Chapter 15
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I've been wondering what does it feel to be inlove with someone else. I never had experience that thing they called 'romantic relationship'
I've never been intimate with someone. Maybe because that thought never came up to my mind ever since i started to understand thing.
But now, i got curious. How does it feel? Why is everyone wanted to have that romantic thing?
I love. I do love. Maybe i'm not that showy or what but i do love my parents and friends. Is there any difference between them? The love for my parents and friend, and the love that the romantic people feel?
I'm not easily get attracted with anyone. That's why i never experience to be in a relationship, just a two person involved? Nah, i never crave or wanted to have that kind of thing with anyone. Really, never.
But maybe what they said is true? That 'Lahat ng sinasabi mo ay kakainin mo rin sa huli'. I usually heard that from people, especially from my friends, ofcourse.
How would i know kung nangyayari na yan sakin? I never said anything, though through my thoughts i always think like that. Hayyy
I was thinking about asking a friend about that thing but i'm hesitant. Ayokong tuksuin na naman ni keisha. Mas ayokong mabunganga'an na naman ni alisha. Maybe gesiah? Hmmm
I reach my phone on my bedside table and look for gesiah's number. When i found it, i immediatly called her. After three rings, she picked it up.
"Hello?" I heard her small and soft voice from the line. I really feel refresh everytime i heard her voice.
"Hi gesiah! Are you busy? What are you doing?" i need to asked her first, i don't want to disturb anyone.
"Nope, nothing really tri, why?" ugh, she's sounds so sweet.
"Wala lang, just wanted to talk to anyone." I tried to make it casual so that she won't suspect me anything.
"Oh, okay. What do you wanna talk about?" she asked sweetly.
"Hmm, you know ges, i got curious about something. Just want to know about that thing." I asked laughing awkwardly.
"What thing ba tri? Ngayon lang ako nakarinig na curious ka sa isang bagay." gesiah.
"Hmm, ilang taon na nga kayo ni sander?" i started it lightly.
"uhm, almost 2years na. Next next month is our 2nd anniv." she said excitedly while giggling. I smiled.
"Aw, that's too long. You two must be meant to be. I can alree forsee you wearing a wedding gown, walking on aisle while sander, while for you in front of the altar." kinikilig na pag-iisip ko.
"Ano ka ba tri, it's too early pa for that. We are just high school. You're thinking too far already." we both laughed because of that.
"So, tell me. What are you curious about?" she asked ng humupa na yung tawanan namin.
"Uhm, i'm just curious. U-uh , how w-would you k-know if you're inlove?" nauutal pang sabi ko. I'm shy, okay? It's my first time asking about that thing.
"Hmm, are you inlove tri? OMG!" Napangiwi ako dahil sa sinabi niya.
"No! Ofcourse not, i'm just curious, okay? I asked you because i think you're already expert in that field." i joke that made us laugh again.
"Hmmm, based on my experience. You will know that you're inlove with someone when... You're always thinking about him, when you always wanted to see him and when he's near or you saw him from a far your heart beats so fast and undescrible. You got conscious everytime that he's near. You always wanted his attention, you want to talk to him or just look at him. And lastly, you want to know that person, badly." she continually said, then breathe. "so far, that's what i remember hihi." she said sweetly.
While she's saying those words, the only 'someone' that popping on my head is him. All of those. Only in him.
"And oh, meron pa pala. When you do a small thing or just a wrong move to him, you easily got affected like very very affective that you can't easily get over it. When it comes to him andali-dali mong masaktan. Kahit na hindi naman kasakit-sakit yung ginawa niya. You are always concern about him, his feeling or anything related to him. That's it!" she said, ending her words.
Lahat. Lahat talaga. Anu ba?
"Totoo ba yan? Baka gino-goodtime mo lang ako kasi baguhan ako dito, gesiah ha?"
"Duh, that's based from my experience. Lahat yan nangyari sa akin at nangyayari ngayon, sa kay sander." pangungumbinsi niya.
Napaisip naman ako dahil sa mga sinabi niya. I can't believe that everything that i'm doing is connected to that thing. Like what i've said it's my first time.
And i didn't expect that i will experienced and feel those thing to him. He's making me crazy everyday.
I thought after speaking with gesiah will put me at ease and will clear my mind but it turns out to be the other way around.
It's not that i can't accept this feeling. It's just that i don't know what to do. Gusto kong aminin sa kanya but i'm still confused. I want to find out first what i really feel. No, i need to find out.
But i can only do that when we are close to each other. Not like this that his always avoiding me. Not like this that his always ignoring me. I need to think about something na makakapaglapit sa amin.
I'm thinking about my plan on how to get him. I'm thinking if i should abduct him, bring him to our private resthouse, just the two of us-- erase! Erase!
That is so crazy triana. You're thinking like an obsess fan. You're not like that.
I'm still thinking about my plan when i felt my phone beep. It's been an hour since gesiah and i talked. Ofcourse i thanked her, she even asked me if i'm seeing someone or if i'm inlove. Ofcourse i denied it.
From: Andrea
Hi Triana! I just want to ask if you'd decided already about the pageant? No pressure, Goodevening by the way.
Oh, still have pageant pa pala na pag-iisipan hays. Parang ayokong sumali dagdag kasi sa iisipin at pagkakabusyhan. At mas lalong ayokong sumali dahil baka si clayton yung magiging partner ko--- right! Partner.
I immediately dialed andrea's number. Agad-agad naman niyang sinagot na parang hinihintay niyang talaga na tumawag ako.
"Yes, hello triana! Have you decided already?" bungad niya sa akin. Medyo nahihiya pa akong sabihin sa kanya pero nilakasan kona yung loob ko.
"Yes, but i need you to do me a favor, first." i said. Wala ng atrasan to!
I will do everything to get you mister!
- Writer
