chasing stars

The begining

I brush my long hair and begin to braid it. Ive been growing my hair out for 17 years. I keep it trimmed but have never cut it off. When i was small i decided i wanted Repunzel's hair. I smile as i remember celebrating when it touched my waist. Now its right at the middle of my knees. I have blonde hair. I don't know where it came from though. Everyone in my family on both sides has thick, shiny black hair. My mother said my dad always wanted a blonde haired daughter. I think she just wanted me to feel better about being the odd ball. I touch my necklace and rub the smooth green stone. It was my father's. Ive worn it nearly every hour of my entire life. I only take it off when i sleep or shower. I wonder what my dad would think of me. Would he be proud? Ugh! i need to stop reminiscing. Today was enough. I wrap my braid on my head and begin wrapping my satin scarf around my head. I jump in the shower and get my pajamas on. I place my necklace on my nightstand and climb in the bed. I turn my phone off and plug it into the charger. i plop on my pillow with a big sigh. I roll on my side and try to shut my brain off. Its hard sometimes though. I open my eyes and I'm staring at a star filled sky. I look around and sit up. I'm laying on some type of animal skin. I know somehow it's bison. Its very warm and feels like it's well worn. I pull my legs to my chest. Then i feel him here ,but its like i can't will myself to turn to look behind me. Hes close now. I see there's a hand connected to an arm beside me. I feel this warmth. Its making me feel so safe. I feel so much love washing through me. I start to reach out towards the Hand. Its right there by my side. Then i feel breath on the opposite side of me at the base of my neck. I freeze and become completely still. He whispers "am i dreaming or are you real". I want to answer but its like i can't. Im trying so hard but nothing is coming out. Then i hear my alarm and i wake up crying. I sit up and rip my alarm clock up and throw it across my room. I lay back and throw my pillow over my face and scream. I hear a tap on my door. "WHAT?!" i exclaim. My mom opens the door and peeks in. " so, im taking this as i need to make a chocolate run" I throw my pillow at her and stand up "no mom, i just had a weird dream. " What kind of weird dream honey?" "I don't want to discuss this with you Mom, okay" she puts her hand up to her chin and taps her pointer finger against the side of her face. She looks around sees my alarm clock against the wall. I follow her eyes and smile " I set my alarm clock on accident. I forgot today was Saturday. " She shakes her head and turns to walk away "ill be back at supper. I have your sister with me. Micah called three times last night. Dont forget you're grounded. Ill see you later okay. i love you Eva" i reply "i love you too mom" . I sit back down and close my eyes. I touch my neck. That was intense. Hes never gotten so close

or spoken. Am i losing my mind? That dream is so real. Its like that each time. I can feel and smell things like I'm actually there. The dream is coming more often now. It use to happen maybe once a year since i can remember. The man is new though. He only appeared on my 17th birthday. My phone disrupts my thoughts. Its Micah. I answer "hello best friend" to which i hear "wait until i tell you what happened to bestow that title, my l-love" I stand up and at this point. " so my dad called this morning. He got a really good deal on a plane ticket. He says i have to leave today." i take a big breath "okay, so i come over and help you pack and cry and we say goodbye. no biggie. I can do that." "no" he says followed by the worst possible thing ever " Im already at the airport about to board the plane. "WHAT MICAH" i scream. " settle down EVA. Im sorry okay. I tried to call but your phone was off. Listen Ive got to go. I'll call soon and we will talk. I love you Eva" Im crying at this point " I love you too.Micah. Im sorry i missed saying goodbye" he replies" THIS is not goodbye Eva. We will see each other again" I hang up and feel like the worst friend ever. I am the worst friend ever. Im so going to make this up. I drag myself up and brush my teeth. I take my scarf off my head but i leave my braid. I don't feel like showering. I decide ill just be a bum today. I head downstairs and bypass breakfast and head straight for the deep freezer. I grab the vanilla Ice cream and then a spoon from the kitchen. I put the spoon in my mouth and open the pantry. I stare at it for a moment and think " okay ,what says eat your emotions the most" My eyes settle on a bag of Doritos. "winner winner chicken dinner" i say out loud. I go in the living room and start channel surfing. I must of fallen asleep because i wake up to my mom standing over me. " Finally your awake. Ive been trying to wake up for an hour. " She comes and picks my feet up and places them in her lap as she sits down. " is that my gallon tub of vanilla ice cream" she says " yeah mom sorry" i reply " Well it's done now. I came to tell you that Aunt Vivian said she'd love to have you this summer. In fact Uncle Monty is driving near here and said he'd make a detour to get you." I sit up at this point. " When is this supposed to happen exactly" i say. She looks at me and smiles " Oh, in the morning. You should probably go pack. We were going to wait until Wednesday when he was on his way back towards home , but i ran into Micah's mom at the store. She was a mess. I figured you were to, so I asked Monty to get you on his way in to Texas. You didn't miss any school this year. They'll be fine if you miss the last three days" I think i may be hyperventilating at this point. I'm having wild thoughts. Uncle Monty is a truck driver. I just give her a dead pan look. She softly giggles and pats my leg as she gets up. I sit there just letting it all settle in my mind. Im going to Arizona. THE. STATE . OF. ARIZONA. Holy cow!