Dominique, Smoking,Man Man and others I suppose we meet in they can dance now before Darryl left he he told me he be very close so he was across the street staying with Dominique family.in Darryl never returned home I guess he was 15 or something but I knew I wanted to leave at a young age to.. so Darryl started the is little group and was with them for 3 years I guess or in Dominique had two brothers to Darius and Lucas they were cool to hang out with for a while and coming over all the time Over there was great I thought