IN LOVE WITH A LONER ??

Kiara's POV "I sincerely think you should take a break from your book this time around Kiara, look at you." My sister Rhoda commended. "Go get a life sweetheart." She added swishing her hair lightly and settling down on a couch beside me. She's actually right.. I should get a life, I should look for something else to keep myself busy...I've been reading novels upon novels so I could forget it all..stuffing my face with chocolate ice cream(it became my favourite since it's Justin's ) but I couldn't..i just couldn't take my mind off the whole epistle....Rhoda doesn't understand half of what I'm going through..though she seems to understand a bit, but really she doesn't. Justin was my life, he took a huge part of me away. I devoted my time, efforts and almost gave out my body to him but all my efforts were thrown to the ground with heartless effortless efforts. Is this how it works? Is this how love is? Why always me? Why can't I be as lucky as Rhoda? I mean, she's barely seventeen and she's a already in a very promising and beautiful relationship that I envy so much...well not to the point of destroying it, I'm happy for her. But why not me? I'm older.......... "Penny for your thoughts.?" She said snapping a finger in my face bringing me back to reality. "You've been staring at that page for the past thirty minutes Kiara...please go shower..this place reeks of your stink." She said mockingly holding up her nose. "Why you little..........." I said hitting her gently on the shoulder. She laughed heartily...her beautiful set of white teeth showing their beautiful glamour and bringing out all of her beauty. She has long flowing dark brown hair that falls below her waist region and her beautiful brown eyes shown like they had luminous lights in them. She's skinny quite alright but really tall.. she's been working on herself cause she plans to go into modelling soon. She'll always tell me; "sis work on yourself you're almost looking like an elephant when you're not twenty five yet.." Unlike Rhoda, I'm on the fat side..not so fat like an elephant though..just portably fat with very large hips, rounded bottoms and light skin. My hair is not as silky as hers but it is long and softer. Most people say we have matching eyes but I see more of black in mine when I stare at the mirror. I know I am beautiful. Each time I complain about my body size, Justin would always say "I love my baby that way..she's gorgeous just for me. I can't want her to be anything less but she can be more for me.".......sigh Justin! Justin is my ex..well he was the love of my life till everything changed....... "I'm going for an audition today, my manager didn't think it was a good idea to work with little begining baby co but I think it is my little begining." Rhoda told me. The look on her face said it all....she was super excited....and if she gets in, this would be her first contract ever! "I'm happy for you baby. I'm sure you'll do good there. It would be your little begining." "Thanks sis..but before I go, I invited Blaze over.. he'll keep you company while I'm out so you won't miss me much." She smiled walking to her room to take a short shower..she had bathed before..not that I'm dirty or anything, but that girl showers almost ten times a day...when she feels hot, she showers..when she takes off her make-up, she showers....before she goes out she showers, even if she had already showered before then. Sometimes, I worry because her almost perfect smooth brown skin may become so soft, it may tear off with a pinch. Blaze is a close friend of the family. Though dad doesn't like him because he's gay, but my sis and I have this connection with him ever since we moved to LA. He was the first person to talk to us when we moved in and it's been four years now, our friendship never dies. Dad was in the living room engrossed in TODAY'S PAPER. While mom was cooking. They both knew what happened between Justin and I so they let me be for now. "I mean it's been a week now Kiara..get a life girl." I told myself as I stood up from my reading table. Most of the things in my room are pink in colour...Rhoda always calls my room a doll house but I don't really care though cause I LOVE PINK. Not just cause I've always fancied it right from when I was younger, but also because Justin said pink makes me look gorgeous and brings out the gleam in my eyes...oh Justin!!! Rhoda's POV I'm really worried about my big sis Kiara...if she goes on like this, she might not survive it. She's been this way since Justin broke up with her. I know how she feels even though I'm almost sure she thinks I don't. But I do. I love Kiara so much and can't watch her hurt this way. Frankly, Justin will pay for what he did to my sis. I walked to my room and enjoyed the perfect view it had. This year, I chose purple, last year it was sky blue(every year, dad and mom change the paintings of the house so it looks new again.) . The interior decor..one of a kind! My furniture, reading table, bed stand, closet.. perfectly fit for a queen like me! I took a deep breath in and took in the smell of the new freshener I bought last week.....LAVENDER....I love the smell of lavender.....it's so refreshing. I took off my knee length gown and looked at my figure in the mirror.....I'm getting fat!!!..I really need to watch it man! A cup of cucumber juice for breakfast should do the trick. I already had my bath earlier today but I have to shower again to let out all the dirt and sweat from my workout this morning. I walked into the bathtub and allowed warm water to move through my body..I closed my eyes to take in all the heat and relax. I need to hydrate my face...I took out one pack from the packet of Deluxe moisturizing facemask. This is a peek off type so it takes just give minutes to do it's work. The bathtub is a good place to think. I sank in more thinking of ways to help Kiara get even with Justin. He can't just go Scot free after hurting my sister so much..he needs to be punished a bit. I picked up two already sliced cucumber soaked in honey and placed one on each eye and sank into the water even more...he must pay!!