Nightmares’ Fairytale

Door of Nightmares

It is now Sunday and I wasn't able to get enough sleep because of yesterday. I can't help but to think about it. I mean it might be a peck but he kissed me even though it is on the cheek. No one kisses me there, even the boys they only kissed my forehead. Agghhhhh I think I am going insane because of him. I thought while messing my hair.

"Hey Zelly, you awake? Better get ready Dad said he has something to speak to us." Ethan knock on my door.

"I am, just give me a minute." I stated grabbing a pair of pants and white shirt.

"Sure Zelly, for you getting ready equals an hour, never a minute." he said to me before I heard his fading steps. Well he is right its takes a lot of time for me to get ready.

After I get dressed I immediately came downstairs to see what is my Uncle's announcement.

However, when I got down I see something I didn't expect. There, in table, my uncle look very problematic and crying while Ethan is almost angry and hopeless.

No longer being able to stop myself. I came down and sit in the chair beside my uncle.

"Uncle, Ethan is...is there any problem? What are you going to announce uncle?" I speak rather carefully, as if saying that they can take their time before speaking. Despite my question, I am actually scared. Scared that whatever the news about, it is definitely a good one.

"You see, we are able to have a nice life cause we have a business right? Not some big company but a small restaurant." my uncle said which I answered with a nod, signaling for him to continue.

"Well, this pass few days we are having a problem and...the business is about to face bankruptcy." he finished looking down.

"What...what? I...Is there something we can do? I'll help. I can stop studying and work." I said with all honesty. That restaurant is more than just a business for them. It is something left behind by Auntie Mich, Ethan's mother. Auntie Mich is actually a chef, that is why they chose restaurant as their business, which became extremely well known.

They adopted me and help me in time of my needs, the least I could do is to help them. I would do anything for them. I...I found love in this family and I am willing to protect them.

"Actually,the...there is but I...I am so sorry baby I am so sorry...If you don't want to you can back out I'll take care of everything. You don't need to worry. I am so sorry baby" with trembling voice, he keeps on apologizing to me which makes more confused. He is hugging me and calling me his baby. I missed that. I missed being the baby of the family.

"I am confused uncle, what do you mean? What can I do uncle, I'll do it." I said without hesitating. However, on the back of my mind there is a small voice which tells me to say otherwise.

"There is a friend of mine who is willing to help our business but...but I'll have to marry you off to their son. I am so sorry baby, If you don't want to, you are free not to dot it." he said. And I freeze. A cold wind seems to touch me, and the oxygen on my body seems to have been sucked out. Marriage, something I am not ready for. An arrange marriage, something I am afraid of.The source of my misery, my nightmares.

"I...I....could you guys give me time to think." Not waiting for their reply, I got up and lock myself to my room and just cuddle to my bed.

The instant my back fell on my bed, a soundless cry for help escape my eyes. I fear to be in a situation like my parents. I fear to be in a relationship full of lies and regret.

All night, staring to an oblivion with continuous tears flowing from my eyes and thinking what I should do. For two years,They are by my side helping me get through my life without any exchange and loved me unconditionally. With all my tantrums, panic attacks, suicidal attempts and stubbornness, both of them stayed.They did not even complain about my actions. 

I heard Ethan, knocking on my door but I just ignore him and keep on thinking, I just need a time alone.

After a long time, with a trembling body, I knelt down on my bed, shut my eyes tight and intertwined my hands together. I prayed.

“Dear God, what should I do in this trial you have situated me into? I beg for you to touch me with your holiness and guide me to the path I am about to take.” I earnestly close my eyes and pleadingly prayed with all my heart, for Our God the Father to help me.

Before the darkness consumed me, I came into conclusion.

They love me and I love them so much. They suffer with me and so will I. 

As the memories of what they have done for me 

---------------NIGHTMARE--------------

In the center of our old living room, I see a 15 year old me, who is crawled on the floor with a unconscious woman  in a pool of red blood.

She saw nothing but a pool of red blood and crash vase and a man at the top of stairs who stood still with fear and regret.

Shaking with fear and shock, the girl froze in her place with holding her breath to unable the metallic smell omitting from the blood to engulf her nose. With a trembling hand, she slowly tries to reach out to the woman until all the light turned offed.

Time stop and the darkness filled the room. In the middle of the dark room, the girl is sitting alone.

Then, out of nowhere, the lady who is once dead and the man who once stood in the staircase is coming for her repeating the words they are shouting

"It is your fault, you killed us!"

"It is your fault, you killed us!"

"It is your fault, you killed us!"

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"Zelly! Zelly wake up! please Zelly!" Ethan shouted while grabbing both my shoulders to shake me up in attempt to wake me.

I woke up immediately, shouting, struggling and shaking. Its been a months since my nightmares stop visiting me. 

I tightly embraced Ethan, hiding my face on the side of his neck while crying my hearts out. Being engulf with him, makes me feel safe, as if he was hiding me from the nightmares of my past.

Ethan is now cuddling with me and brushing my hair. We just stayed like that in silence.

Until, an annoying someone disturbed it by slumping his body in the both of us.

"How dare you both! Leave me alone in school?! If you have told me you are to absent then I should have too." Donny shouted at us.

After an hour of explaining, he came to understand and the three of us hugged each other.

When everything calms down, I took a quick breath and got up. Smiling at both of them, I stated."Alright guys, you two have fun I'll talk to uncle first."

However, before I could leave Ethan grab my hand and asked "you sure your fine"

"geez tan-tan I am fine okay? I am Zelly, did you forget? What an arrange marriage can do to me? I am tough I learned hard" I convinced him and walk out from my room towards my uncles office.

I took a deep breath before opening the door and looking straight at my uncle's eyes and said.

"I'll do it."

There I said it. A new nightmare opened up to me again. But today I am ready and more stronger, especially I know that there are people whom I can rely on.

What ever nightmare I should confront, I'll fight it head on. I won't wake up and run from it.