INNOCENCE CRY

Ah! What a great time to be alive I always wanted to pen this down so here it goes FATHERLESS! yeah, you heard it right now I am sure this question may arise in everyone’s mind that what it really meant? Or maybe people may ask what is Fatherless all about? So, as you all are aware of Fathers or Fatherhood but to me, it's a little different and one of its kind .so let me answer this question and elaborate a little more. Neither my father is dead nor he's lost infect he's alive and perfectly fine, the thing is he just not have that father’s soul and emotions as I have never experienced it at all and named it as "fatherless figure. Being a fatherless daughter is an unusual feeling yet unbearable of all. I am sure you all must be wondering but it’s the biggest darkest truth of my life having a fatherless figure as he never looked up to us like fathers do. He never cared about us to an inch in any sense at all like what we are doing in our lives or what we have been through all those years and days until now. I know this will never be going to end but this little stubborn child in me keeps pushing me and vigorously looking for that One Father in Fatherless Figure but the struggle continues until it ends us! You know it’s really very painful when you know you have a father figure but it’s only a statue without a soul. All can see is it hurts and what am I supposed to do to fill that space within me that’s keep eating me and increasing my thirst even more and knowing that it will never be going to be filled with desired results. Do you know how it feels? It feels horribly hollow, empty, trembling, scary and unwanted. Well it’s been quite a long journey and I have learned to live with it all by myself as I am fed on this ...he brought me up this way but he didn't even bother to fill the empty space that I will be going to carry all my life I wish he could ever realize the damage he has already done. This one's for you my FATHERLESS FATHER You need to know this all my childhood is gone waiting for you to be on my parents meeting and you never came, my teenage has gone waiting for you to protect me, rescue me and be my guard but again you never came and even when I graduated was waiting, holding a degree to hear that sound of fatherly proud words but as always that space remained empty. Now I am 30 years old without you and counting and I know you will still not even try to come and finally, all the hurricanes and heavy storms have been passed and we both are still alive to continue with the fatherless battle, don't we? The only thing I am totally and constantly afraid of is my marriage I never wish or have any desire to get married to anyone because I see you in every man and I really don't want to have any men in my life let that space to be empty and cherish the sweet nothingness forever. There were the days I use to feel you in every man and then here I am now living a NO MAN FIGURE LIFE that you gave me. I am no more what you want me to be I may be fatherless or featherless but I am a daughter of fatherly mom and as long as she's there I am enough and all alive and that’s the whole extract of a fatherless figure. At the end of the day, the only wish I have is to escape from this enigma of the fatherless figure. I wish that day comes in my life when this one less lonely girl gets to meet his only father in the heavens forever. I really pray to GOD that if I really ever got a second chance please don’t curse me or bless me with this fatherless figure ever again all I want is this little innocent wish of being a daddy's little princess forever as I will be one of the fortunate ones if it ever happens and yes I will be... As for now, I have no desire of being a daughter of fatherless figure trust me its great disease and curse of all. May it never happen to have happened ever again in my life or anyone's life. So that was my ultimate survival story I cried a river and still, space is largely empty, dark and hollow. And one thing more last but not the least I never celebrated my birthdays and father’s day yes never but in the end, I couldn't do anything about it but to suffer...No more now as I am all set for more and happier smiles and teeth bursting happiness coming all the way and no one owns this but I... caught you I know you all just think that if I ever hate my father for being this way well I would say no! Yes, it’s a No infect I feel sorry for him and it hurts too because you know it’s such a blessing and much of a life to be a Father but I guess it was a curse of nature that he is been eliminated from such nature's blessing and what about us daughters well there is nothing to worry just tilt that crown on your head and yes you will always be nature's little princess and that my love will always be with you that nobody can question. I hope my survival story doesn't hurt anyone because it’s nothing but reality. Cheers to life because you only live once so make the most and best out of it whether you are a daddy's little princess or a Fatherless daughter!